hmm?

it ends tonight...should be...

2010-03-28T06:13:00.000-07:00

this gonna be my 2nd attempt to leave this blog...it was created october 2007 when i was in lower 6...planning to abandon this blog few years ago...2 years to be exact...but i guess certain things cant be force...i open a new blog
hafnimatt.wordpress.com... 3 long years and 207 posts..it ends tonight >_<..

weird

2010-03-18T02:08:00.001-07:00

this week im forced to make decisions....

since theres not much assignment i planned to go home this weekends but like some say...you can only planned but god decides everything...
first my friend ask me go this camp in taiping..since im free this weekends so i say yes...
then i message with donat...he say wanna go out this weekends with sandra all...and i somehow forget about the camp and say yes....
then on wednesday my friend say there;s debate training in kl on the same weekends...swt..i thought of canceling the trip to taiping but...for this training theres no accomodation...swt...and since i dont really like the idea of stayin in my aunt house or my friend house...i turn down the debate training and of course risking my place in the debate team...haha..
and i thought choosing between debate training camp and leadership camp already though enough..suddenly my friend in mestech call and ask to join her group for one more camp this weekends in selangor...hearing this i thought how great coincidence....from jan to march nothing suddenly 3 camp in a single weekend...hm...how not often this happens?haha

oh im sooo...

2010-02-20T05:35:00.000-08:00

indecisive....went to jusco today to watch movie...
reach there 11.30 and guess what time the movie start?2.30!..damn bored so go walk around window shopping>_<..

watched percy jackson and lightning thief actually i dont really wanna watch that movie but since other movies are full so i decided to go with it..
to be honest to movie is not that bad but not that great..just decent watchable movie..but what i really like about this movie is it involve the story about greek gods
it could be wayy better than harry potter but not original..ok i say that just because i hate harry potter haha..but who knows right?..since im already
started about it why dont i put my thought on that movie eh?
Warning spoiler...i hate to say that but you sould at least expect that right?
its a good movie but everything is cut short and simple that people who know nothing about the greek myth most probably thought that medusa just annoying little pest that get in the way of the hero. oh ya i didnt say anyting about him.
the story revolve around an ordinary boy in school who later found out he is a son of poseidon, god of...er...something..sea i think..to put it simple he is like hercules or achilles half god half human.unlike hercules he dont have thesuper strengh his power is that he can control water,heal him and stuff...his best friend who he tought is an O.K.U turn out to be a satyr if you dont know what is that he is like the hercules trainer the half goat half human creature. And one of his teacher is a centaur played by pierce brosnan wo hoo...too bad he just a side character..so to make it a story someone steal lightning from zeus and he treaten everyone he gonna start a war if he doesnt get his lightning in 14 days. And to involve the hero someone accuse percy to be the thief so everyone went after him. All the secret reveal after the first demon attack(im not sure the name i think its fury).so what they do? Go to half god half human camp..yes i know..harry potter stuff..but the camp only difference is that it is in a forest where all the people wear somewhat like trojan warrior and have pointless practice battle. On the way to the camp or rather at the gate of the camp, a minnoatur (sorry i have no idea how to spell it but try to imagine it as a bull head but with body builder figure with the six pack all and i think cow feet and oh yeah with the size of elephant)come and thought to have killed his mother at first. After few second of fight yes..the hero won killing the big thing. Then scene at camp met the heroine,become hero in pointless battle and yes my favorite part..
hades drop by to trade the lightning with percy’s mom. So he wanna save his mom centaur say no but he do it anyway so off he go finding crystal that can bring them back from the underworld cause it seems easy to go in but no way to go out except the crystal..yes i know some of you dont un what i wrote
1st crystal fight medusa,2nd crystal fight hydra,3rd crystal fight illusion temptation delusion whatever you call it.then go pay a visit to hades and where is the door to hell?..ironicly hollywood..
Found hades and tell he dont have the lightning but coincidenly his trojan shield suddenly glowing at the inside and hades found the lightning. Hades wanna kill them all but saved by hades wife who dont wanna the world to end cause she wont have anyone to hang out with and gonna stuck in hell with hades forever...since everyone is dead.
So hades dead and they wanna return but only 3 crystal and 4 people..the satyr decided to stay..after that they wanna go to mount olympus but find themself in the empire state building..why?..oh the gate to olympus is there..wth..but just as they wanna go inside the gate,Luke, the one who gave percy the shield come to stop them..it seem he is the lightning thief and he want zeus to start a war so that all god die and half god replace them..so fight fight hero win they give back the lightning to zeus the boy met his father poseidon and the girl met her mom er...i know its know aprhodite...some girl god the strategist i think.so ...happy ending

See the storyline quite quick and there;s no character development. The battle is fake, some of the things look pointless and unoriginal..i talking about the camp,trojan training .duh..i think sky high makes more sense

Ok enough movie back to real life..after i watch movie i thought of buying some shirt.go padini,nike,reject shop, all la..but i dont really feel like worth buying...is it just me or the design few years ago are better...i really would want to have all that time..so in the end i didnt buy anything cause the one i like are few and all of em have size issues.so does boots..i plan to buy football boot since my old one ‘crack’ few months ago and im playing football in the field using futsal shoes which is effing slippery if the grass is wet..not to mention my shoe color is white...i need to wash it everytime after i play..but come to think of it 90% of my shoe are white haha only my old boot and the shoe i use to work at jusco are black..

Night..i do something for the first time and it feels ackward..message my coursemate jhen what time he wanna pick me up tomoro cause going back to uni together..its the 5th time i gonna go back with him but he dont wanna accept money..seriously i feel wrong..so i thought of buying ciggarates for him since he smoke. I dont really like treat someone to dinner or lunch..no idea why..so i thought of message his friend which brand he usually buy..lol remind me of something..i do this to ask my friend address and she end up calling me a stalker..well if she wanna think im like that..so be it..im a stalker>_Say i wanna send to Mei saying ‘May is stupid she dont wanna help me could you help me?’if accidently send to May...huge super ultra misunderstanding will happen..the message just wanna ask Mei for help but if accidently send to May it become May is a stupid lazy fucking bitch that wont help me..and this can happen..since i like to use te word stupid a lot...sigh..

deeper conversation

2010-02-17T09:47:00.000-08:00

is your favorite color blue?
do you always tell the truth?
did someone took a portion of your heart?

and if you dont mind can you tell me all your hope and fears
and everything that you believe in
would you make a difference in the world
i love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
only you can make me....

gloria~~

2010-02-14T11:07:00.000-08:00

never thought i gonna post another song by yui... but here it goes

ah ah ah ah ah
Miwaku no tobira jyuurai no tenbou datte
yuragisou ni naru seishun jidai de
jinsei ga kawaru koishitai no ni
okubyou ni naru mondai yamadzuminan da
kotae wo michibiku tame ni ha This feeling
kirisuterarenai All night long

Yume janaiyai yai yai yai yai?
te ga todokisou na GLORIA
tama ni mienakunatte

Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
chikamichi wo sagashite mo onaji ne
mata mayotte shimau desho

ah ah ah ah ah
seikousha no koe takadaka ni
kataru EPISOODO taningoto mitai
ima no watashi chiisana heya de
kangaeteiru kuusou no mirai ni
toikakete miru keredo That feeling
IMEEJI dekinai no ga All night long

Maketenai yai yai yai yai?
Kagayaku saki ni GLORIA
chikadzuiteru hazu sa

Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
Mou dare no sei ni mo shinai yo
zenbu dakishimeteiku
Muchuu ni narena kya uso ne

uh uh uh sakura ga saku koro ni kitto
uh uh uh atarashii jibun ni deaeru no

yume janai hazu yo mukuwareru to shinjiteru
hontou ha kowaii kedo
Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
kuyashii kimochi ga aru kara Get Glory days*

Maketenai yai yai yai yai?
kagayaku saki ni GLORIA
chikadzuiteru hazu sa

Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
nemurenai yoru ni hitori
hiza wo kakaekonde mo
baby naiteru jikan ha nai

ah ah ah ah ah

English Translation

ah ah ah ah ah
The door to fascination? Even your view of your future
Tries to change, because of your youth
Your life changes, you want a girlfriend/boyfriend
But you become a coward, it's like a mountain full of challenges
In order to find the answer,
I can't throw away this feeling, all night long

Isn't it your dream?
Just a bit more, and you feel you can reach it
Sometimes I can't see it anymore

Cry?
It's the same even if you look for a shortcut
You'll just get lost again

ah ah ah ah ah
All the successful people, they boast
about their experiences, but they sound like they're talking about others
And here I am, in this small room
Thinking, Dreaming of my future
I ask myself, but
I can't imagine that feeling, all night long

Aren't you losing?
GLORIA just past that bright future
You sure are getting closer

Cry?
I won't blame others anymore
I'll take it all myself
If you can't forget about youself and do this frantically, it's all a lie

uh uh uh When sakura starts blooming
uh uh uh I'll probably be able to find my new self

It's not a dream, you believe that you can do this
Although I'm scared inside

Cry?
You feel vexed, so Get glory days

Aren't you losing?
GLORIA in front of the bright future
You sure are getting closer

Cry?
Alone during sleepless nights
Even when you wrap your arms around your knees
baby theres no time to cry

ah ah ah ah ah

a beautiful word

2010-02-07T08:54:00.000-08:00

heard one beautiful word today...yesterday is memories,today is truth and tomorrow is hope..just how true is that?...it really meant a lot for me..

yesterday i met you i know you..we laugh together..went thru good times and bad times..i miss it...i wont forget it...
today...im not with you...im with someone else..im happy to be here but i wont forget that im once with you
tomorrow...i hope somehow we'll meet again...no matter when..,dota,movies,mcd anything!...as long as you remember this one unimportant person for you right now..hope someway..we'll laugh about yesterday...i hope...

who am i dedicate this to?...you...i miss you.....im not emo or homesick or anything trust me!>_<...im doing an assignment right now and found this word and suddenly think of my past life..thats all

bless

2010-02-06T15:22:00.000-08:00

laruku new single bless>_<..love the song but the mv... i dont quite like it...wasted few minute download the hd version of the vid...

Kimi e to yume wa ima

Tooi chiheisen e mukai yasashii ude kara
Zutto kaketekitandane
Saisho wa chiisai hohaba de

Hitotsu hitotsu ho wo susume
Furimukeba nagai ashiato
Nigandetemo massugu
You have come a long way
Everything is for today

Kimi he to yume wa ima - Me no mae de kirameiteru
Hanabira no maifuru you na yuki ga shukufuku shita

Hanabanashii kisetsu mo yokome ni sugisari
Tameiki shiroku tsuite
Mayottari mo shita kedo

Shinto haritsumeta fuukei
Kodou wa takanari wo oboe
Afureru omoi wa kono shunkan wo koeru
Everything is for today

Sora e to kanenone ga toki wo tsuge narihibikuyo
Tsubasa hiroge tobidatteyuku kimi ni shukufuku are

Omoi wo nose kimi wa ima daichi wo keru
Kokoro hitotsu yorokobi mo kanashimi mo zembu tsumekonde

Kimi he to yume wa ima - Me no mae de kirameiteru
Hanabira no maifuru you na yuki ga shukufuku shita

200th post

2010-02-05T10:37:00.000-08:00

what should i write?life?trust me its boring...except the part i somehow throw a bowling ball from my lane and somehow ended up in my friend lane...don't ask how...
chinese new year is approaching fast so does assignment..but this year everything kinda went smoothly...except the part where i dont put battery on the notebook..and...my friend accidently switch off the plug.....movies...watch toothfairy great movie, i love the rock, go watch it. simple as that. then just now watch pisau cukur...yes i love some malay movie...try watch it..you may love it...but even some of my malay friend dont like it...they say..erm..very...kl-ish..the movie is directed by bernard chauly..i love his works and afdlin shauki's works...gonna upload the dancing scene if i got time...and good internet connection...cant even upload pic on facebook with the hostel wifi,p1 or maxis broadband....'i live in a jungle'...if a foreigner ask me where i live n how my internet speed...

my life is boring..its a fact..if you say your life is more dull than mine...maybe..cause we all living a boring life,,,,study study study..work...i wanna join activities...but either im lazy or scared or stupid or something...they organized a lot of stuff in uni but everytime i ask my friend join they either say lazy or no money...and like last time my english lecturer ask me to join the debate team..yes im excited but not confident enough and when she say the name she ask to join i was like...whoa..great...all somewhat like band 6 student..and im like nothing..but....i when i ask all this fella whether they wanna join the debate team guess what they say..lazy la..no money la...swt..wtf...same answer like my friend...so if you ever wonder why the malay school debater suck ass shit....simply because...the real good english speaking fella lazy wanna join this kind of stuff....sad eh?...and yeah..later i found out one of my friend join the debate team..and seriously...he suck....oh well...that their problem now...and then theres trip to gunung kinabalu..quite cheap...rm500 i think..if wanna go yourself i think need around rm1000++..again...my friend dont want and i just simply...scared...dont know why...i want to but i dont want to...hell there even hot girls going but i just simply cant...sad rite?but my problem with stranger not only with girls...even in football field..whenever semester 4 or 5 student wanna join us play football i cant getting along with em even if we're on the same team..worst thing is..i walk away

talking about walking away...been done that a hell lot over the year...whenever someone angry, or talks bad about me or i dont feel comfortable with a certain situation.....i walk away.....running from problems...damn....thinking of this i remember being scolded by my math teacher in form 6....she directly scold me for trying to run away...what i do?she remind us few times she gonna give a short test and i skip school...normally teachers just shake their head or something but direct scolding in front of class....yes it do hurt but its hard to break the habit...........damn wrong song at wrong time...now listening to olivia ong's fades away...sad song for sad time...i think its time to kill some zombies....l4d2!..thanks for reading

his day

2010-01-07T08:38:00.000-08:00

Do some crazy stuff today. My parent cant send me to uni since they gonna send my cousin for some registration. Maybe uni too. Hell like i care. That kid got parent. But divorced. Father somewhere in somewhere. Mother cant take leave. My parent is somewhat the type put family first very different than me. Oh wait. Everyone different than me in my family. Im weird. Enough said. And personally i dont really care how im going back to uni. My father knows that. So basically today went to uni to register and put my stuff at the hostel. Driving. Alone.>_<. 6.50am-wake up. my stupid brother and sister didn't wake me up earlier. they only know to wake me at 6.50am so around 7am i can fetch them 2 at 7 after eat and everything leave house at 7.20.yes both my sis and bro are late. 9.30am-reach penang zzzz this is not my diary. shouldn't do like this. But all the event kinda fun didnt want to skip much at the bank to pay for registration fees this one guy suppose to give us the stupid number...he's an ass. While writing down the pay slip i see this guy damn friendly with leng luis and aweks(swt im not sure what malay call pretty girls. i know its leng lui and sarike for chinese and indians)and kinda ignore the old uncle who like standing in front of him like stupid cause didnt know how to use atm machine. Luckily the bored bank security guard come to save the day(yes i always ask security guard if im not sure how to do something in banks. Its better than ask all the rushing clerks at the bank;p). I didnt think he's an ass until i stand in front of him for like 10 sec before he decides to give his friendly service in helping one lost damsel in distress behind me. With his not-so-charming smile he offered his hand and the helpless lady hand in some bank book and with overwhelming confident the a**hole use his perfectly chosen words to astound the lady with his not-so-great knowledge. And as many fairy tales goes the lady thanking the hero knowing that she debted to him as if not for his assistance she would never withdraw her money or the cheque cant be claim or something and she would eventually die. Actually im not that piss off with that guy what makes me remember him is that i said to him 'desperate sangat ke?' and he give me one kind of look then i just smile and shake my head. make some new friend while registering but doesnt really matter. What shit is one friend or so i called a 'friend' actually bad mouth me and my friend told me today. Finish register went to my 'new room' tell you all later bout that and found out a lot of people already register. So,install the new cod-mw2 i bought after went to the bank>_<>_<. If that is the way you treat your friend. Maybe you can count me out..or......maybe you're jealous of me?????????haha..i know you gonna read this sooner or later that's why i put it here hope you read it somehow i have no grudge against you or anything but i really hate hating people theres too much of hate already and i always thought of this phrase-its better to have more friend than enemy. But one thing you should know. i didnt mad or anything really...i just dont care..thats all..my friend all kinda know me already and they all kinda cool with me. Made a lot of friend in uni and most of em know im an ok guy thats why they tell me if got gossip bout me..at least people notice me here compared to last time haha>_<>_<>_< kelam haha...quite nice around 7pm headed ipoh.i'll be scolded if my parent know i drive all the way up north haha

and he decides..

2010-01-03T09:06:00.000-08:00

For me this is the most beautiful song of the decade....

Yu Jian (Sun Yan-zi)

Ting jian Dong tian de li kai
Wo zai mou nian mou yue xing guo lai
Wo xiang Wo deng Wo qi dai
Wei lai que bu neng yin ci an pai

Yin tian Bang wan Che chuang wai
Wei lai you yi ge ren zai deng dai
Xiang zuo Xiang you Xiang qian kan
Ai yao guai ji ge wan cai lai

Wo yu jian shei Hui you zen yang de dui bai
Wo deng de ren Ta zai duo yuan de wei lai
Wo ting jian feng Lai zi di tie he ren hai
Wo pai zhe dui Na zhe ai de hao ma pai

Wo wang qian fei Fei guo yi pian shi jian hai
Wo men ye chang zai ai qing li shou shang hai
Wo kan zhe lu Meng de ru kou you dian zhai
Wo yu jian ni shi zui mei li de yi wai

Zhong you yi tian Wo de mi di hui jie kai

To Meet (Stefanie Sun)

I can hear the winter leaving
I am awaking in some year, some month
I think, I wait, I am awaiting
But the future can't be arranged like this

An overcast dusk outside the car window
In the future, someone is expecting me
Look to the left, to the right, to the front
How many twists and turns will love take before coming?

What kind of conversation will I have when I meet someone?
The person I'm waiting for, how distant is he in my future?
I hear the wind coming from the subway and crowd of people
I'm standing in line, holding onto love's ticket number*

I fly forwards, flying across an ocean of time
We are also often hurt while in love
I look at the road, the entrance to this dream is a little narrow
Me meeting you is the most beautiful accident

There must be a day when I'll find a solution to the puzzle

2010-01-02T07:10:00.000-08:00

For some reason i feel that my English suck.No idea why but i cant help thinking about it.Others do convince me that my English is ok but i still thinks my English suck.Here some funny joke i found on net.Quite funny.And Kimi Ni Todoke is great>_<

Some interesting theories about human and pigs:

Human = eat + sleep + work + enjoy
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Human = Pigs + work + enjoy
if, Human - enjoy = Pigs + work
in other words,

Human that don't know how to enjoy = pigs that work

Men = eat + sleep + earn money
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Men = Pigs + earn money
therefore, Men - earn money = Pigs
in other words,

Men that don't earn money = Pigs

Women = eat + sleep + spend
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Women = Pigs + spend
therefore, Women - spend = Pigs
In other words,

Women that don't spend = Pigs

Summary:
Men earn money not to let women become pigs!
Women spend not to let men become pigs!

Men + Women = 2 Pigs

internet

2010-01-01T01:27:00.000-08:00

internet is a scary place.i want to download this one files but i not sure the validity of the files.Well, he could put some file different than the one on the filename. Paranoid as usual i google his username and to my surprise i actually tracking all his internet activities and it kinda scary knowing that your information are all across the internet.Why i said this? he kinda active in forum and myspace and even though i have no idea who is he but i kinda know what kind of person he is.As for me,i think im quite safe since matt is a common name and hafni too surprisingly and _matt is not unique at all.There's a lot of _matt all over internet.Sigh i thought im the only person in the world using that name

new year
hehe this thought of mine is somewhat similar to some islamic preacher or ustaz ustaz but people do celebrate too much right?Its new year and concert everywhere seriously i think its stupid.Why would people make this somewhat a special day or something?But one thing i do love about all this is this year recap and everything...time sure flies..went out few days ago and discover they built one basketball court around 100m from my house.Sad right?after one month holiday i found out this.Towards this year end i spend my time reading article about game of the decade this of the decade that of the decade.Quite fun actually reading those thing.Come to think of it its my first time celebrate a new decade haha wtf..

copyright~~=.=!!

2009-12-22T06:46:00.000-08:00

when i wanna start some project (normally sharing games,music or software) the 1st thing that came into my mind is this thing....seriously i dont wanna get sued and i dont look down on these people...they are lunatic they'll hunt you down..or if youre unlucky..you'll get sued...maybe you think im paranoid since milions of people doing this kind of stuff rite?but hell why should i take my chance?

end of decade?OMG

2009-12-20T06:54:00.000-08:00

i didnt really realise we are closing to the end of a decade..LOL...going to forum as usual and theres end of decade chat...i was like..wtf?end of decade????...but its about music..so i wrote a BIT about my thought on music..so heres what i wrote...not that much..its a forum anyway not a blog where you can whine and write your ranting about how your mother dont give you extra pocket money or how she order you do chores few milion line in one post haha..

oh ya if you notice i put a label there...its for me..if i wanna watch some of the vid i put here say funny vid i just search for labels...but IF somehow any of you wanna use it heres the guide...
# and they always talks about-song lyric..its a weird label to put song lyric
# imagine -post with pic..again..it;ll be weird if a label i put pic
# jpop -pretty understandable rite?
# just the kind of thought -posts which contain my thought on something
# living instead of exist -post contains what i do...watch movie or somethin
# magical display -vposts with vids..im thinkin magic box since ppl from ancient time brought to the future and nvr see tv say tv is magic box..but tv now not box...so i change to magic display...but magic?sounds harry potter-ish..magical..im thinkin final fantasy...but one of the latest vid is bonnie pink chances are..yes it is indeed magical display..
# music -if you dont really know..go to www.google.com in the box type 'music define'
# procastinating -posts i wrote whenever i should do something else...say..assignment?

c pop-since its cmb ill start with cpop...jolin wu niang....in my school or any school if there is a dancing performance....im pretty sure its their 1st choice of song...kinda sick listening to it at some point though,,,if there is a singing competition or go karaoke with friends...lee hom forever love...internet cafe...hearing this song over and over...bu de bu ai by pan wei bo....and last but certainly not the least...JAY CHOU!!!...music movies...he just awesome...i think better let some other bigger fan of jay chou elaborate on it haha...
personal favourite-sun yan zi,jay chou,lee hom,wilber pan,cyndi wang xin lin,amber kuo,janice wei lan,FIR,twins,jolin,evonne hsu...more toward slow song haha...edit later if i remember

kpop....i love samsung ad for anycall..anyband with promise you,day dream,talk play love not forgetting anymotion,anystar and anyclub by lee hyori....not really a fan but it seems tvxq kinda made an impact love few of thier song...and also rain...then all those group super junior,wonder girl,koyote,snsd
personal favorite-lee hyori,boa,koyote,snsd,tvxq..more toward catchy beat

erm my fave band greenday turn from superb punk rock band into some...erm....i dont know...american idiot?
sigh....hoobastank,train as good as ever,mika,james blunt....most popular weird thing..kelly clarkson,leona lewis...superb...

jpop....ayumi hamasaki....undoubtly most popular singer...maybe not anymore....but doesnt mean the best...discover my favorite singer..bonnie pink and rie fu...love their song...im more a jpop person than a cpop...but i like it here...n i do listen to chinese music....simply because im anime fans>_<

omfg haha

2009-12-19T16:32:00.001-08:00

janice new album cover...haha

blarggg

2009-12-15T10:55:00.000-08:00

random title>_<...suppose to write this post around 1am..but now 3am...
its about msn contact..or rather...dont feel like chatting
like i say suppose to write this arond 1am...sigh..nvm

1am
am waiting for download to finish.suppose to finish around 1.30am so around 1am i waited in front of pc waiting for download to finish...yea..still got 30 minute and im waiting.its cnc ra3 i think its out after i enter uni and i got the chance to play it at some cc in bukit mertajam..funny remembering that story...

bukit mertajam.penang
its my 1st time going back ipoh.i was in hurry since,its my 1st time going back home from uni haha.i didnt really do much research and straight ask some 'so called local'friends they say 'bukit mertajam i heard got bus to ipoh'.BUT some other say penang sentral easier and this some other are locals like guard and one kakak i met on the way to bus stand.at that moment i have no idea that penang sentral is some sort place like melaka sentral in melaka or puduraya in kl.but then again my stupidity...ok lets just leave it like that. i wanted to go straight to where i reach bukit mertajam but suddenly remember about this kakak.actually while waiting for the bus in front of uni i got tired of waiting and wanna take cab.but waste money haha.so i decided negotiate with the kakak split money half2 take cab.and yea because i play football manager all i always negotiate buy player all..haha ok enough crap.so talk a lot with her.she also point out that i shouldnt go bukit mertajam.and say follow her go penang sentral.but hey im a genius i dont need to listen some diploma girl who work at place she do internship so i went to bukit mertajam lalala.to my surprise theres no bus station or anything in bukit mertajam.and the so called a lot of bus is just a lot of shop to buy ticket.from class 3pm reach bukit mertajam 3.30 earliest bus 6pm cool....oh ya just remember why i choose bukit mertajam.theres a train station.i thinkin to take train.but sadly earlist train is 9pm.so what i do?back to the story~~play cnc ra3.i dont really like.too..anime-ish haha.moral of the story?locals know local place more than some local kid who never actually take bus to go outside his place.but even almost same thing happens again most probably i still do the same thing.why i choose bukit mertajam?1st my friend told me.he live in penang,showed me around on weekends,surely i trust him more than stranger rite?then train and bus option.sure theres a lot of bus in penang sentral.but how many go ipoh?all the person i ask dont know at all.i cant take risk rite?at least i know if no bus theres always train at nite.above all i have 0 experience take express bus traveling state to state.on the bright side.i can now go anywhere in malaysia without problem i guess.

ok that is bukit mertajam story.

msn contact.actually im doing this because the game is installed this very second and mine is a rip version.it take longer to install.say...30m min?i no idea.pes2010 take 1 hour to install haha.but fifa10 quickerand twice the pes2010 size.weird all this rip thingy.
for some reason i lost interest to chat in msn or any im.no idea why.last time i could last hours chattin.now.1 hour also already too hard.last decent chat i think with jyn ling and vincy.funny how my story n jyn ling is.haha.the world sure is small
oh yea msn chat.ok around 1am theres like 30 contact in my list but now is 3.40am so no one is around in my contact list still got people but i doubt the actually people still there.i think all zzz d.now if people kacau me sure i like hey yea ok sure why not later ok? bye.so basically i wanna post 30 list and why i dont want chat with them now turn to journey to bukit mertajam.oh wth haha.nitez

maybe...

2009-12-15T01:57:00.001-08:00

a good sign that i need to go out...
im already in facebook and i click on facebook tab on the bookmark bar....
maybe i should go exercise...
MAYBE...friends already askin go futsal...but too bad not enough people...
it seems everyone is everywhere...except me...wish i can go back uni...
this life sucks...i dont wanna work jusco...i dont wanna do some stupid work like waiter..i cant work pc shop...im not that good on pc...there is nothing wrong with not doing the thing we dont enjoy rite?wanna go jog...quite quiet if go alone...boring...

http://forum.lowyat.net/topic/1260000/+180&#entry30589264

they always talks about

2009-12-14T08:36:00.000-08:00

iwanai koto no modokashisa　iisugiru orokasa

mawatte meguru toki no　masui　yowasa
tooi kuni no koto hanashite　okane ni tsuite oshiete
kare wa zutto mukashi no koibito no hanashi o shiteiru

And they always talk about connections
And they always talk about the surface
And she always talks about her boyfriend
And he always talks about his ex-girlfriend

Oh I’m not giving it up cause I know there’s gotta be someone here
Walk the detours, I don’t care
I talk to you, “everything that I wanna say or do is make it real”
Just like my ears, my eyes, and everything that I see
Melting on my face, my eyes, and everything that I see

How do you find when you just don’t know?
How do you search when you just don’t know?
How do you love when you just don’t know?

dear..

2009-12-13T08:29:00.000-08:00

its kana nishino new song...quite nice...the title...dear..

01 Dear

"Jaa ne" tte itte kara mada
Gofun mo tattenai no ni
Sugu ni aitakute mou ichido oh baby
Gyutto shite hoshikute boy, miss you

Moshimo futari kaeru basho ga onaji dattara
Tokei ni jama sarenakute mo ii oh no no
Okaeri mo oyasumi mo soba de ietara
Donna ni shiawase daro?
Just want to stay with you

Demo ne, keitai ni kimi no namae ga hikaru tabi ni
Itsu datte hitori ja nai ndayo tte
Oshiete kureru

Aenai jikan ni mo aishisugite
Me wo tojireba itsudemo kimi ga iru yo
Tada soredake de tsuyoku nare yo
Futari issho nara kono saki mo

Donna koto demo norikoerareru yo
Kawaranai ai de tsunaide iku yo
Zutto kimi dake no watashi de iru kara
Kimi ni todoketai kotoba
Always love you

Tomodachi no noroke hanashi de
Mata chotto setsunaku natte oh no no
"Ima kara mukae ni kite"
Nante ietara donna ni shiawase darou?
Just want you to stay with me

Demo ne, yappari wagamama wa ienai
Komarasetakunai
Itsudatte ganbatteru kimi no egao ga
Daisuki dakara

Aenai jikan ni mo aishisugite
Me wo tojireba itsudemo kimi ga iru yo
Tada soredake de tsuyoku nareru yo
Futari issho nara kono saki mo

Donna koto demo norikoerareru yo
Kawaranai ai de tsunaide iku yo
Zutto kimi dake no watashi de iru kara
Kimi ni todoketai kotoba
Always love you

"Heiki dayo" tte
Ittara uso ni naru kedo
"Daijoubu" tte omoeru no wa
Kimi dakara

Aenai jikan ni mo aishisugite
Me wo tojireba itsudemo kimi ga iru yo
Tada soredake de tsuyoku nare yo
Futari issho nara kono saki mo

Donna koto demo norikoerareru yo
Kawaranai ai de tsunaide iku yo
Zutto kimi dake no watashi de iru kara
Kimi ni todoketai kotoba
Always love you

Dare yori mo kimi no koto
Aishiteru yo.

TRANSLATION

Even though it hasn't even been 5 minutes since we said good bye,
I want to see you again so soon oh baby,
I want you to hold me tight, I miss you.

If the place where we returned to was the same,
I wouldn't mind being interrupted by the clock oh no no.
If you were to say "Welcome Home" and "Good Night" by my side,
How happy would I be?
I just want to stay with you.

But whenever your name lights up from my cell, you always let me know that I am never alone.

I treasure the time we aren't together so much.
You are there whenever I close my eyes.
I can become strong just because of that, and if we're together than surely in the future as well.

No matter what happens we can overcome it.
We'll be connected by this unchanging love.

Because I'm always by your side,
I want to say to you,
"I will always love you".

When you speak fondly of your friends,
I feel just a little bit of pain oh no no.
If you were to say "I'm coming to see you now", how happy would I be?
I just want you to stay with me.

But I really can't voice out this selfishness of mine,
I don't want to be a bother.
I love your smile when you are trying your best.

I treasure the time we aren't together so much.
You are there whenever I close my eyes.
I can become strong just because of that, and if we're together than surely in the future as well.

No matter what happens we can overcome it.
We'll be connected by this unchanging love.

Because I'm always by your side,
I want to say to you,
"I will always love you".

If I were to say "I'm ok" it would be a lie, because the one who can think like that is you.

I treasure the time we aren't together so much.
You are there whenever I close my eyes.
I can become strong just because of that, and if we're together than surely in the future as well.

No matter what happens we can overcome it.
We'll be connected by this unchanging love.

Because I'm always by your side,
I want to say to you,
"I will always love you".

More than anyone else, I love you

my oh my~~

2009-12-11T21:17:00.000-08:00

just a random title

i recently showed my friend this blog
he tell me
who reads my blog
since all the comment are 0
IF any of you ever wonder
who read this blog
to be honest
i have no idea
to be honest
i dont really care
and it doesnt really matter to me
ever heard the phrase
blogging is to express and not to impress?
and yea that is exactly what im doing
writing whatever i feels like
my favorite songs,mv,lyric
comment about latest games i played,movies i watched
but i can say one thing
true even i myself wonder sometimes
who actually read this blog
im pretty much human like everyone
so i do have a BIT sense of curiosity
not 100% dont care dont know dont want attitude haha
so i think last time i put the feedjit thing
tell from where people come and go where
actually it is great
i found that some people i dont even think they read this blog
at least they actually link this blog and i dont know who reads but surely someone right?

i guess thats enough with that.talking about that.it kinda reminds me with my IT lecture few months back.my lecturer ask me.whats the purpose of you.i answer.so that my friends know what im doing and they can keep up with our latest news.deep down.i know its a lie.haha lets face it 90% of you have no idea where i'm studying at. and 50% dont even know which state my uni is at. and 99.9% dont even know my 1st sem result.even my uni friend.even i dont understand myself.when i get bad result i dont want people to sympathize me.when i get great result i dont want people to compliment me.why?because theres always someone who fails and pass.if i pass i feel bad for people who fail.and i ask them whats their result.they just say fail.then i pause and say something like never mind you can do better next time.and if someone tell me something like that if i fail..fuck you i dont need you to tell me that.i guess that is normal for every guy.dont really like if someone look down or sympathize them.like recently the result is out.i dont expect this one friend of mine to get bad result.he got around 2.2 and he ask me back.i just say bad.like i always say.and normally people will say.no la you smart sure get high one.and i replied.i say bad you dont trust me.so my result?hell i wont tell haha...even no one know my stpm,spm result why should anyone know my uni result rite?haha.its just numbers by the way.

home.
its been 2 weeks since the break starts.i think only went out 4 times.never knew going out with friends is so fun.honestly i try to reduce my $$$$$ usage haha.trip to kl last month just cost me too much and i planning to get high end notebook next month.so after kl couldnt afford to lose more money or i'll ended up having some cheap unreliable stupid slow notebook for few years in uni.

kl.
1 week there spend around 1k
how naive of me thinking can have fun in kl with rm300.maybe in ipoh 1 week 300 is reasonable but seriously.haha.best part is.bought a 200 shoe just to be stolen.ok that is the best part about me.the best part about people who went with me.is 1 girl.people say shes too nice.guess what she do?1 guy in motor ask her direction.then.ask her borrow her phone to call friend.and erm you can all guess what happen .in kl went to my aunt house and coincidentally my cousin sister return from perth that week.hang out with her.kinda nice.talking to her kinda make me more motivated to study.she says gonna do master in uk next next year 2011 i think..not so sure and challenge me to beat her.seriously i dont think i can haha.this sem i think she get around high 3.8.and in australian uni.

smi
went out with kevin and waited for him or rather he waited for me in front of school.that day.i think stpm still going because can still see girl in green skirtXD.then i tell kevin ei that might be our junior.you know her?he say does it really matter?not like we going go out with her play dota or something.haha how true is that?.but meeting with kevin late is just the starting.suppose to meet 10.30 but i come at 11...my uni habit is getting worst.

new moon
watch new moon with kah yan n joe wai.my my both look really different.people change eh?too bad i couldnt stay long cause need pack go kl..again...haha..and yeah again.i come late.the movie start at 11 i come 11.10.luckily we just missed 1st 5 min.the movie is nice.it seems people say its bad just because couldnt stand the fact shirtless handsome guy run here and there.on the contrary how many movies have a girl half naked run around and all guys seems like it.i think transformers where the part the evil robot disguise as hot girl try to seduce the main character and i remember the 'happy' noise coming from everyone which i think mostly malay+ guys LOLxD.overall its a decent movie.not bad and not the best just average and ok.2012....just too stupid.its worth watching to see the world collapse but for the storyline,cg,plot and everything.just crap.

polo ground.
went to polo ground yesterday to jog.that was the nawaitu.see saidy oh wth he wearing jeans n some nice shoe.and he thought i call him come there to chat ONLY...funny thing is i saw guan yee.but she didnt notice me so i was like...ok..maybe thats not her.then i ask said hey is that her?he say nah mayb u need to upgrade your spec or something.again she pass us and didnt notice us.said was like.hey it COULD be her!but i look at her if really her sure notice us one.then we decide to walk the opposite way.then only she notice us haha.ipoh so damn small.she going back NUS today at 10pm so i think now she n saidy hang out in jusco.funny thing she say is.she ask us what you doing here?said answer chatting la.she then say....haha so gay...oh wtf..

again...

2009-12-11T08:59:00.000-08:00

i HATE YUI...why?...she sounds...i cant describe it...something like...trying too hard?..i dont know maybe its just me...another thing is...most of her song are rock song but i feel like the rhythm n style is pretty much same...and i hate the way she try to act cool like in all her pv....but recently i watch hagane no renjutshusi 2009..and the 1st time i heard the opening song i was like...wow sounds good....then few second....wait she sounded familiar..like...something i hate....oh its YUI...
ah nevermind...it sounds good anyway...maybe i should try watch the pv....so after few months...LOL...i decided to watch the pv and 1st few second of the pv....oh here we go again..she n guitar acting cool...sigh...start singing....eh...this doesnt sound like the song in the op...check and compare the op n the pv....sigh..no wonder the one in anime sounds good...THEY EDIT IT...it seem the first part of the song in anime is final part of the song....but nevermind...song still ok...so i was still right...and...i still dont like YUI...mayb i'll try her other songs.......MAYBE....
and 1 more thing....i NEVER say she's not good and all the negative thought..is just me...but this song kinda remind me of l arc en ciel..mayb thats y i like this song

Yume no tsuzuki oikaketeita hazu nano ni
Magarikunetta hosoi michi hito ni tsumazuku

Ano koro ni mitai ni tte modoritai wake janai no nakushitekita sora wo sagashiteru
Wakattekuremasu you ni gisei ni natta you na kanashii kao wa yamete yo

Tsumi no saigo wa namida janai yo zutto kurushiku seotte kun da
Deguchi mienai kanjou meiru ni
Dare wo matteru no
Shiroi NOOTO ni tsuzutta you ni motto sunao ni hakidashitai yo
Nani kara nogaretainda
Genjitsu tte yatsu

Kanaeru tame ni ikiterun datte
Wasurechaisou na yoru no mannaka
Bunan ni nante yatterarenai kara
Kaeru basho mo nai no
Kono omoi wo keshite shimau ni wa
Mada jinsei nagai deshou (I'm on the way)
Natsukashikunaru
Konna itami mo kangei jan

Ayamaranakucha ikenai yo ne aa gomen ne
Umaku ienakute shinpai kaketa mama datta ne

Ano hi kakaeta zenbu ashita kakaeru zenbu
Junban tsuketari wa shinai kara
Wakattekuremasu you ni sotto me wo tojitanda
Mitakunai mono made miendamon

Iranai uwasa ni chotto hajimete kiku hatsugen docchi
Mukaiattara tomodachi datte
Uso wa yamete ne
Fukai HAATO ga iradatsu you ni karadan naka moeteirun da
Hontou wa kitai shiten no
Genjitsu tte yatsu

Kanaeru tame ni ikiterun datte
Sakebitaku naru yo kikoete imasu ka
Bunan ni nante yatterarenai kara
Kaeru basho mo nai no
Yasashisa ni wa itsumo kansha shiteru
Dakara tsuyoku naritai (I'm on the way)
Susumu tame ni
Teki mo mikata mo kangei jan

Douyatte tsugi no DOA akerun dakke kangaeteru
Mou hikikaesenai monogatari hajimatterun da
Me wo samase me wo samase

Kono omoi wo keshite shimau ni wa
Mada jinsei nagai deshou
Yarinokoshiteru koto yarinaoshite mitai kara
Mou ichido yukou

Kanaeru tame ni ikiterun datte
Sakebitaku naru yo kikoete imasu ka
Bunan ni nante yatterarenai kara
Kaeru basho mo nai no
Yasashisa ni wa itsumo kansha shiteru
Dakara tsuyoku naritai (I'm on the way)
Natsukashikunaru
Konna itami mo kangei jan

suki

2009-12-10T15:13:00.000-08:00

ichido suki ni nareba　kirai ni narenai
kirai na mono wa suki ni nareru kedo
dattara minna suki ni naretara ii
sore wa totemo　moroku naru to iu koto

deai mo wakare mo　zenbu zaisan ni naru naraba
mou kowagaru koto wa nai deshou?

suki no kazu ga fueru　hitotsu zutsu　kakasenai no
uchiaketai　kono kimochi　ima

Wide awake ’till the sun comes up,
’till the sun goes up, and it feels good
Wide awake ’till the sun goes up,
’till the sun goes up

donna ni nengetsu ga nagarete mo
kitto kawaranai ne　kimi to boku no kizuna
taisetsu na mono wa fueteiku bakari
ichiban to ka niban to ka　kantan ni erabenai

nemui to me o kosuru　soto wa akaruku natte
demo nemuru riyuu wa nai deshou?

suki no kazu ga fueru　sagashiteru　sono deai o
uchiaketai　kono kimochi　ima

Wide awake ’till the sun goes up,
’till the sun goes up, and it feels good
Wide awake ’till the sun goes up,
’till the sun goes up.......

man of the match

2009-12-06T16:31:00.001-08:00

fuckin sad

2009-11-30T18:17:00.001-08:00

chances are...

2009-11-13T07:42:00.000-08:00

Chances Are
Thinking Out Loud

Sometimes you’re right,
sometimes I bite
Why is it hard
to say what I want when I want?
Sometimes I love,
sometimes you hate
Why does it hurt
to hear what you have to say?

Chances are you’ll get it
when you stop wanting
Chances are you’ll fall asleep
when you stop trying
Just can’t lie to myself

Sometimes I doubt,
then you back out
Why is it hard
to breathe in the same room?
Deep down we know
why we can’t run away
But why does it hurt
to visualize the goal?

Chances are I’ll regret
when you say good-bye
Chances are you’ll find the way home
with or without me
Just don’t lie to yourself

I go this way, you go that way,
wherever we’ll find each other
Chances are... chances are..

5.45am

2009-11-02T13:41:00.000-08:00

the time now....
test yesterday...
sometimes i wonder....why the f i wanna be engineer so much...mayb i take the wrong path?..who knows,,,,,think i screw up the math test yesterday...thank god its only 40% of the overall grade...after yesterday test....i keep on thinking...should i change course?..all those bio,medic course seems suit me....or the graphic media thingy since im creative>_< haha...my father would love to see me take medic....i dont know y though....feel damn down after today test but.......after that fren all invite go kfc then play football....all those sorrowness gone....stupid eh?..then guess y i stil not sleeping at 6am even though got test today at 9...watch lovely complex from 2-5~~now episode 14....some time....not sometimes....a lot of time i stupid thing...and still doing it....*swt*haiz

1,2,3,4,5

2009-10-30T04:44:00.000-07:00

counting days to end this sem~~

random
-song for you truth for me...
-why she love sad song?kinda make me sad....
-5 more daysXD
-2 more work=.=!!
-i hate the fact i cant run fast
-im injured but still playing footballXD..
-somehow no matter how late i start doin my work,..it sure finish b4 due time..
-gonna go eat now

numbers

2009-10-24T23:08:00.000-07:00

ICE just finish yesterday...really feel the burden all lift off from my shoulder.....

2 more week before going home
1 more week before finals
3 more report to submit
1 more presentation to practice
2 more tests to study
1 more project to be completed
few hundred more left to spent...
im broke>_<

tralalala

2009-10-03T17:48:00.000-07:00

in ipoh...going back uni in...erm 3 hours haha...long time no post anything...finals in few weeks...assignment...no need say bout that....weekends!~
watching where got ghost ..the movie from jack neo....if i were to rate it...i think its a 6.5/10
i know its low....kinda okok oni...i think if you were to read the review about this movie you wont come here rite?...so i jusst gonna tell bout what i like and not about the movie

nice
funny horror movie....
unexpected ending...
moral of the story thing...as usual
somewhat sequel to money no enough 2 haha...

not so fun
4d number again...singaporean got no other things a?
funny part are just so so...
some fat guy sitting next to me keep commenting bout the movie loudly...swt..

i think that just about it....ok why i give it low rating?..simply because....theres nothing much to talk about...compared with ah long pte ltd or wedding game or even money no enough...i think..this one just okok only haha....maybe because it show 3 different story so it doesnt really give much impact to the audience...about the horror scene only one got me...the part where in 3rd story where the guy sleep with his wife and when he turn suddenly he sleep on his mother...that scene is nice haha...and the 2nd story climax where the ghost girl kill the 2 guy...that really is unexpected...

i think it wont show next week...so if you still havent watch it...too bad i guess...

weekends~~last and this weekend i stay at home...goin out few times only..ither than that i play games....for most of you...i think you all dont know that i actually do play not-so-heavy games ok here's one of em....

Paradise Beach

Description:
You have been selected to become the manager of some of the world`s leading beach resorts in Paradise Beach, a fun and exciting Strategy game! Create your dream retreat as you construct buildings, plant pretty foliage, and even design the layout of your peaceful getaways. Travel to different islands and use your imagination to keep your customers nice and relaxed as you plot the perfect Paradise Beach!

Features:

Unique gameplay

Hidden Object minigames

Construct Paradise Beach

System Requirements:
OS: Windows XP/Vista
CPU: 1.2 GHz
RAM: 256 MB
DirectX: 9.1
Hard Drive: 107 MB

Release name: Paradise.Beach.v1.0-TE
Size: 93.16 mb
Download: Hotfile

you simply need to develop the island...rather simple i must say if compared with the 'heavy' games

a typical gay island you will make when playing at first

keep smiling >_<

2009-09-25T11:07:00.000-07:00

problems~~
they never seems gonna end right?
its either
relationship,
studies,
test,
assignment,
or even friendship
and often all this leads to pressure
then start no mood and stuff
but
does sulking or sekutu-kutunya
really helps?
different people
react differently to things
but
dont you think
the world need 1 more happy person
and less 1 moody person?
then...
why dont just keep smiling?
>_<
even if a person die
dont you think that person
dont want to see you sad?
i not saying it works all the time
nothing is
sometimes
just sometimes
we just need time to be alone
other than that
just keep that smile ya!
>_<

Himitsu/Secret

2009-09-25T09:02:00.000-07:00

today upload this song on youtube
never knew how nice it sounds
until today...
thats the bad thing about downloading a whole album
kinda overlook certain song
maybe because in a mood to hear slow song when 1st listen to the album
haha
its himitsu by bonnie pink
the video down here...uploaded by me haha

heres the translation
not by me...
but..can say 95% correct la haha

HI~~MIT~~SU~~~

Because one angel dies for every one sigh
You scooped up what you spilled with both hands and ate it
Condemned by the appearance of just about everything going smoothly,
in the space between society and your forehead, you were unable to smile

By spoiling me,
by taking it out only on me,
you can feel relieved like with salt ice cream

Though I’m a big girl, I want to cry
You’re crying while laughing
The you that you show to me is
a secret for me alone

Even though people were envious, jealous, and bullied me, because
strange ones, throughout the ages, are totally isolated, I lived on strong
Unable to get away from busybody bees going bzz, bzz,
amid a whirlpool of rumors, your heart had hung its head in shame

By kissing me,
by sobbing only to me,
you can get worked up like a diesel engine

Though I’m a loser, I’ll fight
Someday I’ll make the world go wow
The you that’s been stripped bare is
a secret for me alone

Though I’m a big girl, I want to cry
You’re crying while laughing
The you that you show to me is
a secret for me alone

Whatever you do, you’re beautiful
Because no one can make a nice face to everyone

Though I’m a big girl, I want to cry
You’re crying while laughing
The you that you show to me is
a secret for me alone

Though I’m a loser, I’ll fight
Someday I’ll make the world go wow
The you that’s been stripped bare is
a secret for me alone

whats important?

2009-09-23T11:17:00.000-07:00

your story my song is updated...
who got permission can go read...
who wan permission can pm or email me
LOL like lecturer wan give note pulak haha
its
this the word from 2nd last line
sometime...feelings just fuckin weird fuck up thing....

watch a movie...
this a line form the movie
if you not the 1st,you are last
what do you think?
do you think its right?
i not saying grammatically or spelling
well to me its not right
but its not wrong either
to me...
nothing wrong in this world...
if you are a frequent reader of this blog then mayb u know this
and yea the update on other blog oso got touch this a bit
sorry cant put here...just too many personal info bout me n my fren
not in a sense like fb password or bank acc password
its like who you slept with and who stole karu's car
LOL
that 2 only example...
me n my friend never did the 2nd thing
...who knows some fella come here see that n report
die wor...
dah la last time me n my fren all not so good with him
dunwan make new case haha
shit accidently go off topic...
well accident happens...
a lot
btw did you all know 160 die d on this 8th day of ops sikap
and around 11k accident in 8 day
sad right?
so drive safely haha...
fuck b4 i drifted further better end this fast....
if you not the 1st,you are last
to me...
it doesnt need to be always about you
how about we?
1st is just a number...
some people just love to be the 1st
on top of the world...
for me
i hate the 1st
i hate the attention
i hate the expectation
i hate it
BUT
i love win
so how is that?
ok
imagine this
becoming 1st
how to do that?
to be better than anyone else=everyone
other way/word
beat everyone
simplest example
you get 4.0
your friend 3.0,2.4,3.9
you re 1st

win?
you get 4.0
your friend 4.0
which is better?
but hey
no one wanna share
they simply wanna be the best...
why cant people just united and do better
can you imagine how great if iran n us work together
develop something good for human in nuclear tech?

well i can answer that
its human nature
people wanna be the best
they envy others
they greedy for things
you got a bmw...
cool...
but surely you wan 2 million lambo after that...
n yeah...later you most prob wan a private jet
world is a beautiful and funny place
wish im here as spectator
too bad im a player
games anyone?

another crappy post by me
thx for reading

its trend hahaha

2009-09-21T10:10:00.000-07:00

another fucked up post...actually its worst what you see is i already fix half ...read if you want
gonna fix later...if i want or feel like to

this is my 1st 1 week holiday since i enter uni....
somehow it seems
once i stop doing something
i most probably wont do it again...
why's that?

2 years ago...

i went to this thing called national service...
before i enter that thing
it was after spm...
so what i do?
sit home
watch tv
24-7
drama
anime
movie
news
talk show
in short
any shitty stuff they put in tv
after national service
i guess some know already
...
i rarely watch tv anymore....
erm should be around,,,
once a week?
haha
well that is after ns until enter uni
after enter uni...
never watch tv
>_<
ok so whats my point here?
its...
my favourite thing since..
erm...
standard 4?
its game...
its been4 days since im home
friday was tiring....
i sleep all day...
saturday...
home all day too..
2 post that day...
yeah i was in front of pc all day...
and...
not dotaing...
thats why can surf all day..
and write all those post...
sunday...
1st day of raya..
wake up at 10am..
alone..
eat n stuff..
then chat...
below post got the thing with jonathan
haha
then...
went to hamizi house...
funny his father say im getting smaller
LOL...
din go anyone house for raya just chat with him for like 3 hour...
go home...
sleep like a pig..
yet again...
today...
surfing again...
find a lot of stuff...
some of em the pic i posted..
and yeah updating this thing you read here
aika invite me to her house..
ask her
who else i know gonna be there
she say
her mother
i din reply after that
went jonathan house with saidy go eat choc something
quite fun hang out with em even for lunchh oni...
then went mcd
see carol...
found out not so nice thing
just the kind of stuff that leave you speechless
go home aika message again...
scolding me
haha
then wan merajuk pulak...
she say
orang jemput datang menolak
tak nak cakap dengan awak
nak merajuk
awak nak buat apa?
i reply
check email ....
and of course
you can expect her cursing me in the next message
then call her say sorry
since i can use up to rm100++ my father encourage me use
since he pay extra to tm
if i dont use mean no need pay phone bill
until use rm100++
really good indicator..
im the only one to blame
if somehow phone bill reach rm100
somehow my parent and siblings dont use phone that much
but then again
even i myself dont call people often...

eh
i totally forgot..
suppose to be about games
ok why?
notice something?
no games in my activities
and around 5 months ago..
at least
i play 2 dota games a day
but this 4 days..
no dota at all
and around 20+ hour of surfing
n this blog i think take 3-4 hours?
haha
but not only games
chatting also really lazy to chat d...
dunno why
oni disturb jonathan,joe kor n jyn ling...
that 1 oso like 30 min?
haha
but dont worry
if you disturb me i'll reply
>_<
but if my status away mayb im out..
like when elaine msg me...
feel bad..
she also rarely disturb me
when say hi din reply pulak
haha really miss our time in ns
>_<

since im infornt pc oni listen to songs...
and browsing the album cover
haha
notice d last time
but din really take time to appreciate it
here the 3 most recent rie fu singles and album cover's
nice eh?
not the most prettiest singer around
the most beautiful maybe
>_<
but i like her music much
>_<
hooray to that haha
XD

present single cover

urban romantic album cover

romantic single cover

my fave song of the album
is not romantic..
or the string version of romantic
or present
but
suki
and
she cant say no
>_<

scary....

2009-09-21T06:48:00.000-07:00

it doesnt make any sense...
how can this....

turn to this??

scary to see what world can do....or should i say popularity?

..browsing some stuff...which 1 should i choose?
this 1?
9500gt

or this?
9600gt
cost around rm80++ more...but maybe end of year oni can buy haha

2009-09-21T03:24:00.000-07:00

found this on my hdd when cleaning up stuffXD
really haha

..

2009-09-20T00:26:00.001-07:00

..................................part 2

2009-09-19T22:46:00.000-07:00

lets talk about fasting month
haha
start fasting im here in ipoh quite nice
>_<
... but then there ...
remember the story i always wake up late?
its actually happen frequently after ramadhan start...
ok normally i sleep around 3-4 and my roomate around 2-3
the problem is with sahur...
at 1st we buy early when buying for berbuka we also buy for sahur
good plan...except....
how to wake up at 5 when you sleep at 3?
... swt..
so basically we wasted our money for 4 days buying stuff we dont eat
and yeah 4 hungry days...
2nd problem....
ok so we decide to eat around 12am or 1am....
go down there...
swt...
they oni start cook at 1...
around 2.30 oni finish....
cant order oso since they cooking the normal dish....
3rd prob....
2.30 oni can eat...hm....ok
imagine this...
you freakin tired and sleepy since its almost 3 in the morning....
do you think any of us wanna go down buy?...1 or 2 day ok la...everyday? sorry~>.<

WTF...actually between here and below got 100+ line...
but gone...
thanks to the pic you gonna see below...

ok i gonna highlight the one not deleted with white so basically what you see now n below is rewrite until the white text...or highlight...see which 1 i wanna put...

berbuka...quite nice....3-4 car go mcd or kfc...then movie...>_<...but normally once a week on weekends la....if everyday kfc....swt...

futsal...quite nice...we play at nite since everyone tired durin the day...
normally play football in big field...but nite harder find people...normally can gather 20++ people
but nite can oni manage find 13-15 people
nite class,project,club...
but still...quite nice>_<

i love being alone..
for some reason i not sure why...
class all finish on thursday
so thursday can go home d
my roommate ask go home with em thursday evening..
i say..
dunwan.....
hahaha
so that thursday nite oni got 3 ppl in 3rd floor...1 in some corner of the block dunno who...and izzat my classmate...that nite study with him until 11....then at 12 go bath...so darn quiet haha..
not yet find any weird thing though...just another quiet nite....
sleep at 4 wake up at 11...wtf..i plan to go home around 7 or 8...n guess what...you know la after wake up feel lazy and stuff...i even thought wan go home on saturday haha
but conisdering i havent sahur and most prob no place to berbuka..go home la...
go home friday saturday my parent wan go aunty house raya there
guess what...
i dunwan go
hahahaa
...dont blame me for hating place with many ppl
haha
so yesterday nite till now
so nice...oni me...ALONE~~
>_<
... best thing is yesterday...
around 1 go call friend ask about assignment
haha...
come on im alone..
nearest neighbour is 4 house on the right and 7 or 8 house to the left...
dont feel like raya at all haha..
wake up oso feel nothing...
go open lemang,make something to drink...heat up rendang,eat,play fifa...online..till 2.20pm>_<...
but later go friend house...
people invite d...
not nice if people invite you dun go...

music~~
i really sick of the raya song...
i mean...
every nite hear the same song over n over again....
ok true some are nice but damn...
around 10 track repeat the whole nite for 2 weeks?
WTF?..
luckily i bought the sonic gear headphone...
but kelam la...
wanna avoid listen to that song kena listen to other song pulak...
talk bout music~~
here song i hear right now..
quite nice~~
kinda like taylor swift love story...
mayb because taylor swift sing haha.I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one

......................................

2009-09-19T06:23:00.000-07:00

its raya eve in im at my house....alone.....again........
haha i love being alone>_<...

a lot of things in my mind right now...
wanna write all these stuff for long time
but been very busy
and if write now feel like...
not right at all
haha
>_<
but nvm i feel like writing right now i guess here it goes
>_<

erm last post..kena scold by fren...
erm what after that ah....forget it just start new 1

headache
i think i got told i got post in jpa in my uni...
well...i din go for this 1 time...and suddenly...
fiq(vice president) come to my room and say,,,
hafni.....
nanti kena pergi kem peringkat kebangsaan...
i was like...WTF??
marching pun tak betul nak pergi kem macam tu ke?
gila...

engineering drawing...i kinda piss off with the lecturer but cant hate him cause he quite ok
can you imagine this...everytime engineering drawing class he ask us go library find how
to draw ourself..if really cant then only he teach how...
in 1st class he say its better that way..we learn better...
rather than he giving note its best we do our own note....
he got a point until....NOW!..he give assignment n i have no clue where to start
wtf with that...the starting part is easy thats y i dont care much...
now getting into complex part and we still nid do own note?
the ok part is we can come late and he give time have breakfast haha
class start at 8 then 9 he give break until 9.30 go eat if we want
but quite stupid that day..he ask...hu wanna go breakfast?
and guess wat?....im the only 1 raise up my hand haha
after he give me permission go eat all then wan follow
damn funny

waltz with me

2009-09-17T02:38:00.001-07:00

The clock stops moving
The awkward dinner goes on quietly
as if trying to reveal something.

Oh, won’t you please shut up already
I doubt there’s an answer anywhere as to whether we understand one another.
If that’s what you’re looking for,
why not just bring yourself over here.

I’m very afraid of kindness
so I end up crying, because you’re kind
Don’t dance on your own
because you’re afraid to hurt someone
Please waltz with me

By the time winter comes to an end
the frozen birds are afraid that they haven’t thawed, and will fall,
so they remain flightless.

How much longer can we go on
I’m sure you’d say
to the ends of earth
casting aside all the warmth as you did.

Why do you go on living so sadly,
even though you know eventually you’ll lose this
It’s not like you can believe in anything
with such sad expectations.

I’m very afraid of kindness
so I end up crying, because you’re kind
Don’t dance on your own
because you’re afraid to hurt someone

If you’re being burnt by a mysterious flame

cry out, and call my name
even just once, even if it’s the last time
Don’t dance on your own
because you’re afraid to hurt someone
Waltz with me.

Please waltz with me.

HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-17T02:27:00.000-07:00

never thought holiday would be fun...normally if school got 1 week break or something it doesnt realy feel anything spectacular...this time however...feel...how to say....feel like you are on top of the world and wanna jump from 3rd floor and run and shoot the ball and scream like some crazy ass fella...after pass up the last assignment few hours ago feels like there's light coming out from somewhere and the world suddenly becomes green again after long deep sleep in frozen ice age...ok im beginning to say stupid things here..wanna go bath now..if somehow i feel like wanna write what happen last few weeks i will tonight...most probably wont since i already ask my friend come teach me something....you dont need to know what...but not the stupid stuff or anything...just another work....and assignment...and homework....swt...

edit-WOW...its been 10 days since i last updated....im that busy eh?haha

4am

2009-09-07T13:06:00.001-07:00

its 4 am n i finally figure out what i need the most right now...at 1st i thought how to explain the different between active and passive matrix addressing but then my friend suddenly comes in and scold me...instead of doing all this with heavy head and stuff why dont i just sleep and when woke up and bath sure feel refresh and can continue twice as fast.....sometimes what you need is someone to scold you nicely before you realize wwhat mistake you make....haha..11am class tomoro test...wish me luck!

>_<

2009-09-07T12:07:00.000-07:00

seriously if people think the pic below is perverted or any guy get turn on by it....i seriously think that person just some sick pedophile....=.=!!...and it is quite sad actually to think that people can get turn on by that..i think if american sees that they just gonna laugh and joke about how pathetic that is...

gulp

2009-09-07T09:12:00.000-07:00

as days goes by i got more and more issues to face...sigh.....im not actually busy but i made myself busy...presentation thursday but i forced my group mate to complete it by today..so in short...if lecturer give 1 assignment say...2 week...i finish it in 2-3 days..for now im busy with assignement which due after raya holiday...kinda .cuti sekolah homework...n i plan to complete it all by this week...so..im extremely busy now haha.....

today again stupid thing happen...missed math class....why?do assignment which is due next week until 5am...then..erm...play dota until 7....wake up at 1....missed 11am class....how stupid is that?...luckily this my 1st time...dont know what to say to my lecturer later...maybe just buat tak tau...*swt*..this 2nd time already i woke up late for class.....that day..erm IT...class at 11...woke up 11.30...nornally if late i simply skip the class but that day got test...so ...with superb guilt i went and reach class around 12....she ask...why late?...erm...baru bangun...saya ingat kelas batal...saya tidur awal semalam so saya tak tau kelas tak batal...then she ask...semalam tidur pukul berapa?then i answered...10.30...bangun?..she ask again....i answered....11.30...*swt*...she was like astafirullahhalazim...tak sembahyang la ni?......me-*smile unwillingly*+*swt*...really big headache..i think most of the class i got at least 1 absent..i think english i got 2... really fucked up...i damn scared english this thurday...2 thursday class i skip already...why?class start at 8am....u think i can wake up?..worst part is ...english no final exam...all depend on lecturer impression...and i pretty much sure its not good at all for now...wouldnt it be great?some kelantan guy who barely can speak english can possibly get higher mark in english if this continues?...2nd worst part is...if my attendance below something %( i think this applies to all uni)im surely nid to retake...how fucked up is that if it really happen?..roomate?we 3 different class...so we don't really know each other schedule

cute scan

2009-09-05T23:24:00.000-07:00

i damn bored d....from wednesday till today is either report,presentation,test on monday, or assignment..one word...FUCK...but from 6pm yesterday till now oni play play play....yesterday was nice...break fast at mcd in erm...prai city i think...quite nice...compared to kinta city....sigh..sad o haha...but to be fair kinta city already 10 year++ i bet this prai city dont even reach 5 year.....then at nite...dota!!!!been 3 month since i played last...and from yesterday till now i think already played 4 games..haha 4 hour ++ wasted...screw it...its better i play dota than jump off building rite?other than that...browsing some pic on the internet...got few cute pic..so here you go...

my current desktop wallpaper

>_<

soulkeeper or terrorbalde both also scary name

drowXD

vengeful spirit cute versionXD

currently msn dp...drow again>_<

LOL..remind me of pocket fighter

so nice...

aw....hahaha

freezing.......

2009-08-28T11:15:00.000-07:00

its 2 am....mengantuk haha...more n more bm in this blog...simply because i dont talk english anymore....wonder what happen in 3 years....hell o mah nem is zo haf ni...a yam ferom iipoo....swt..haha...its been raining 2 weeks here....darn cold...i think only got sunlight twice in 2 weeks.....crazy eh?even wear jacket to class around 2pm cause too cold...hmmm fb msg...and its a clod world but i dont mind the scene and its a cold cold city but a home to me....actually a song lyric by rie fu....kinda express my feelings....its physically cold...the temperature...and mentally...how my fren treat me....

make people angry....grrr

2009-08-28T10:15:00.000-07:00

for some reason i really got talent to make people piss off/wanna beat the shit outta me/throw me from top of kl tower/ etc etc..if you really close to me then you'll understand...but i guess some are just not...its 1 am n im here alone in the new room...both roommate go back ipoh already leaving me alone here...wth right?i got 3pm class today i said to them wait for me go home at 5pm can reach ipoh around 7.30 n break fast at the mcd near highway there but they dunwan so ..fine they go home at 1pm...skip the friday prayer hehehe..n leave me here alone...but quite nice...i think in all 8 room of this 3rd floor only got around...erm 4 people?including me...yup thats quite quiet...oh ya back to the story...so monday they coming back and ask me to join em i say i wanna go back on tuesday....and for some reason they tak puas hati and feel im selfish...wtf wtf wtf....they can go home early n leave me alone and i cant come back late?...another one is...group project..they ask me do the slide since i sit infront of pc 24-7...of ccourse no prob...consider it done...then need script for the presentation...ok since im the one who do the slide im the one should know the most bout what to say...okie no prob...

my group-but...hey someone need to do the script for the video for the presentation..
-oh ya hafni good in english why dont ask him?...
-hafni ok?......
me-...............FUCK YOU
my group-wei apa ni tak beri kerjasama langsung,kedekut ilmu bla bla bla....
me-*leaving*
my group-*talks bad bout me*

friends-wei come la go bazaar ramadhan..
me-erm nvm la gonna just go cafe buy...
friends-apa la tak sporting langsung bla bla bla...
me-*pretend hear nothing*

quiz this week....after 10 min...i pass up the answer..everyone was like...mak ai...berlagak gila buat 10 minit hantar....bajet pandai la...

sigh no matter what i do everyone for some reason like...tak puas hati with me...fuck ah....thats just few of what im goin through...not only in real life...i accidently hurt/piss off some online too ..but then to be fair...they dont actually stoop talking to me or anything they still ok with me its just that...i dont really comfortable with all that...whats worst about malay is they like to joke gila and if like terasa they gonna say something like tak sporting or macam perempuan or kelam etc etc....

i cant stop listening to this

2009-08-25T09:58:00.000-07:00

wtf..its been 15 years this song...but hey i cant stop listening to this...can even sing the song....

..................................

2009-08-24T07:36:00.000-07:00

I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway

Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again

Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up.....

sad truth

2009-08-23T15:10:00.000-07:00

http://name.crazyartzone.com/index.asp?cat=Perempuan&ch=H

UP

2009-08-22T18:31:00.000-07:00

in few hours gonna go back uni...come home last thursday..quite nice...thanks to the storm haha...what storm?...last week ...erm let the pic do the talkin la....some of the class cant be used thanks to this..basically extra holiday for me~~>_<~~coincidenly the class affected is my friday class...the extra time use to finish up all the assignment n yeah..movie n hang out with fren in ipoh some of the pic after the storm....all this taken near campus only...on monday after go class oni see the real destruction but too bad no one take pic...maybe got but not my fren la...haha cause there i no cam or phone cam since my phone...erm...long gone hehe...all the pic below is i take from friend no mine....
first blood~~double kill!!!!>_<

i have no idea what the guy try to do is he try to pull the tree up back?...*swt*...

hehehe...lazy wan write much....watch up...actually wan watch i love you beth cooper or the proposal since no other nicer movie...but my friend wan watch up...n since i havent watch it so i watch lo haha....watch the trailer few months ago~~all the ad b4 movie start....but didnt catch much of my attention...but after watch it.....its pixar....i totally forgot about that...pixar is by far one the finest movie studio...at least for me....

plot
review
trailer

swt...dont read if you got wild imagination

2009-08-12T05:49:00.000-07:00

another relaxing day in uni....engineering drawing lecturer take 1 week leave so class start at 12 todayXD darn happy....but the 'genius' didnt come to class.....shit lah...every1 down with fever quite scary also la.... already10 ppl quarantined and 1 positive h5n1....but then again...mayb just rumors....but the uni still open...when do i get the 1 week leave?uniten close d~~swt la....but then again i dunwan this sem extended if gt 1 week holiday.....oh ya genius didnt come to class....so basically every1 ask me question n i was like.....erm.....entah tak tau la...tak sure la...some already tak puas hati with me already the other day thanks to my 'nice' attitude....what happen?thehehe...last week forget what class 1 people ask me how do question...as usual i like erm....a+b kot....entah lah...and then this guy ask the 'genius' and when he wan return back to his seat he saw that i finished the question he said to me 'tu tahu buat tu'...then i reply 'aku tak sure la apa masalah hang?'...then he make shit face n after think bout this i feel bad myself~~sigh....after enter this uni i kinda not being the normal self....i been really sellfish here or more like an ass....like seriously... like in lecture hall i normally sit alone at the back of the lecture theathre and people im ok with look at me they just shake their head....and yeah i do feel the hatred towards me haha...been into some stuff but now they like used to my stupid behaviour n they started talk to me d....i guess thats the good thing with all guy class.....the brotherhood thingy~~~swt....so gay......haha...despite all that i still get 1`post here....treasurer....swt...my initial thought on that...fuck! i wan vice not some troublesome treasurer or secretary....but today jpa quite creepy...they show some pic~~picture of ppl get burned,hit by car,accident in factory....1 of the scariest pic is 1 accident where 1 guy hand got cut and we can actually see his bone hehehe...quite sad also la...normally we see dog or cat dead hit by car in road and we can see the inside all erm....imagine that for yourself...and today i saw the pic how say....replace the cat and dog with human...normally we dont really see that kinda pic in newspaper.....swt....hm...talk bout my recent pm.....scary but fascinating in a way or something like that i know the word not fascinating....its about the ppl here...went for a walk....go to other people room haha....from 1 room to another since i darn free...and what scare me the most is how all the people there study....how to say,...let me use my fren word....muka macam pecah rumah tapi semua baik....or in english...all look like those shitty fella who cause trouble around but all also study study study n i was like...wtf im the one with good boy face but the laziest around campus...if this goes on...i pretty sure i get last in class...swt......i think wanna stop here later if free i update lo nitez...thanks for reading>_<

no update

2009-08-10T03:05:00.000-07:00

no update....i check out all the draft...latest draft aka unpublished unfinished post is yesterday about pc fair i went in PISA...i wont publish it...thing you all should know i wirte in my previous draft is got myself a maxis broadband so that mean i can get internet whereever got phone line...i bring my desktop to campus~~guess i cant live without it....so if some of you ever read bout ode for you/missing you post....hehe...

ok too many draft ...so?

i got myself a twitter!still figuring it out ~~tell you all the details later
download janice new album yesterday got 1 nice song morning heres the lyric~~ quite nice~~

When I hear the birds start singing
I wanna see you
Hoo, hoo, do do do do do...
When I see the leaves start fallin
I wanna see you
The only thing I'll do
Don't you know
Is to rush and run to you

When I hear the clock start ticking
I start to miss you
Ooh.. The only thing I'll do
Is gonna dream of you

Wanna stay by by by your side
You are my everything
You are my only link
To the angel's wings
Talk about love love and
I can't stop thinking of you
Such a crazy thing
Like snow fallin' in spring

(You know every morning)
When I hear the birds start singing
I wanna see you
Ooh.. The only thing I'll do
Is to rush and run to you

When I hear the clock start ticking
I start to miss you
Ooh.. The only thing I'll do
Is gonna dream of you

I found my angel in my life
I cannot see why
I cannot see why
We can't be in love till we die

Wanna stay by by by your side
You are my everything
You are my only link
To the angel's wings
Talk about love love and
I can't stop thinking of you
Such a crazy thing
Like snow fallin' in spring

One day we'll spread our wings
You and me da, you and me da...
Spread our wings do..do...do....
Wannabe wannabe wanna
I wanna be,be your lover
I'll run to you...ooh...

o0o

2009-07-21T03:00:00.000-07:00

best title i can think of......6am fever continued from yesterday ....//8am wait infront o academic thingy wwan ask for timetable....then register subject...im agenius wan start class oni i register subject...then macam orang mabuk return to room...wait 11am lecture...wait outside the lecture hall like fucking sohai cause we dunno it is combine lecture with other course..noob gila babi....the lecture hall fuckingly cold...afternoonsuppose submit loan form...the stupid finance office open at 2.30 close 4.45... and class start at 2...assignment....at 3...borrow laptop...run to hostel n back to main campus like sohai with high fever....4.40 wan go finance office to submit the form...cb stupid clerk dunwan accept my loan form...reason~~late d.....babi punya perempuan melayu....babi malas gila.....went to library found my coursemate....kutuk behind my back say use laptop oso kenot finsih....babi tell straight to my god damn face la....5pm....nid to pass up...go round and round to find lecturer office...and guess wat...rejected~~~babi fuck sohai gay,,,,now in kafe after eat............nite no class thank god...but still nid to finish assignment....`swt`

the1st week

2009-07-19T00:53:00.000-07:00

its sunday....1 week since i lft home.....now im at the uni cafe....alone again...here kinda wat ive been through here...
1st 3 days kenot tahan...feel like goin home....ken ragging wit from senior....shit like hell....that tie also ive been wondering wth im doin here..no frenz n everything..thank god i get myself a group here...cause i even barely remembermy rommate name....nthis sorry if you all cant read thisproperly cause its kinda my 1st time using laptop...borrow from fren...haha...damn weird i can take this latop whenever i wan...pretty cool eh?...the fela who giv me this lappie not really a computer person...or in harsh word..kampung boy...he oni use for work...other time?its in my hand wakakaka...but stupid also la...last 3days the wifi been blocked so cant on9 T_T...sad~~i think i gonna love stayin here n not missing home thanks to this lappie...you can see i on9 quite a lot but din do much why?..this bloddy lappie use hell lot power freakin fast...i no idea y...ilazy wan bring cable cause sometime the wifi kenot use...stupid.......yesterday stupid also....im alone in room from 8 dont know wan do wat...until 12 kenot sleep...my room no fan..say gonna fix this weekend but still nothing....they all went penang...but i stupidly wan go cc play dota so they left me la..after play at night just look out in the window do nothing....its damn weird normally i write this blog in front of my dearest pc alone inside my house n now i writing this in cafe wit a lot of ppl everywhere...fuckin weird...tats y if u feel the content today like shit..its because of that...but not like this blog content is good in an way alos...rite?...been lerning some malay song....oh ya b4 that i think u all nid to know my fren..i been in 2 group...1 is all malay group but budak baik typeof group...another is chinese weird group...i think the chinese got no choice even if they gt no common interest they still nid to fren cause not much chinese here....n somehow i join em hahaha....my 1st group fren is lan from batu gajah perak a fat guy n nice since he gimme play this lappie 24-7...another is huzai,,,a fella who openly say he really choosy when it comes to fren...if you play 24-7 i dunwan fren u....then aca..from selangor..not close with him just because he in our group....another group is liang wei...my tennis n dota fren...really direct...ok to be with him...my dota teammate n my tennis racket provider,...then gt chai a photographher...today he tersesat in penang...how he ended up there..no idea...yesterday we go out oso left him behind cause he too into taking pic..mayb borrow his lapie n upload some pic from him...then gt lex...from sabah...normal guy just follow behind....okok guy...talk crap with he oni....erm batt half d...i wan play castle age on facebook now....suppose to register subject...endedup bloggin pulak,...haiz i darn free hahaha...

swt

2009-07-11T07:25:00.000-07:00

offline

2009-07-11T03:42:00.000-07:00

gonna be offline in approx. 14 hour....gonna go hommies outing tonite...kinda happy invited..never thought i'm still part of hommies after finish school since i not that good with my junior....dont know what to write else...just wanna tell i gonna leave ipoh tomorrow...probably wont come back...

music and lyrics

2009-07-08T10:00:00.000-07:00

*swt* at first wan make happy post about few songs but...erm tell ya later...i thought wont blog anymore for a while see see blog pulak...actually stopping dota for a while( i can actually control myself hehe)thx to the dreaded j card daylast nite suppose sleep around 1 wake up 6 go work 8...but thx to dota i play till 4...work until erm...11 pm...more than 12 hour n i oni sleep for 2 hour the night before...and here i am blogging 12.30am..am i sohai or stupid or airhead or just supermanXD....today go to work at 9...enter d i was like...wth 9am weekday in jusco crowded with people...for god sake dont all these people got to do something?what kind of pathetic people line up early just to buy cheap clothes and whats with the stupid pasar malam happy hour?..tomorrow just sooooo gonna feel like dejavu...

talk about music...currently watchin k-on seriously i think it just gonna be 'one of those anime' people gonna forget it next year and wont talk bout it...when i 1st watch it i was like..wth?lamest main character with lamest attitude and lamest drawing quality and lame this n lame that..but thanks to that it make it a normal story about a normal human with few funny surprises...like other story eye shield is somewat best runner in world...ichigo in bleach got this super hidden hollow power...so does naruto...heroes in gundam (seed) gt this berserker thingy make them best of the best bla bla bla...but not that i say i dont like it...i think its better than sissy heroes...(sailormoon?LOL..almost lose gt this guy come save em and happy ending..pokemon?everytime the good for nothing ash got lucky and get back pikachu thank to lovely relationship with other people and pokemon~~~LAME~~~)oh ya k-on...music..right...i must say i quite impressed with the music in k-on...almost all of em(3 i listen so far op,ed and their 1st performance) got a nice beat and n i dont know wat you call it but the animation in the background of all 3 music is nice...even though its 'just another anime' but i think the music is as good as in bleach op ed,naruto,gundam,rurouni kenshin and yeah skipbeat...(skipbeat kinda average though)how about fruit basket op n ed?last time i put the song in this blog...compare with 'gay' daniel beddingfield song...i think i prefer chiisana inori..which i put back btw haha...
ok here the youtube link for k-on op n ed..what you think?

okie back to top story...why i say happy post bout song?actually i wanna make the above topic a bit fun with pic form gundam all since i gt 1 hour to play with this blog but now kinda ...erm....lonely?haha while searchin for songs i remember 1 song i wan listen to ....after open the song...sigh...actually the whole playlist is love song ...so ...faham faham la hahah..listen to 1st love by utada hikaru today at work...so wan listen la...easiest way is find playlist in my itunes..after 1st love...forever love by lee hom...feel lonelier...then if you come to me by atomic kitten...then macam kena stab...then listen to dont go away from by2...then faith hill there you'll be..then the corrs all the love in the world...its 1 am its quiet you do nothing and you listen to slow love song...and you hear and already know the lyric line by line what you think i feel?hahahaha emo lah!...LOL......almost 1.30...gotta reach jusco by 8 tomoro...nid go sleep... thx for readin this...good for nothing post hahah..feels good can share some things with people...but not so good dont know who im sharing with...*swt*

123~~4

2009-07-05T18:21:00.001-07:00

just a random title...erm didnt blog much...since no one wanna read it...especially with all my fren all gone to jungle learn something...for some weird reason..or should i say coincidence?almost all the friend i hang out with this year go overseaXD...wont see them for the next 4 years~~sad~~or maybe more...since me myself got plan of my own... lets face it...said wont come home for raya...kev...plan to stay wit orang iban until finish degree..kah yan mayb wont see her..others...not much contact with em....n plus i dont even know where some of em goin to...

oh ya...my phone officially gone....for some who knows what happen..know la...basically whoever i know after form 5...i dont have his/her number....not really bothered to ask also since not like they gonna message me or anything..

do i sound a bit angry or unsatisfied with something?...no....just being me...*yawn*...thanks to boring dota game...oh boring mean too easy...dont think i gonna get bored with dota...since i bored tell you last 2 week thingy...

i come to smi when i was standard 4....so basically last last week got this one girl come to me..

girl-hafni kan?
me -er...en...
girl-kelas 1 kemboja dulu?
me-eh?*surprised face*
girl-asilah la tak ingat?dulu kelas darjah 1 sampai 3
me -ha...*big swt*(dang its like gazilion years ago how can i remember la)
girl-ish betul dah lupa apa la awak
me -er...

haha i kinda speechless that time after a while oni i can talk...i mean...that was 11 years ago stuff...i barely remember my close friend and this girl remember me...she say i never change...haha...after a while i then remember my group when i was standard 1...3 girls 3 boys...she was one of em...she tell me pretty much update of many ppl back there...1 go to jordan d...my first friend in school become club player in m league...make me laugh thinkin that always lose to him when we run 100metre...or is it 50 meter?dunno la...1 thing for sure though...wont forget the friend i have now....i hope....i mean who can predict what will be in 10 years rite?singapore invade malaysia or something haha~~then sabah sarawak become own country~~who knows~~hahaha...

erm...just when to grab hot dog just now..now forget what to write...guess need start new 1.....erm how bout girls?haha~~went to see ice age with this 1 girl...when the movie about to end i cant wait to go home and check out my download...that can mean only 2 things...i dont enjoy being with that girl...or the movie just plain sucks..i guess i'm used to girls d..i mean last time i try hard to please any girl i meet especially in ns...and now...i even call some of em cibai n sohai...*sigh*....people sure think im a weirdo calling a cute girl sohai...but then it just mean i comfortable with em d...last time when i see girl 1st thing i wan do is hide or run away as far as possible like all my guy fren haha....not your typical geek anymore eh...last time when see girl feel like wan date n stuff but now say...like lin...i'm with her kinda the whole time when i work but i got 0% feeling for her...she just like a big sis to me....i guess that what we need to experience...when kev told me this i dont really take what he try to say...a girl from his workplace say you dont need to date every girl you see...but for people like us who are living a gay life..how often can you see a girl?all boys school,physic student now engineering...damn gay..all those bio n med student surround by girls...like in anime haha...i dont expect find girls in uni...so does work...in fact i dont expect find girls at all...guys also la...i mean...life im living now quite ok...i not close friend at the moment and i must say i am kinda contented...no sms,no msn,no wall msg,no calls just hanging out with anonymous dota friend...i kinda scared actually...what if...i stop socializing?..with my attitude that is a big probabily...but hey...i dont mind much....i know there people out there still accept me...but then i just lazy wan call em...cause dont know when they free~~just wait next rayaXD....usually 5 cars go around townXD...

erm wat else...i guess computer stuff o...haha but i think i keep it short...i cant sign in msn dunno y...plannin to promote skype hahaha...currently i oni gt 4 fren in skype and none of em is on9..i open 24-7 so i know they not on9...i think its better to have few contact list rather than big number of friend but you dont pm em...even in msn i gt big number of friend list but still chat with same 20+ ppl the other 100++??40hardly on9 others just..dont feel like disturb em...n they oso feel same way haha

and oh yeah..this most prob my last post in a while...

thehehehe

2009-07-05T03:04:00.001-07:00

hello goodbye

2009-06-21T11:14:00.000-07:00

goodbye....i guess that is what every will talk about this week.....i wont touch this matter much,,,simply because.....i lazy to type.........just add syafiqah najwa to the link...go visit her blog >_<...im sure many of you know her...i also dont know she got blog....ok but why hello?why i just dont put goodbye?...something happen to me yesterday...it something that make me laugh in disbelief....something only happen in drama or something...what happen?something happen........which i wont type for the same reason above...going out a lot last week and this week...hopefully pic will be here soon...why?yea correct..same reason as above....give you one song...wan help promote my vid...its ring a bell by bonnie pink...my latest project...who knows i get milion views by doin this...nahhhhhhh

something stupid

2009-06-17T16:02:00.000-07:00

this kinda stupid...i online around 6.45 am...suddenly this guy ask me out badminton in 1 hour...my usual reply?sure y not..LOL...they shud change all this

something that is inside my mind right now..

2009-06-09T13:35:00.000-07:00

you can make 123213 promises,
you can also make 12323 vows,
you can have 143423 wishes,
you can say 6598 things you will complete
you can aim 12312 targets
but......
have you take the 1st and 1 step towards it?....

you can plan to score 4.0 in your next exam
you can promise to not be late in anything you do
you can vow not to smoke again
you can wish to be the best in your class,school,college
what if....you are sick onthe exam day?
road are under construction and you are stuck?
you need to smoke so you wont faint if you inhale a tiny bit of dust?
there is someone better?
and what if....you just throw all these excuses?....

normally this the kind of post that would go unpublished...but this is me....this is whats on my mind....true that people not necessarily know what constantly going on whats on my mind...but that is normally what i think of everything....i applied this thinking in my everyday life...

i can whine about how i dont un what all the chinese is talking
i can whine about how unfair the world especially with rich always get the best thing in life
i can whine about how suck it is to go to work everyday n face people who dont like me
or what if i....ask them what they talking
enjoy whatever thing i have right now
forget about the hostility and just do my damn work,chat with ppl who are
ok with me

last nite.....
work until 5am......ya...5am in the morning....
it was tiring...but we having a good time.....it kinda feel like work+hang out with frenz....kishen like retarded kid try to make trolley a skateboard...laugh at kev on how tired he looks,how he say all the work worth it cause the project manager treat mcd...and have funXD...the other worker all like stressed out n im like the only donkey jumping around happily haha..cant blame others though...its 4am...normal human sleep like a baby around that time ...NORMALLY....
a pic of me at jusco 5am in the morning....

if you think im too positive,or too semangat,or too kind,or too kelam....i always say to myslef 1 thing....why not....
why not give old lady a seat? i wont die by standing or people staring at me
why not treat friend for a movie?i wont die cause got no money to buy food
why not go to movies with frenz?not like i skip work or school
why not do all the work myself?this is my work hour and people pay me..if other worker dont want to do..thats their prob....

not many people dared to be different...they like to follow the crowd...sadly...
i do this post as somewhat a reply to my erm...friend post...not sure whether they read this or not but here is the link...coincidencely enough both also hommies kepala haha..

http://clarencechoong.blogspot.com/2009/06/movie-carnival-2009-was-great.html
http://cherhong90.blogspot.com/2009/06/lets-talk-about-s-e-x-0o.html

if your not the one

2009-06-05T22:51:00.000-07:00

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know that you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance main my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I’m praying you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am

Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

not really update for previous post....

2009-06-03T13:01:00.000-07:00

i say i gonna update previous post...outing and movie review...well...i lied....simple as that..

just finished watching bride wars....finish download it few weeks ago...today only feel like watchin it...when it was screening at the cinema..i want to watch it badly but sadly tgv ipoh dont show it....i damn sad that time...was lookin forward this movie but they dont show....but that time they got show wedding game which turn out to be not so bad at all....but i still feel that this movie gonna be better....and after watch it...even if pay rm20 i think its worth it....i'm a fan of romantic comedy theres no doubt in that..but i think this movie kinda touch people emotion...mine's at least...or maybe because i watch it 2am in the morning?..mayb...if i want to compare this and terminator which both i watch today...i say...bride wars is not 2-3 times better 10000000000 times better...its kinda useless to write all this if you still havent watch it which i bet most of you probably still havent...GO WATCH IT...ITS NICE...ok brief synopsis about the movie or maybe i should just copy paste from wiki?i think better put own synopsis because it portrays the movie from my view right?

WARNING SPOILER AHEAD...PROCEED WITH CAUTION!...if you want to watch the movie with excitement and surprise of course

intro
we started off with 2 girls...liv the blond hair girl who kinda control everything played by kate hudson and emma the good girl who always by liv side played by anne heatherway..watching a wedding in some plaza and they somehow dream of finding the perfect man and weddng in that same plaza of course......

1st part
this 2 girls somehow become best buddies..shared almost everything...and of course somehow they got proposed almost the same time...watch it!its quite hilarious this part..liv kinda force her bf to propose to herXD...

2nd part
both meet the wedding planner...the plaza is quite a popular place so they only have 2 dates 6 june n 27 june so they take diff date...and.........>_< the wedding planner mistakenly put them on the same date...

3rd part..
ok i started to feel lazy to write and its almost near 5 better make this quick..both dont want to change date and they dont argue they just sarcastically joke+argue LOL...funny part too...but then from sarcastic to not so fun joke and lead to erm...well like the title...war....

4th part
emma changed so does liv..emma from good girl who always been pushover start to play rough and the always in control,always number 1 liv finally break down thanks to emma's attack..

5th part...
liv finally realize what kind of not-so-nice person she is and emma started to fight with her fiancee cause her sudden not-so-nice change of attitude..but they still not talkin and when try to talk...they just cant...

finally...
wedding day...something not-so-nice thing happens and emma not so happy about it and crash into liv wedding.....let the vid do the talking...

so how bout it?that kinda the summary and important plot of the movie..watch it im sure you wont regret it...ok let me compare that with terminator 4

terminator a story about human vs machine..ok cool...but dumb slow robot vs ordinary human?...barely an action movie...they try to make it as real as possible but the movie just too normal..no real big fight...or dramatic moment...few surprise...yes...but not shocking as like the carmelango is actually the real perpetrator in angels and demons..but got surprise meh?...1st time i see can tell marcus is one of skynet plans...just plain action movies with plain action...come on lets face it...they only fight 2 terminators at a time..where's the war?2 motorterminator chase marcus,2 human plane hunt down 2 terminator plane,kyle reese and john connor fight 1 old model terminator at the end...the only scene involve a lot of people using guns is when they chase marcus from resistance base....

brides wars...a lot of emotion in the story...about best friend who share everything in life...when they fight the both of em got no other bridesmaid since emma friend is liv friend and their friend refuse to take sides ..and girls need their best friend other than their bf..unless if the girl is a b***ch...

ok i dunwan to cont more cause its already 5....and if stay longer i cant sleep at all....later if i not so lazy i will edit this post..until then..thanks for reading

p/s;notice that i didnt use one bad word....after 1st of june....really try to change...my parent never taught me to use vulgar word...why should i eh?...

outing....

2009-06-03T02:51:00.000-07:00

maybe..just MAYBE..i gonna blog bout all my recent outing...
but no pic o...
reason i wanna blog is...
Japanese food sux...sorry kah nyan...
and they like to shout unnecessarily...n its more expensive than mcd big mac...or kfc zinger...or even a movie ticket...
gonna write what i think about...
angels and demons
night at museum 2
terminator 4 salvation...
leave u all 1 mv here...
its kara...
if you wanna

spread my wings and fly....

2009-05-31T11:24:00.000-07:00

i feel lke runnng away....where?i dont know...said quit his job...he say i should too...but i too dont really know what i wanna do...actually theres an unpublished post about uncertainty....

is uncertainty=fear?...its 2 am but i still gonna say it...

think of ghost...people scared of it...but why should we?...the answer is simple...because we just donnoe what izit or how to explain it...then we fear it...and some...not some a lot of idiot turn it into some HORROR thingy....which is kinda stupid...

exams...people fears of failing exams...why?..because if they fail their future become uncertain...the ideal plan is study scored nicely in exam get uni do the same thing n apply for jobs!CHECKMATE!...wait!!! u fail 1 test...shit now you uncertain about uni..wth....what about the plan?...whats next??what should i do??...gone lah my future.....

confession...people fears if they are rejected...malu!!no face lah...how to see him/her ever again...no face already...this is the most fear that i dun un...when we confess not like we give our balls/virginity to the opposite sex...unless you gay......its just we like that other fella...thats all...ok maybe its only me...sorry but i think im heartless...and worsening by days...

ok thats kinda the summary of the unpublished post...but its unpublishid cuz its not done yet...nor it will be completed any time soon..or later...let go and runaway...let see....

im letting go of my past...i wanna move on...i wanna runaway....everyday i look at people passing by...i see couples i see parents i see kids i wondering...what am i doing there...shouldnt i be doing something great?...something i love?..something that make me feel happy?...just everytime i try to move im being pull back..im tied to something..its called....responsibility......and it sux knowing you been hold back by your family...i can go now and travel all around the world...doing something stupid..but i am completely wrong...its not my family who holding me back...its myself...i just cant let go of the past...i wanna stay in smi for form 6...i wanna stay at home...i want to hold on to everything...instead...im losing everything.......i stay form 6..my result just average....not any better...i stay at home...get more pissed with my parent and they oso feel the same thing towards me.....wanna make money when working but im losing it cuz i got money i buy stuff laaa....tomorrow is june....i feel like doing something for a change...a real smething...i already got 1 plan.....throw away all my manga n magazine..i've been holding them for too long n it only bring harm to me...theres like 1000++manga+mag in my room..n i nvr touch them..but then i always scold my bro n sis for taking them n fight wit my parent cuz i wanna keep em....now it seems......for what?...im letting go...it really part of me...it is who i am back then...all my classmate know if they wan find manga look for me...but that was standard 6 that was form 2 that was form 4.....until when am i gonna hold on to it...i should let go of it in lower 6...2 years.....same with form 6....i guess.......thats all......i think........its time to change........let see what i come up with tomorrow...

lyric to the song below.....been hearing this for years now...but now only keep thinkin bout it....i love janice....XD....since ...dunno when haha....

Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that life's been showing you
Where are you going to?
Do you know?

Do you get what you're hoping for?
When you look behind you there's no open doors
What are you hoping for?
Do you know?

Once we were standing still in time
Chasing the fantasies
That filled our minds
You knew how I loved you
But my spirit was free
Laughing at the questions
That you once asked of me

Repeat 1

Now looking back at all we've planned
We let so many dreams
Just slip through our hands
Why must we wait so long?
Before we see
How sad the answers
To those questions can be

......

2009-05-30T08:37:00.003-07:00

i got a lot to write now...i wan share a lot...but......i just way too darn lazy to write long post...again...
so i just choose 1 topic.....listen to this 2 song...its janice wei lan n mariah carey singing do you know where your going to...but to non chinese i bet u dunno who the hell is janice wei lan...but do you think mariah is better?..Actually started off with me askin jeffrey 1 chinese song...then i thinkin...why people always have the thought malay wont listen to chinese song....well to me(at least) its about nice song...not language...i always listen to not so famous artist...n ppl wonder why...this 2 vid explain everything o...

next 1 ...angels n demons....freaking nice!!!!...got a lot to write bout this great movie...but not just this...night at museum 2 oso freakin nice...but hey ppl start to msg me on msn d..i lazy wan write here n chat there....proof?

pure stupidity

2009-05-26T11:20:00.000-07:00

random fact bout things around me...

if you want to go inside my house you need to pass through 1 thing.......................the front gate...

i hate gays...i mean a normal guy love another guy....but you cant call that guy normal rite?....but since when gay is not normal?...
i love myself...........but.............does that mean i am gay?so...do i hate myself since im gay?

i love games...either sports or video games
i play for fun....not for win...
then my friend ask me...if u play not to win y u play?...i replied..for fun?i love the feeling when scoring goal....my fren then say...ok u love that rite?...try kik the ball to your own net...im sure u love it since u not playin to win....

my math teacher always says practice makes perfect...but i love word of wisdom...and there;s this one saying...nothing is perfect/no human is perfect and so on....so??why we practice then?

my physic teacher say this.....theres no ideal gas in this world...so...............dont try find the ideal girl.....

you play in 1 competition...
you get 1st place woot!you win!!good job!!!!
you get 3rd place GREAT!!at least u win something!all those hard work pay off finally!
you get 2nd place...............owh...too bad for you.......you ALMOST win...aww......

watch the vid...quite short...lamest way to die....for birds of course.

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another lame joke from me i guess.....actually waitin for download to finish....thats y blog...nothing better to do in 5 min....n its 2am in the mornin n no one to chat wit....i gonna ended up bored the other fella anyway...good nite sweet dreamz...

at its limit...

2009-05-19T18:03:00.000-07:00

erm bout the title...later o....yesterday nite for the 1st time this year i chat with people haha..i go kacau ppl 1st...kinda rare actually for me to disturb ppl in msn...so disturb anna,jyn ling,faris,jonathan,elaine,another elaine,joe,n some other la...forget about this fun d....but then damn kelam also la...20 min oni kev call me dota...i was like oi later ah i busy...he say do what?..i reply.. chatting...n he like fuck u come dota...inside there i host n we argue la...other player like =.=!!swt...i say damn fuck ah u i wan chat wit leng lui a....he say fuck girls la..n i reply damn fuck la u damn hard all of em on9 together y u ask this time la...then he say..then y u come?....i was like LOL...hehe i choose dota over girls....gila kelam ah...haha

ok at its limit...its my power supply...my poor power supply at its limit d...playin dota today...suddenly the screen goes black..i was like wtf...n i check nothing also...n feel the casing darn hot...n i can oni say shit!...but then relieve cause i tot the motherboard gone d...see see power supply overheat oni...fuh...really scare the shit outta me.....new board gonna cost around 200...new power supply?...gaming around 100 normal around 20...quite ok la...but i darn kelam try take old pc power supply haha..see see not compatible cause the old 1 outdated d haha...some few fun pic...n yeah it look nice but i din enjoy doin that cause im fixin thing not playin...XD...n no work is fun...

zaman batu power supply

new cooler 1

from other angle

zaman batu processor

left new 1..right..zaman jahiliah punya pc

not so bad....

2009-05-18T09:43:00.000-07:00

today play as usual...get dunno how many shit...holy shit...but discover new thing...i can download n host n open msn n open itunes n no one lag.....well streamyx not so bad after all...just not so good most of the time....try to be postive...look at the glass half ok...
if u a lee hyori fans u love this...but i guess u all just not....just watch if u have free time...my fave artist at the moment...

to do list....
medical checkup(LOL)been delayin it since 2 weeks ago
marley n me-done...nice movie..go watch or download it..
bride wars...hopefully i watch it...its in my hdd since last week...
toradora-episode 4...21 to go...nice anime...go watch it!
family outing-not recomended for non korean artist fans...
go out pasar malam wit joseph tonite!...any1 wanna join?

update

2009-05-16T09:26:00.000-07:00

recent update??i just got ...but dun worry i not emo or anything...prove?i canHAHA with faris n ocean

in 10 year when i become a parent

2009-05-12T17:55:00.001-07:00

best lose this year...

2009-05-12T00:29:00.000-07:00

erm 1 of the draft is publish...just scroll down...y din publish?not finish?...just nid to convert tga image to jpeg but too darn lazy...but today play best lose this month...so convert this pic n that pic together....the post is 3 post below this post...i think...

lovely song

2009-05-11T11:52:00.001-07:00

rather than putting video here i feel like image is more proper for some reason i have no idea what....very lovely song and lovely mv...love this songXD...

Do you hear me?
Talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets harder

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you, I promise you I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

best bowling pose ever

2009-05-09T09:17:00.000-07:00

cant get enough or her...

2009-05-07T21:18:00.000-07:00

ridiculously lazy

2009-05-06T08:56:00.000-07:00

try to open gg..cant....damn stupid...then 10 min i thinkin what to do tonite since no gg...got internet but....dunno what to do..LOL....ended up lstening to olivia ong remake of quiet nite n quiet star by frank sinatra...try to sing the song...just realize wth the lyric oso...how say...the word arrangement of the song like shit haha...try youtube it la...promise joe kor that i blog today...i planning to break the promise cause i just too darn lazy to blog...now blog since i got nothing to do...manga oso no update....later plan to do facebook know me thingy..plan to do ling time d...just too darn lazy to do haha...ok my msn pm say a guy gonna shoot me with gun ..why?...well today see that guy...funny thing is...he seems like try to avoid me...i was wth...i scared sum1 see see that fella scared of me...ok full story...last week i ask ling wei go movie...but 1 hour late this guy name kevin ask her out 1st..i say nvm la can i join?then ling wei say dunno i ask him 1st....then ling wei come see me say sry he say dunwan...my feeling that time wtf is wrong with this guy..so fucking kelam...its not his gf or anything also...so basicly since last week to yesterday i really wanted to know who is this kevin la..so freaking kelam...a day after the movie i ask ling wei..how was ur 'date'....she say...booringg...the movie is booringgg he also booringgg....i was like HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA padan muka kelam guy name kevin!...of course i din say that la...and then this week i ask her again she say ok....watch movie with her...erm...oh ya paul blart mall cop..quite funny...but then again jusco...because walk together with her ppl assume she my gf...zzz rite?..shasi kelam lke shit...meet him...oh bawa gf makan sini la.....then benjamin....wah ur gf cute o...LOL...and yeah back to main story....COINCIDENCELY...kevin oso come jusco and saw us together....i go work...see oscar...then he like ooo semalam happy ah dengan leng lui...then i say...eh macam mana tau?...oscar say...adala orang bagi tau punya...i say...siapa?..oscar..you tak kenal punya..me say...ei cibai tell la....oscar...kevin la...then i lke...wtf he know hahaha....he sure curse me like shit 1....haha..sei lo..go disturb ppl crush pulak...so today oscar show me this kevin...he like 150+cm...damn small or shud i say...pendek?hahaha n me n oscar both 180 n 170+like budak oni he...ceh...but then he n ling wei could make a cute couple but too bad..i love see people miserable...what else ah..got 1 more story but too lazy to type la...nevermind la..put 1 coincidence story 1 more....play with faris gg last nite...guess who we play with??...fariss sis LOL....too bad i dun have replay of the game...but i do have few ss..click on it for larger view...quite fun game oso la...i kutuk faris like shit that game...wei ur sis noob la...wei i pawn ur sis ok ar?

1st pic starting
2nd pic..i kill adibah
3rd pic adibah pawn faris LOL never thought the day faris pawn by his sis is so soon...hope kam wah see this hahaha

3rd post for todayXD

2009-05-02T13:42:00.000-07:00

Some people are meant to be best friends, some are not.

Some people will share with you their ups and downs; trust you enough as a brother/sister to tell you everything about themselves.

Some people keep things to themselves, while at times they may share with you, at other times they just don’t seem to want you to know anything about them at the moment.

Some people are just nice to talk to; you’ll feel the kind of warmth that’s very comfortable whenever u run into them, chatting for hours and yet still not be bored of them.

Some people can appear to be good friends with you, but deep down you’ll know that it doesn’t feel right, because they’re faking it.

Some people may not appear to be friendly, but if you make an effort to get to know them, they can turn out to be best friends you’ve ever made.

Some people are good jokers and can make the atmosphere great, some are too good of a joker that they’ll go overboard and hurt others without realizing it themselves.

Some people are strong, always encouraging themselves to move forward against the odds, the kind that will be a source of inspiration to the people around them.

Some people just like to make fun of others mistakes, yet when they need help, they’re quick at forgetting the damages that they’ve inflicted upon others and demand help from those that they’ve hurt.

Some people made mistakes and regret about it, hoping for forgiveness from those that they’ve hurt.

Some people are unhappy but couldn’t do anything about it because they’re afraid they might hurt others; hurting themselves instead would seemed to be a better choice.

Some people are smart; with little effort they can have great achievements.

Some people who are not-so-smart will just have to put in extra effort to achieve their goals.

Some people just couldn’t be bothered with things around them.

Some people appeared not to be bothered with things around them, but actually they do, just that they don’t spend much time babbling about it.

Some people are contented and happy with what they have.

Some people though are happy with what they have, will hardly feel satisfied because they believe they can be better.

Some people chose to be in an association for a genuine noble cause, no matter how naive others will think of them.

Some people see the personal benefit that they’ll get when they join an association, so they’ll do whatever it takes to be part of it.

Some people advise others things that others should do in a very convincing way, but they do not practice it themselves.

Some people become somebody else and not themselves because of peer pressure; some are just who they are.

Some people change.

something i want to shareXD

2009-05-02T13:27:00.000-07:00

ok roaming around alll over the world of internet...playin dota wit sum fella in sarawak..enter some us site...listen to korean singer..something to share with u all..click on the image above...some sohai racist fella say stupid things...so i just join in by saying...INDIA POWER SINGH POWER!..then check this out...ridiculously cute!!!onion!!

http://www.onion-club.net/avatars.php

and this 1 also ridiculously cute younha!
check out on 0.57

fucked up beyond all recognition aka FUBAR

2009-05-02T08:56:00.000-07:00

today play dota with kev n lich....play 3 game fucked in all 3 game...its like....wtf went wrong?...we 3 good player n we get fucked up really badly in all 3 game..the sad part is its not even a close game or anything...1 sided game n we on the losing side...really...FUBAR.....now chatting with jonathan..talkin bout the game...thats the main reason i blog now...so fuck this fella so noob but try to talk pro by using short form like HoT n ac...wtf...its like malay try to talk to me in english...really hate that...ok back to the game detail...1st game me pit lord lich enigma kev dk...that stupid kev wan kill kill but get killed in the end...i cant kill so fucked up just like that...lich bored d so use ulti for fun ni..2nd game i use faceless void which i know i gonna have trouble farm...n later yeah i got trouble farm n easily die...kev got moon gt a few good kill but then get aimed n die a lot...lich use puck...which he kept be killed by windrunner in mid lane...another bad game...3rd game we thought victory is finally for us but as usual lady luck wont smile at us even a bit...superb hero lineup...bara for kev omni for me n lich got lycan...what can go wrong rite?....pretty much everything i must say...i go charge n die cause kev wait lich go n lich expect kev to charge n we 2 support kev....so?naga get fat destroyer triple kill..fucked up...but before dota qute nice also la..watch wolverine....for 2nd time!!!!...plan go 11.20 get early bird rm6 ticket...but i wake up already 11.15 n call they 2 n they like HAH?u nvr call or anythin i tot cancel...but later 12.30 we go watch rm10~~T_T~~2 time d...that day tot super wednesday but then movie premier so no rm6...but the funny thing is 11.20 thy open 2 cinema for wolverie..12.30 n 1.40 oso they open 2 theatre for this 1 movie..really indicate no other better show to play...haha..after the show we wan go infi..all oso agreeed to walk there but then as usual..coincidence...right when we left jusco it started to rain!...we run like shit haha....n guess wat we nid go jusco back after play...same thing happen...right when we left infi rain started again!...then we like...woi who bad luck here ah!...then i keep quiet....HAHAHA...fucking coincidence....today make friend with 1 girl..her name is rozana...erm i think thats her name...not so sure...ask her for movie n then i think...hm..no other thing to do ar....everytime i meet ppl old fren or new ppl i sure ask go movie...its like...what other thing to do...what else can we do here in ipoh ah?....sad oso la...girls cant dota or hang out at mamak...if go mcd...sure like 1 hour max..if with guys 5 hour oso can hahaha...so in conclusion...dont fren with girl! LOL...if think carefully...i go out at 12..come home at 4.30 cuz got work at 5...n oni movie n dota...no eat or hang out walk around commenting on every single thing we see...if wit girl...after movie eat then...erm....do...erm....dunno...LOL...usually what girl do with their spare time??study??..haha i remember 1 lyric...girl oni good for 3 thing cooking cleaning and...erm..save it for later la...but then this rozana quite funny la..she gt 2 a for her spm..n its pendidikan islam n tasawurXD...i wass like..WOW...i gt C or D for my pendidkan islam...ask her she say never have boyfriend b4...then...listen to english song more than malayXD...NEVER go out with boys to hang out or movie or something...and im the 2nd or 3rd guy she talk a lot with over the last erm...her lifetime???LOL...it seem the typical malay guys dun like to disturb her kind haha...another weird finding for meXD,,,,but then quite stupid the 1st line i talk to her...wei kenapa diam?malu ke mak ayah tak bagi cakap dengan lelaki ke?memang jenis diam ke...takpun memang mengada ngada nak orang cakap dengan ko dulu?...XD....i guess thats all la...its qute fun to know new ppl everyday...but then quite stupid oso la...know some1 but after that forget them then come another 1....but then still stick with your old fren...but i think later....sure lost contact...i guess thats life...we meet people we say hi we leave them we say bye...and keep that cycle going n going n going...but then its hard to forget people once you know them...even after 3-4 years...weird rite?...best example is hanafis...last time always hang out with him....library,pirated vcd's,celebrity gossips,magazines,missed those old times...still remember he so addicted to lizzie mcguire so i say wei why la ur gf hillary duff like that...go advice her la dun dedah here n there...XD..then he kutuk michelle branch cause im into her that time...haha..but like i mention in my blog last month see him after 4 years..1st word i say...wei rambut ang macam gampang ...but then quite kelam la since i din recognize him at 1st after like 10 sec oni i know its him...oh ya yesterday meet erm...izrin..she adibah neighbor...i was walking n suddenly..HAFNI!...i turn around n look at her..i was like..who the hell is her...looks familiar....wait i know!!she from my ns camp!...n then she say..kawan adibah...then i like..LOL lucky i no say hajar... remember her but forget her name...take me 5 sec to remember her name...XD...i dont know why but i think she gotten fatter...or izit my eye oni?.shit if this goes on i may nt recognize my own wife if we din see each other for 1 month...doesnt it like...fuckingly ridicolously crazily stupid?

LOL

2009-04-25T08:49:00.000-07:00

yay the never ending shift work finally come to an end but then come new stuff to do haiz.....got offer from 1 uni yesterday and yea i think i accept it even though i wan wait better opportunity...my life is full of coincidence...after get the offer i was happy...i think yat ling is the first to know bout this and then ah ming alyn then said...ok that was yesterday...today i look at the letter again n read all the stuff oni to found out.....erm....she studyin in the same uni HAHA another never ending coincidence....was talkin to lyn today bout all my coincidence....i mean...all that is just too...erm coincidence??haha...ok let see...eh wait which she??havent tell eh....she's my ex...>_<...ok coincidence...same class wit kevin since standard 5....erm...then erm...same birthdate with my assistant company leader...aika house just behind mine~XD..crystal voo...long story...and more la...too lazy to type haha..ya was talkin to alyn she say all this are blessing from god...LOL...what kind of blessing??haha..weird 1 i must say...oh ya LOL...why is that?..after get the ofer i was like..what the hell..what course they put me into?..then i check on my application form...IT WAS MY 1ST CHOICE!...i was like wth...mayb click wrong...haiz......y??????????/why this happen to meeeee........i guess that what happen if you never listen to teacher...always check your work...i was too lazy to submit all the application so i just click here n there type a bit then straight submit...i mean..what the worst can happen rite?...yeah serves me right...now really dunno what to do...go for it or....the thing is must reply fast...n if wan accept nid pay rm250...if later i wan accept other offer how?rm250 gone la...cibai.....wan sleep now...darn sleepy...leave 1 song o...its younha again!!!love peace n ice cream

nombor rahsia 486

2009-04-23T10:00:00.000-07:00

its younha!!!!!exclusively for my emo frenXD

she's cute sexy pretty hot she's lee hyori!

2009-04-22T10:49:00.000-07:00

update update update....
yawn been busy...wan dota oso no time...that busyXD...
work work work haiz..the know new people part is fun...the say goodbye part is not so fun
know few ppl last week..ah kuan,ah kuan,may,min,stephen,tang and meet ah ping again ~~fun funXD...the not so fun part is the work haha...not work la...the big fat pig oni la...a lot happen...like erm hard to say lah...today oso quite fun...i startled when try to explain to customer and guess what she say...if you cant speak english just speak in bm....LOL....i just dont know how to explain that time haha...even in bm i startled and she start talk chinese with ah yat who coincidencely chat with me there...wan learn mandarin and cantoneseXD..any1 can teach??i everyday use cantonese word...but...oni 2....cibai and sohai hahaha...lazy wan update...i just wan post bout lee hyori new song... but if all song no update....haha i dunwan change to music blogXD... so thats pretty much my update even though its far more complicated...like.....kevin work with me for 5 days..quite bg thing but i dun write..and a lot of side story from there like how famous is he when he enter work and erm bout me being quiet in front of wai mun n fren and how he doing the exact thing i did haha....erm a lot of story lah...lazy wan type hahaha....its 2 am im sleepy so being lazy this hour not so weird la...
LEE HYORI!
just download her new album called its hyorish..most of the song quite catchy and fast paced so not a song you wan when you emo or something...but then erm its ncie..i dunno how to explain its simply sounds like music to my ear hahaha...at 1st i download cause i wan the song 'lesson'
but now loving the song 'u go girl'...1st impression of u go girl...catchy but funny...2nd time hear...quite cute song...3rd time...i love it!...

LEE HYORI LESSON

LEE HYORI U GO GIRL

trust you

2009-04-15T15:44:00.000-07:00

just finish gundam 00 series...in 1 weekXD,,,love that show...i like almost all the song there here 1 song...its trust you by yuna ito

hana ha kaze ni yureodoru youni
ame ha daichi wo uroosu youni
kono sekai ha yorisoiai ikiteru noni
naze hito ha kizutsukeau no
naze wakare ha otozureru no

Flowers dance in the wind,
rain moistens the Earth…
If everyone in this world want to live together,
why do they hurt each other?
Why do they separate?

kimi ga tooku ni ittemo mada
itsumo kono kokoro mannaka
ano yasahii egao de umetsukusareta mama
dakishimeta kimi no KAKERA ni
itami kanjitemo mada tsunagaru kara
shiniteru yo mata aeru to
I’m waiting for your love

No matter how far you go, you’ll still
be in my heart.
With that tender smile, I get buried and
held in a fragment of you…
Even if you feel pain…we’re tied together,
I believe we’ll meet one again.
I’m waiting for your love.

I love you, I trust you
kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
hikari demo yami demo futari dakara shinjiaeru no
hanasanaide

I love you, I trust you
I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.
I love you, I trust you
be it in light or darkness, because we trust each other,
so don’t let go.

sekai no hate wo dare ga mita no
tabi no owari wo dare ga tsugeru no
ima ha kotae ga mienakute nagai yoru demo
shinjita michi wo susunde hoshii
sono saki ni hikari ga matsu kara

Who has seen the world’s end?
Who informed us of the Journey’s End?
I can’t see the answer now, but even in long nights,
I hope you’ll continue on the path you believe in
because a light is waiting for you.

kimi ga oshietekureta uta ha
ima mo kono kokoro no mannaka
ano yasashii koe to tomoni hiibiteiru
afureru kimochi no shizuku ga
atatakaku hoho tsutau
tsuyoku naru ne shinjiteru yo tsunagatteru to
I’m always by your side

The song you’ve taught me
still lies within my heart.
Together with you, that tender voice resounds in my heart.
The fragment of my overflowing emotions
streak down my warm cheeks.
I’ve become strong right? I believe, we’re tied together.
I’m always by your side.

I love you, I trust you
kimi no tame ni nagasu namida ga
I love you, I trust you
ai wo oshietekureta donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayottemo
soba ni iru yo

I love you, I trust you
for you, I shed these tears.
I love you, I trust you
you taught me what love is. Even if you get lost on your way,
I’ll be with you.

I love you, I trust you
kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
hikari demo yami demo
I love you, I trust you
kanashimi demo yorokobi demo
I love you, I trust you
kimi no subete wo mamoritai

I love you, I trust you
I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.
I love you, I trust you
be it in light or darkness.
I love you, I trust you
be it sadness or happiness.
I love you, I trust you
I want to protect your everything.

donna ni kimi ga machi ni mayottemo
soba ni iru yo futari dakara shinjiaeru no
hanasanaide

Even if you get lost on your way,
I’ll be with you because we trust each other…
Don’t let go.

time to change

2009-04-13T23:06:00.001-07:00

everyday when i wake up sure like 2-3 missed call but then today when i wake up at 1pm check my phone....more than 10 miss call from 6 different people and 3 messages i was ike wth....i need to wake up early next time...not only that i also often break promises and always late...haiz what become of me already?....try not to sleep at 3 everyday loh....but hard de haha...thx to kam wah for the award thingy...its nice...the trophy so blueish...i like blue....do you like blue?..cause i like blue...u shud also like blue...XD...later i give the award to others lo...lazy wan write now haha

u think u smart?

2009-04-12T00:46:00.000-07:00

Below is a quiz written by Albert Einstein. He said 98% of
the people in the world cannot solve the quiz. Are you among the 2%?

FACTS:
1. There are 5 houses (in a row) in 5 different colours.
2. In each house lives a person with a different nationality.
3. These 5 owners drink a certain beverage, smoke a certain brand of
cigar and keep a certain pet.
4. No owners have the same pet, smoke the same brand of cigar, or
drink the same drink.

HINTS:
1. The Brit lives in a red house.
2. The Swede keeps dogs as pets.
3. The Dane drinks tea.
4. The green house is on the immediate left of the white house.
5. The green house owner drinks coffee.
6. The person who smokes Pall Mall cigars rears birds.
7. The owner of the yellow house smokes Dunhill cigars.
8. The man living in the house right in the center drinks milk.
9. The Norwegian lives in the first house.
10. The man who smokes Blend cigars lives next to the cat owner.
11. The man who keeps horses lives next to the man who smokes Dunhill.
12. The man who smokes Blue Master cigars drinks beer.
13. The German smokes Prince cigars.
14. The Norwegian lives next to the blue house.
15. The man who smokes Blend cigars has a neighbor who drinks water.

The QUESTION IS .... who has a fish as a pet?

happy ending

2009-04-11T10:22:00.001-07:00

1st of all i wan put this that just sooo random...
ok la back to real life....at first i want to put title as mcb...but then kinda happy in the end so wan put happy ending..but i still think bout all the mcb thing today...so thought wan change to malaysia cina boleh...i scare attract a lot of unwanted attention from google search n stuff....malaysian and blogger...write 1 thing they interpret differently...sei loh!...ISA haha...but i bumiputera hard to kena ISA haha...lol k why the heck i talkin politic now haha move on lah...
mcb...
really mcb day at work....this kinda the 1st time i got an asshole as my boss.....so cb....i dont know what he so jealous of me make me do all the work...really sucks....if he work same time with me sure i cant relax 1....its been 2 weeks already..so shitty...work now kinda not so fun...feel like quitting but then again pity lin if i go she alone....die o she....all her fren all gone d..quit got..retired got..transfer got..change job got...fired oso got...now oni me left...me oso almost no fren there luckily ah yat always round my place...got ah ming oso..so basicly i oni got 2+1 fren in the counter and plus jyn ling n the red shirt guy which until now i dunoo his name haha...ok the mcb thing rite...after he come back from break he straight order me go take care of fair which s ok cuz i talk talk talk with ah yat and then know ah kuan...quite nice o..and then mcb thing happen ..*drumroll*..go there got 1 customer wan shirt and guess what the customer ask the big f and he ask me to serve that fella i was like wtf!...the customer ask u y point to me??..and then 1 more customer ask me n he just look dunwan help...i can oni say..wait ah wait ah and do all the thing quick o....den settle down for a minute got 2-3 costumer lookin for shirt and yeah he just look and let me do all the work..wtf!.....now he big boss la now?...lucky i just part time....and i wan stay until end of june..so i just do all the work asap even though feel like fire burning in my heart ....normally in the counter got 2 ppl today got 3 me him n lin...n lin is forced to do other brand work cause she basically do nothing...nothing??she can help me serve customer that nite!!..damn shit..even when i need to sew the pant i still need to find shirt for other customer...the best thing is what he say...to train me do work fast...WTH......and until almost 11 oso we rushing to finish the work other brand suppose to do....even that brand promoter oso relaxed d by the time we almost finish...but what make me say happy ending is other stuff happen today that make forget all that stuff la....jyn ling lost her pass and if lost need to pay rm20...so feel worried for her la...cause she the type who happy outside but dunno got storm or tsunami inside..and guess what the ending???she dont even take the pass when she enter work....she forget that she forget she din take pass or she dunno that she forget to take pass....haha..so kinda relieve la...and can see her expression change from fake happy to relieve ....
k to other stuff yes my msn is back!!!...reformat my pc a few month ago but as usual i sure do stupid thing 1...this time after reformat i realize i dont have anti virus...so 1 week i run the internet without antivirus and download speed is less than10kbs...well something definately wrong eh?...so reformat the comp again then now oni i install msnXD...after reformat the pc feel nice...got the new headphone at pc fairXD...blue color...very niceXD...i wan pink at 1st haha..now...erm....i wan new watch...the 1 i always use the strap split into 2...AGAIN...now looking for something like my old esprit watch which i lost it when i was 14...the thing cost rm200....hehe my father sure do smart thing by giving 13 year old kid rm200 watch for his bday haha....anyone wan join me??

it's been a while right?

2009-04-08T09:55:00.000-07:00

met wai mun today....its been 3 years i think since i last saw him...surprisingly i recognize him...and he waiting visa to go to Scotland...well 1 more going off oversea...wonder will i stay here or go abroad...who knows...well 1 thing for sure....its just the same....not like all perfect in other country n neither do here...its just human got this sentimental value n feelings n they love this 1 thing they call home...as for me...longest i've been away from home is 1 month+...i want to spread my wings but i dont want to...y?..i love trying new things and moving out is a good idea...but then why wan leave when you got good reason not to...back to the title ...suddenly all my past come n haunt me...n make me think..its been a while.....

its been.....
8 years since i see my godsister n her parent of course...
wonder how are they now...
10 days since i update this blog...
i got many draft unpublish most of it cause not complete
1 month since i touch my ps2...
the goddamn game is pretty much less the same..no point play...
2 month since i hang out with said...
his prob not mine
3 years since i hang out/msg/contact with hanafis..
actually see him 1st time in 3 year few week ago n 1st thing i say...rambut hang macam gampang
4 hour since i eat the burger...LOL
jkjk back to emo thingy
3 weeks since i msg/chat/see adibah..
missing her
2 years since i out of ns camp..
cant stop thinkin bout all the experience good n bad
1 year since i got the new bike...
not yet involve in any accident surprisingly
6 month since i attend a normal school day..
i miss everything except the study n homework part..yeah i miss mr k...LOL
10 sec since i lazy wan write somemore
i thinkin wan put in draft but then i think just publish o

olivia ong fades away...

2009-03-31T12:29:00.000-07:00

I just wanna say hello to you
But you’re not lookin’ my way
Like you trying to act cool
I think I lost my mind
Back there and then
Oh how I let my feelings go

You see, I know it’s just a crush
And a crush won’t ever last long
No one’s forcing it, boy
So you I’ll put aside
Thought friends we would be
Oh, boy…

*Sadly you took my smile away
Every time you look my way
It fades away
I think it’s best it stays this way
Every time you look my way
Yeah, it fades away

You just wanna say hello to me
Now the table’s turned
I’m not lookin’ your way

Don’t get it wrong
Oh, it’s twisted up
Alright let’s make this story short

You see, I know it’s just a crush
And a crush won’t ever last long
No one’s forcing it, boy
So you I’ll put aside
Thought friends we would be
Oh, boy…
*Sadly you took my smile away
Every time you look my way
It fades away
I think it’s best it stays this way
Every time you look my way
Yeah, it fades away

Whao…
Why did it have to go down this way?
I’ll admit I feel you when you are near
Maybe baby we got it all wrong
*Sadly you took my smile away
Every time you look my way
It fades away
I think it’s best it stays this way
Every time you look my way
Yeah, it fades away

left 4 dead

2009-03-30T14:01:00.000-07:00

played this game few months back...n like it...
decided to install since i got a hell lot of space on my hard disk...
and feel kinda ok fun game you see zombie n you kill it...and later try the online game
and feel like okok not bad....i think i gonna stick with this a game a while....
and around 1am i join singapore room since people say its better to go there than the outdated malaysia room...and fuck....I LOVE THIS GAME!!!!!!..i play from 1am to 6am the singaporean are great...gt girl also playin in that game...really pro gamers not like noobs from msia....
gonna play againXD...
update??later mayb...not really in the mood to blog but i couldnt keep this one haha..

where is she???

2009-03-01T08:56:00.000-08:00

im back to the un happy state again...no mood to chat and stuff but i still in the mood to blog...maybe because i simply got no mood to do other stuff...actually i kinda sick of this...but then i still cant lift my mood up..you know something you just dont lose or gain it by forcing it...something like love u cant force someone to love you...and in my case i cant force myself to be happy..so some ask why my msn pm bye bye everyone...so i planning to stop online in march starting tomoro which is 2nd of march...until maybe im happy again??...why??i dont know..i think internet give us somewhat hope to get close wit fren,family and special one but then its not...just somewhat a false hope...and to me...no expectation no regret/disappointment...its not i wont online 100% still gonna check my mail still gonna dota online...still gonna cs...just less surf and super less msn in fact havent log in for few days...even if log in i put auto msg say im not in the mood to chat..i just simply dont know what gonna make me happy..now jogging alone since faris straighten his hair...watch movie with kay nyan is superb but then onli for a while then back to not so happy mood...work is fun but then that just not my place...somehow i feel i dont belong there..you know...the feel....you just feel it ...i need a fren to share my prob with??maybe...just that i not the type who tell everyone whats my prob....i still remember what i told abbie...try to be more positive....and she reply ..this is me i wont change who i am...then i say...if you change for the better isnt that only gonna bring you good?and she reply back..people already know me like this...and i was thinkin to myself...what is it so hard to change..isnt it all be easy if she change her lonesome attitude to more cheerful person and you cant expect people to come to you if you all quiet n stuff you must come to people to be part of it....but now im in that situation i think i understand that..its like no one to talk to..no right time...everyone seem busy with stuff..time seem not enough..and in the end gave up hoping on others and become depress like what i feel now...and people say technology is made to make us in contact easier...phone,cars,internet...well it doesnt seem to look that way eh..now everyone more busy than ever and even neighbour is stranger to some of us....i know im not the only one feeling this but then again...i feel so ......ALONE.....where are you?...

the 2nd song is same song but different female singer

can you hear it???the silence.......

2009-02-26T09:12:00.001-08:00

been thinking...and i realize...i shouldnt think at all...yup another 1 am post..

random stories of me this past week....

FEAR
2 days ago had a nightmare....been into an accident..cant remember the detail much...but i still remember the colour...white...so basically maybe im gonna crash into some sort of building or white grayish car...so i thought..just another nightmare which i'll later forget....but then..yesterday...something really weird happen...4 stranger smile at me for no reason....as usual i look at passer by at work..somehow few ppl turn their face n smile at me...can you imagine that...you sitting in a bench in a park...st there do nothing...and the passer by just look at you and smile...thats just chill me out..is my time is near?..maybe....who knows.......shouldnt make jokes about death anymore..or stop thinking too much

IGNORANT
some say ignorant is bliss or something...buy a new shoe since the old one cant be use...i was thinkin...sigh gonna be a longgg day looking for cheap nice shoe...lets face t rm250 for a shoe??erm can buy hell lot of nice shirt n pant...rm150 is already ridicolously expensive to me...call me cheap but no shoe worth that much unless they wont wear out in your entire life...so i go to the 1st shop...spot a nice 1...look at the price tag and size...5sec and decided...ok i take this 1...LOL..wtf eh..the salesgirl there like darn happy when i say that...can see from her expression owh so fast buy^^...and the best thing about all that is...my father compliment me say i good in find item..hehe..my mother think i spend all day looking for shoe but the truth i go play left for dead with kah nyan and faris haha

TRUST
he lie me...i very sad....thats what jimmy say to me when she see me today...and then she continued...i want scold him but he scold me back....what you think i should say to her?....break up??she the 1 gonna be hurt...chill/relax?her dear just lie to her...how the fuck to chill?..woman..why they soo serious in relationship??...sometime i wonder...why do guys lie too much...i know is to please the girl but then again...if the grl found out...isnt it gonna so unplease the girl zilion time more than it please the girl??...last tuesday ah yoong bf just fly to taiwan to cont his study...she was crying and me n ah ming help her feel more miserable by saying her bf gonna find taiwan girl...LOL...i think in a relationship is learn to trust each other and be a bt considerate bout your partner...say for example a guy wan go drink with his friend but the wife dont like...so the guy say he got overtime...so basically...the small stuff beccome serious shit by a small white lie...theres absolutely nothing wrong with go drink with friends..and can be understand that maybe the wife want the guy to be at home more often but then if both also dont want to back off and betray the trust...isnt that just...if it was me...just listen to your wife or say..if you wan tag along come o....XDtheres nothing wrong with that rite?,,,,just sometime guys just too stupid to think of that and thinks the girl are slave at home and girls too stupid thinkin the guys are their 24-7 bodyguard...i not sayin this happen to many people or i am very experience in this just that i observe things and notice this and yeah the root of all problem...think too much...

PROBABILITY
thinking too much....after i think back...i shouldnt think too much...to those of you may notice this i dont talk much in real life and talk a lot of stuff online...thats just because im the type think first then act...or talk or whatever im doing..1 good example is today when jimmy say her bf lie to her...in 10 sec i already think a lot of stuff pros and cons if i talk this topic or that topic...shud i tell her to break up or sumthin...in the end i just say....so whats next?what you gonna do...nice reply eh?...kinda buy times n learn more of what happen..but then when think too much...say stuff like after spm...if i go there what can i do??if i choose this uni what the better thing than that college..in the end i din apply for anything^^...same thing now...result still havent out i already think what to do if get nice result or bad...plan this and that....but then what the point?the result still havent out...stupid as it may sound but most of my plan go down the drain when 1 tiny unexpected thing happen...such as....national service after spm...3 days after i get result i go to ns camp so i din apply much back then..like now im thinking another 10000 line for this post but do i want to cont???damn lazy....

REMINISCENCE
alex got segari camp lumut...which kinda make me remember all my fading memories there...how does it feel to have someone pretty much more or less the same ablity or personality with you?....i felt it there...our difference is our environment...he is my assistant as i was the company leader...we are born in the same day same year...kinda same way treat a girl,same clumsyness,same ego,same ability,same leadership,same thinking,same thoughness,both mentally strong,physically strong,both hated by many people,both got reliable great friend even though make many enemy,both look stupid when try to show off,both tiu others when other ppl make mistake and affacted others,both know there is a line that cant be crossed,both very competitive,both forgive ppl easily,both very direct..
its gonna be a long 1........

ok i hate him he hate me...i was the leader i ask him to be my assistant..guess what he say to me....he say i dunwan to be under you you not capable of being leader...and guess what i say?..yea and you say to your leader like this and do you think i want to be under you?..and he just say if i wan make him leader he gonna find other asistant so i hold my post n force him to be my asistant by askin the jurulatih...i oso knw how to be slick de....but then not like i feel treaten by him or what i want the best for company n to be honest even though hes an ass i still think he is good in term of leadership...so can say im very professional la...hahaand my judgement was right..we never talk about anything but our job during my 2 month+ stay there...he also not talk much n very observant cuz i work alongside him..very reliable...but then again until this very second he still think im a ass and i still think hes an asshole..so work with him like...i trust his judgment n he trust my judgment even though tiu me like shit he nvr blame me for anythin and yea i did the exact thing he did...can say an asshole i wont forget..memories is nice eh..

i guess thats all for now....too long eh...maybe pic post tomoro maybe next week that mean next month...1 month gt 4 week so mayb next 5 week...hehe thanks for reading!

just the kind of thought

2009-02-19T23:32:00.000-08:00

i was thinkin what to name the title and then itunes song change to pink family potrait...i just dont like that and press next and just the kind of thought by rie fu haha..kinda perfect cause after few days of emo finally back to ownself haha..thx to several friend of mine and some unknown fella in dota haha...really make my dayXD..some ask la y im emo...gt few reason la...like sit at home do nothing,not talkin to any1,adibah goin australia,not hanging out with ppl,too much sleep,workplace many ppl holiday,new faces in workplace so not talkin,pc crashing a lot of time,game crash a lot of time,and few more la.. so can say i depressed??LOL mayb..now dota suddenly found some great ppl,all back to work as usual,can mix with new guy d,adibah still keep in touch even though darn far,now less sleep,game i just delete instead of dealin with the crash...if look at all the reason seems stupid eh?just because not talkin n sit at home do nothing become emo d...but then still emo LOL...too bad i no money now so sad de...yesterday jimmy ask me go k-box...but thinkin rm30.....>_<..pokai now haha wait paycheck n put in bank LOL.....wait all uni fren back then oni spend like hell againXD....erm i forget what to write ah....seems short eh??dunno i just happy and wan write to someone and this blog fit the role perfectlyXD haha....oh ya msn name..kelam ah..yesterday chat with ocean and she ask gt gf already ar???...i was like LOL swt=.=!!....my pm is 'kissing you oh my love' i wan to put that as name at 1st i wonder what ppl think if i put that as name eh...haha...actually its snsd song from sdo its called kissing you http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jYqGJ1NLpU8

game time!!!!

2009-02-18T18:22:00.000-08:00

erm i dunnoe what to do these few days..try to play ps and like..wth wheres all my disc??!!!...my game look a lot but then theres nothing interestin to play...even ffx n ff12 doesnt interest me...so in the end ended up playin nfs most wanted hahaha weird eh.....try to play on9 game but cant oso sdo 2nd second is lag like hell...i bet the graphic card prob not the graphc card gt prob just wrong setting n stuff..which i lazy wan touch...what else...gt 2 kelam girl try to make me cry but in the end one of em ended up crying hahaha...online game...try to install luna online but the game just crash for dunnoe what reason ..really annoying....wont touch that game ever again..that 1 mayb nt my fault cause check in forum many say the game got a hell lot of bug and hell lot of hacker and some say the game dying already...so no point play...looks cute though...and yea finally thx to joe kor...no nid say what he did la just milion thx to him oniXD...and yea sometime easy for us to advice people because our mind are clear but then when we the one in trouble its hard to think clearly cause the thing we will do will affect our life ..sometime fear is a factor...i do have some fear too eh?nobodys perfect i guess..today quite kelam oso la..went to faris house as usual to jog but unfortunately he still in kl...i reach there n msg him then run around 30 min then he still havent come so call him...and guess what he still in kl hahaha..kelam eh...today...erm play dota n cs see see 10am d....now dunno wan do what...i guess to much free time oso troubled me...if do chores...30 min finish den dunno what to do hahaha....learn mandarin is boring,play guitar my hand stiff d...long time no play...watch porn..not really my thing....do party...who to invite all oso dunno where...go out no $$$$$..sleep ..too much sleep d...blog..dunnoe what to write...read blog..all read d..facebook...dunno who to kacau...msn all busy or idle...darn nid do somethin la.....take knife n stab myself...sound funXD

edited-haha now just finish chores thought wan play ran online see see server maintanence wtf rite?

al mio caro più caro

2009-02-16T09:01:00.000-08:00

tomorrow one of my special friend will go to Australia....in this world i only got 3 of em...Kevin which is now in kl...hamizi which is now somewhere i dont know where......on my way home after work i kept on thinking should i go send her off tomorrow...honestly if it was hamizi I'll go....but i guess shes not eh....for some reason i damn lazy wanna go her house if gt many people...but then again i always hate crowd..and yea this is 2nd time...her father sure love the fact she going Australia eh..he's like telling the whole world that his daughter gonna continued her studies in overseas...one very proud father i must say....actually i already prepared 1 question for her to decide whether to go see or not but i just forget to ask...as usual...every time chat sure i got say...er wan ask u 1 thing but i forget already..well this tis the question....how important for me to be there?...but then i just forget and yea as usual i hate disturb people....i bet now shes either on the phone with her besties or just sleep cause tomorrow is 1 important day....

ok that thing there was written few days ago when i wan emo(LOL)..not in the mood to chat so sleep early thats y din finish...in fact i sleep very early these days...i think the last 3 days i never sleep later than 2am..ok now not so emo so basiclly i dunnoe what to write now hahah just listen to check yes julietXD....erm ok im out of word now....erm....thinkin...hahaha i just publish o....and yea 100 post....n quite special title i must say....bet many din know what it mean eh...

and yea hope she read this...this song for u~~

mr big-wild world

La...la...la...la...la

Now that I've lost everything to you
You say you want to start something new
And it's breaking my heart you're leaving
Baby I'm grieving

And if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
A lot of nice things turn bad out there

Oh baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
(yeah...) oh baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child girl

You know I've seen a lot of
What the world can do
And it's breaking my heart in two
Coz I never want to see you sad girl
Don't be a bad girl

But if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there's
A lot of bad and beware

destiny....

2009-02-16T08:21:00.000-08:00

i watch one chinese movie just now...1 part of the story the guy find the girl and...

guy-we were destined to be together
girl-because you love me
guy-no its because we are destined to be together
girl-why is it so hard for you to admit that you love me?
guy-if we not destined together we wouldnt meet,i wouldnt take 4 hour train ride n 3 hour car ride just to see you
girl-so you saying just because we destined we should be together?
guy-.....
girl-well then i give you until midnight to make me fall in love with you and lets see if this destiny thing really works.

i dont know what happen in the end i just watch a part of it cause sammi cheng acted in it but about destiny do you believe it?....in malay its called takdir. so do you belive in this thing?take my life for example...i always think what am i destined for??glory??or solitary??if u were to choose...both is pretty good choice.. i never dream of living in nyc or kl or any big city but then again i never dream of living a dull life of middle class people..so do we work for our destiny or just let things decide for itself??...sometime i wonder why is some working so hard to be the best?why is some just throw their life away as if it is nothing..do these people ever think of this?or is it just me thinkin bout stuff i shouldnt???..i always try to procrastinating things so that i can look at things better...1 of the things is entering form 6....i never apply for college or anything..beacause i couldnt see myself of what gonna happen to me if i do this or that...some time i think too much...some time things that seems important doesnt need time to think...if somehow i fail to get to college after the result is out...do i have any regret?mayb i do..or do i?...people say that being indecisive is the worst thing to have and i afraid to say....that is my biggest and worst weakness...do i have regret?i enjoy every second as prefect,i enjoy every second in drama practice,i enjoy every second of cock talking with kevin,if i enter college....i definitely wont meet one of my dearest dear now..definitely wont be as positive as today...definitely wont be in dilemma for my future...destiny?maybe am i destined to enter form 6?and am i destined to be a happy person in form 6 but a nobody in real world?..sad to say ...i just wish if this 1 things work out....all these will end....theres no more destiny for me to wonder...there will be a straight wide long road ahead of me...just 1 chance....to make everything right.....and hopefully ........it will end....i guess.......only time will tell....

new blog song

2009-02-12T23:11:00.000-08:00

i put 2 song and since valentine is near i put 2 love song haha...but never really celebrate it n mayb probably never will hahahaXD oh n yeah your story my song is updated

if you come to me

2009-02-12T08:29:00.000-08:00

So long ago
I didn't have a care about me
I didn't know my right from wrong
But now I know
That you've got your love around me
You know it makes me feel so strong
Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel

Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right

Through out all my life
I never thought I'd have somebody
Someone to call my own
And now I've found
A little bit of heaven baby
A place to call my own

Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel

Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right

Hey there dont you know
You gotta slow down before you know
You gonna brake down and turn around
Before you know, you go and break my heart
When will you learn to be
A little helpful when you think of me
A little careful when you're close to me
Coz baby i loved you from the start

Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel

(I love you)

Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby

Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right

cool song for valentine eh...kinda addicted to it haha..

dunwan b emo

2009-02-10T23:19:00.000-08:00

sum1 try to make me emo today...sohai fella hahaha

dunwan b emo i wan be this

malay ??? melayu....

2009-02-07T11:04:00.000-08:00

erm kinda talk many stuff bout melayu these days..maybe cause finally after 5 year finally my malay friend are more than indian+chinese combined..and yea get kutuk-ed a lot...like i dunnoe wth is ulam or erm...i forget d...some malay traditional salad lah....i mean is that even my fault my mother din serve that often??or more like never???haha...my family damn simple 1...no durian during durian season and stuff...just go tesco buy some apple or oranges or watermelon...repeat that every single month thats all...no rambutan or manggis or whatever local fruit n stuff..and yeah they say gonna bully me again tomorrow...sigh...sometime people find it funny when see some people dunnoe the so called routine food and stuff....but wth la....2nd thing is about marriage...for some reason talk a lot bout this kinda weird for me cause kinda new to me but for them they already like 25 so not really wrong for em to think bout this...learn few new stuff...and what girl like hahaha....kinda weird these days...surrounded by girls....whereever i go sure go out with girls 1...workplace is 1...go out oso 1...house oso 1.....the weirdest part or very uncomfortable for me is....go see girls cloth with jyn ling...i mean the promoter there was like welcome welcome...jyn ling was like browsing for dress and i was like....er..what am i suppose to do????i dont even like to shop for my own stuff...now go window shopping for girl stuff???man hopefully i wont turn to sotong.....haha..i wan write a lot more so basicly all these kinda the summary la....oh ya been kinda more blur than usual these few days...thats y the girls kinda bull y me....like everythin they make fun of me i was like huh?and they giggle i was like....er..........what??maybe cuz no enuff sleep....here what i do these past few days....tuesday 10am working...tuesday 11 pm...fnish work....wednesday 0am play with graphic card option n screwed up the start menu button and tray icon...wednesday suppose fnd way to fix but chat with adibah until 3am....4am still playing dota...5am, oni find way to fix the thing...6am mission complete...fix d...7am fetch bro go school 8am sleep...10am wake up n go jusco...7pm reach home forget forget forget 12am chat againg with ppl...3 am thursday oni sleep...6am wake up..7.20 go jog with faris as usual..go home at12pm do some chores....2pm at work d....thrsday 11pm on9...chat with adibah until 3am friday as usual......wake up 6 as usual but this time go faris house no jog....@@ d....even around 12 almost zzz at his house...1pm fiday pick up bro 2pm pray 3pm on9 4pm ready for work d.....friday 11pm fucked up my msn....install update which later turn out to be the new msn 2009...and yea it is fucked up.....suppose to fix it but go chat with adibah till 3am on saturday.....usually i would go fix the msn right away but considering i got afternoon shft until monday...i be a good boy and listen to her sleep at 3am.....saturday wake up at 11am...finnaly a good 8 hour sleep....but 1pm already at work....11.30 on9....check mail...try msn whether still bad or ok d....still bad...chat with joe kor...play dota at 12.30am sunday...
2.30 sunday joe kor sleep o begin my mission....at 3.30 finish...now updating this blog until 4.10.am...basicly gonna sleep at 4.30.....wake up at 6 then go pasar karat near my school there find some stuff to burn my cash.....most prob something i wont use...work then go home mayb on9 again then sleep late AGAIN...then go fariss house early in the morn....and feel zzzzzz AGAIN!

enuff with my schedule.....no time to ps2 or drama or anime eh....msn....really fucked up.....i 1st thought the av block it...so i go see 1 by 1 what they block and stuff it look something like this pic below....in the end just wasting my fuckin time..cuz the main prob is the theme im using...so basicly from nice custom xp theme turn into some windows 98 style pc....actually can use the normal xp theme...the blue 1....but i just sick of it even when i havent use it for more than 2 years already haha..so basiccly heres the stuff i check on my av and my new desktop look haha

kinda fucked up la this month already 3 things happen with my pc...1st the toolbar gone...then i go change the DNS server which make the internet freakin slow..which later oni i remember that i change it after the internet become slow...now this msn...man so fucked up..... 4.30 d....dunwan break my schedule hehee...nitez