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tomorrow one of my special friend will go to Australia....in this world i only got 3 of em...Kevin which is now in kl...hamizi which is now somewhere i dont know where......on my way home after work i kept on thinking should i go send her off tomorrow...honestly if it was hamizi I'll go....but i guess shes not eh....for some reason i damn lazy wanna go her house if gt many people...but then again i always hate crowd..and yea this is 2nd time...her father sure love the fact she going Australia eh..he's like telling the whole world that his daughter gonna continued her studies in overseas...one very proud father i must say....actually i already prepared 1 question for her to decide whether to go see or not but i just forget to ask...as usual...every time chat sure i got say...er wan ask u 1 thing but i forget already..well this tis the question....how important for me to be there?...but then i just forget and yea as usual i hate disturb people....i bet now shes either on the phone with her besties or just sleep cause tomorrow is 1 important day....
ok that thing there was written few days ago when i wan emo(LOL)..not in the mood to chat so sleep early thats y din finish...in fact i sleep very early these days...i think the last 3 days i never sleep later than 2am..ok now not so emo so basiclly i dunnoe what to write now hahah just listen to check yes julietXD....erm ok im out of word now....erm....thinkin...hahaha i just publish o....and yea 100 post....n quite special title i must say....bet many din know what it mean eh...
and yea hope she read this...this song for u~~
mr big-wild world
La...la...la...la...la
Now that I've lost everything to you
You say you want to start something new
And it's breaking my heart you're leaving
Baby I'm grieving
And if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
A lot of nice things turn bad out there
Oh baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
(yeah...) oh baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child girl
You know I've seen a lot of
What the world can do
And it's breaking my heart in two
Coz I never want to see you sad girl
Don't be a bad girl
But if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there's
A lot of bad and beware
Monday, February 16, 2009
destiny....
i watch one chinese movie just now...1 part of the story the guy find the girl and...
guy-we were destined to be together
girl-because you love me
guy-no its because we are destined to be together
girl-why is it so hard for you to admit that you love me?
guy-if we not destined together we wouldnt meet,i wouldnt take 4 hour train ride n 3 hour car ride just to see you
girl-so you saying just because we destined we should be together?
guy-.....
girl-well then i give you until midnight to make me fall in love with you and lets see if this destiny thing really works.
i dont know what happen in the end i just watch a part of it cause sammi cheng acted in it but about destiny do you believe it?....in malay its called takdir. so do you belive in this thing?take my life for example...i always think what am i destined for??glory??or solitary??if u were to choose...both is pretty good choice.. i never dream of living in nyc or kl or any big city but then again i never dream of living a dull life of middle class people..so do we work for our destiny or just let things decide for itself??...sometime i wonder why is some working so hard to be the best?why is some just throw their life away as if it is nothing..do these people ever think of this?or is it just me thinkin bout stuff i shouldnt???..i always try to procrastinating things so that i can look at things better...1 of the things is entering form 6....i never apply for college or anything..beacause i couldnt see myself of what gonna happen to me if i do this or that...some time i think too much...some time things that seems important doesnt need time to think...if somehow i fail to get to college after the result is out...do i have any regret?mayb i do..or do i?...people say that being indecisive is the worst thing to have and i afraid to say....that is my biggest and worst weakness...do i have regret?i enjoy every second as prefect,i enjoy every second in drama practice,i enjoy every second of cock talking with kevin,if i enter college....i definitely wont meet one of my dearest dear now..definitely wont be as positive as today...definitely wont be in dilemma for my future...destiny?maybe am i destined to enter form 6?and am i destined to be a happy person in form 6 but a nobody in real world?..sad to say ...i just wish if this 1 things work out....all these will end....theres no more destiny for me to wonder...there will be a straight wide long road ahead of me...just 1 chance....to make everything right.....and hopefully ........it will end....i guess.......only time will tell....
guy-we were destined to be together
girl-because you love me
guy-no its because we are destined to be together
girl-why is it so hard for you to admit that you love me?
guy-if we not destined together we wouldnt meet,i wouldnt take 4 hour train ride n 3 hour car ride just to see you
girl-so you saying just because we destined we should be together?
guy-.....
girl-well then i give you until midnight to make me fall in love with you and lets see if this destiny thing really works.
i dont know what happen in the end i just watch a part of it cause sammi cheng acted in it but about destiny do you believe it?....in malay its called takdir. so do you belive in this thing?take my life for example...i always think what am i destined for??glory??or solitary??if u were to choose...both is pretty good choice.. i never dream of living in nyc or kl or any big city but then again i never dream of living a dull life of middle class people..so do we work for our destiny or just let things decide for itself??...sometime i wonder why is some working so hard to be the best?why is some just throw their life away as if it is nothing..do these people ever think of this?or is it just me thinkin bout stuff i shouldnt???..i always try to procrastinating things so that i can look at things better...1 of the things is entering form 6....i never apply for college or anything..beacause i couldnt see myself of what gonna happen to me if i do this or that...some time i think too much...some time things that seems important doesnt need time to think...if somehow i fail to get to college after the result is out...do i have any regret?mayb i do..or do i?...people say that being indecisive is the worst thing to have and i afraid to say....that is my biggest and worst weakness...do i have regret?i enjoy every second as prefect,i enjoy every second in drama practice,i enjoy every second of cock talking with kevin,if i enter college....i definitely wont meet one of my dearest dear now..definitely wont be as positive as today...definitely wont be in dilemma for my future...destiny?maybe am i destined to enter form 6?and am i destined to be a happy person in form 6 but a nobody in real world?..sad to say ...i just wish if this 1 things work out....all these will end....theres no more destiny for me to wonder...there will be a straight wide long road ahead of me...just 1 chance....to make everything right.....and hopefully ........it will end....i guess.......only time will tell....
Thursday, February 12, 2009
new blog song
i put 2 song and since valentine is near i put 2 love song haha...but never really celebrate it n mayb probably never will hahahaXD oh n yeah your story my song is updated
if you come to me
So long ago
I didn't have a care about me
I didn't know my right from wrong
But now I know
That you've got your love around me
You know it makes me feel so strong
Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel
Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right
Through out all my life
I never thought I'd have somebody
Someone to call my own
And now I've found
A little bit of heaven baby
A place to call my own
Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel
Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right
Hey there dont you know
You gotta slow down before you know
You gonna brake down and turn around
Before you know, you go and break my heart
When will you learn to be
A little helpful when you think of me
A little careful when you're close to me
Coz baby i loved you from the start
Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel
(I love you)
Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right
cool song for valentine eh...kinda addicted to it haha..
I didn't have a care about me
I didn't know my right from wrong
But now I know
That you've got your love around me
You know it makes me feel so strong
Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel
Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right
Through out all my life
I never thought I'd have somebody
Someone to call my own
And now I've found
A little bit of heaven baby
A place to call my own
Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel
Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right
Hey there dont you know
You gotta slow down before you know
You gonna brake down and turn around
Before you know, you go and break my heart
When will you learn to be
A little helpful when you think of me
A little careful when you're close to me
Coz baby i loved you from the start
Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel
(I love you)
Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right
cool song for valentine eh...kinda addicted to it haha..
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Saturday, February 7, 2009
malay ??? melayu....
erm kinda talk many stuff bout melayu these days..maybe cause finally after 5 year finally my malay friend are more than indian+chinese combined..and yea get kutuk-ed a lot...like i dunnoe wth is ulam or erm...i forget d...some malay traditional salad lah....i mean is that even my fault my mother din serve that often??or more like never???haha...my family damn simple 1...no durian during durian season and stuff...just go tesco buy some apple or oranges or watermelon...repeat that every single month thats all...no rambutan or manggis or whatever local fruit n stuff..and yeah they say gonna bully me again tomorrow...sigh...sometime people find it funny when see some people dunnoe the so called routine food and stuff....but wth la....2nd thing is about marriage...for some reason talk a lot bout this kinda weird for me cause kinda new to me but for them they already like 25 so not really wrong for em to think bout this...learn few new stuff...and what girl like hahaha....kinda weird these days...surrounded by girls....whereever i go sure go out with girls 1...workplace is 1...go out oso 1...house oso 1.....the weirdest part or very uncomfortable for me is....go see girls cloth with jyn ling...i mean the promoter there was like welcome welcome...jyn ling was like browsing for dress and i was like....er..what am i suppose to do????i dont even like to shop for my own stuff...now go window shopping for girl stuff???man hopefully i wont turn to sotong.....haha..i wan write a lot more so basicly all these kinda the summary la....oh ya been kinda more blur than usual these few days...thats y the girls kinda bull y me....like everythin they make fun of me i was like huh?and they giggle i was like....er..........what??maybe cuz no enuff sleep....here what i do these past few days....tuesday 10am working...tuesday 11 pm...fnish work....wednesday 0am play with graphic card option n screwed up the start menu button and tray icon...wednesday suppose fnd way to fix but chat with adibah until 3am....4am still playing dota...5am, oni find way to fix the thing...6am mission complete...fix d...7am fetch bro go school 8am sleep...10am wake up n go jusco...7pm reach home forget forget forget 12am chat againg with ppl...3 am thursday oni sleep...6am wake up..7.20 go jog with faris as usual..go home at12pm do some chores....2pm at work d....thrsday 11pm on9...chat with adibah until 3am friday as usual......wake up 6 as usual but this time go faris house no jog....@@ d....even around 12 almost zzz at his house...1pm fiday pick up bro 2pm pray 3pm on9 4pm ready for work d.....friday 11pm fucked up my msn....install update which later turn out to be the new msn 2009...and yea it is fucked up.....suppose to fix it but go chat with adibah till 3am on saturday.....usually i would go fix the msn right away but considering i got afternoon shft until monday...i be a good boy and listen to her sleep at 3am.....saturday wake up at 11am...finnaly a good 8 hour sleep....but 1pm already at work....11.30 on9....check mail...try msn whether still bad or ok d....still bad...chat with joe kor...play dota at 12.30am sunday...
2.30 sunday joe kor sleep o begin my mission....at 3.30 finish...now updating this blog until 4.10.am...basicly gonna sleep at 4.30.....wake up at 6 then go pasar karat near my school there find some stuff to burn my cash.....most prob something i wont use...work then go home mayb on9 again then sleep late AGAIN...then go fariss house early in the morn....and feel zzzzzz AGAIN!
enuff with my schedule.....no time to ps2 or drama or anime eh....msn....really fucked up.....i 1st thought the av block it...so i go see 1 by 1 what they block and stuff it look something like this pic below....in the end just wasting my fuckin time..cuz the main prob is the theme im using...so basicly from nice custom xp theme turn into some windows 98 style pc....actually can use the normal xp theme...the blue 1....but i just sick of it even when i havent use it for more than 2 years already haha..so basiccly heres the stuff i check on my av and my new desktop look haha
kinda fucked up la this month already 3 things happen with my pc...1st the toolbar gone...then i go change the DNS server which make the internet freakin slow..which later oni i remember that i change it after the internet become slow...now this msn...man so fucked up..... 4.30 d....dunwan break my schedule hehee...nitez
2.30 sunday joe kor sleep o begin my mission....at 3.30 finish...now updating this blog until 4.10.am...basicly gonna sleep at 4.30.....wake up at 6 then go pasar karat near my school there find some stuff to burn my cash.....most prob something i wont use...work then go home mayb on9 again then sleep late AGAIN...then go fariss house early in the morn....and feel zzzzzz AGAIN!
enuff with my schedule.....no time to ps2 or drama or anime eh....msn....really fucked up.....i 1st thought the av block it...so i go see 1 by 1 what they block and stuff it look something like this pic below....in the end just wasting my fuckin time..cuz the main prob is the theme im using...so basicly from nice custom xp theme turn into some windows 98 style pc....actually can use the normal xp theme...the blue 1....but i just sick of it even when i havent use it for more than 2 years already haha..so basiccly heres the stuff i check on my av and my new desktop look haha
kinda fucked up la this month already 3 things happen with my pc...1st the toolbar gone...then i go change the DNS server which make the internet freakin slow..which later oni i remember that i change it after the internet become slow...now this msn...man so fucked up..... 4.30 d....dunwan break my schedule hehee...nitez
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
5th feb
erm suppose to update on todays outing...but just upload few pic to pc....haiz dunnoe what to write...lazy wan write if chat with ppl....feel like ignore other ppl.......nvm la just cut it short....watch wedding game and all well end well...both oso chinese...cinema...1st show...like no ppl...2nd show...too many ppl we have to sit quite in front.......lazy wan write bout today....move on lo....
yea few pic from my work place..or more like the ppl in my work place...lets face it most of you all go jusco AT LEAST once a month..
one hell of free people....nothing better to do
what more can i ask..girls love act cute...promoting shirt haha
bus on fire....not something you see everyday...too bad too small..hard to see
another pic of that....was taken when i was on my way to work
for some reason my phone cam really fucked up now...need get a new phone...mayb in april..oh let april be here fastXD
yea few pic from my work place..or more like the ppl in my work place...lets face it most of you all go jusco AT LEAST once a month..
one hell of free people....nothing better to do
with jia jun..kinda my best buddy in my 1st week...he quit d..continue study
what more can i ask..girls love act cute...promoting shirt haha
bus on fire....not something you see everyday...too bad too small..hard to see
another pic of that....was taken when i was on my way to workfor some reason my phone cam really fucked up now...need get a new phone...mayb in april..oh let april be here fastXD
Saturday, January 31, 2009
2am!!!!!!!!i love it...dont you?????
2am!!!!!!!!i love it...don't you?????the usual 2am calmness n quietness always sooth up my feeling... LOL kelamnya i think that's a big error in essay but wth rite? working....its officially 10 day tomoro and BIG thing gonna happen in my work place which involve me and i not happy about it...more like things actualy but wth...1st most of people i know is their last day.....shit eh?..suppose to be my last day also but ....other people misfortune is my fortune...they want fire 1 guy and replace by me..cause simply im the only 1 good enough to replace him...seriously......and yeah till this second this guy dunnoe he gonna be cut tomorrow....so basicly all of us laughing together and stuff and this guy can even feel proud that he can choose what time he come in for work....ok here is the full story since i free now....i dont want to use real name so just put it like this...
A is the biggest fella there kinda like my boss..shes the 1 take me in...B is the problematic fella which gonna be fired..when i come to work this B guy thought me everythin i need to know bout my work la....but after work he get into an accident and didnt show up for work 2 days before CNY...which is later turn out to be seriously fucking hectic...and A is not so happy about it n decide to cut him out and ask me whether i wan cont till june..which kinda perfect cause i wan do part time can go out a lot and until june also where usually the college start....that time i was NOOB i dunnoe anything that was going on i just happy that i get offer to cont la....and then CNY monday...this guy showed up not very happy cause his leg still not heal but A tell him to work also and i still unaware the politic behind the scene...and then he was ask to arrange everythin in store as punishment and after a while i decide to help him since i got nothing better to do cause i dont really know other people there...in store B was whining bout A force him to come to work with his leg condition and bla bla bla leg bla bla bla leg...and he leave the store say he kenot stand the pain d n left me alone there....after finish work i go out and A come to me and ask me what B said to me...and later explain B is problematic here some bad stuff bout B that A told me
-always come late
-after punch card didnt show up at counter
-B got brag many stupid thing to A...like how easy to sleep while workin in supermarket cause no people supervise you,how smart he is to quit supermarket job before the supermarket get a rennovation cause theres just too much work if he stays
and a lot more which i lazy wan write...
ok la lets get to the endin i lazy wan type d...so basiclly i just kinda in the middle of these 2 cause im the neutral 1...jusco is having a rennovation!!!woot hahaha nthing much actually just change the cloth to 1st floor and the kitchen stuff and all in the ground floor...at least thats what i heard...and A scared B quit before the thing n left the other 2 girl who in charge of my place work like hell to move all the stuff from ground floor to 1st floor...and kinda make me feel bad cause he still enjoy himself cause he is the friendly type or you can say typical malay who disturb any1 friendly and many ppl like him surprisingly...including my mother...in the end i just feel that....
screw LAH......i just wan a fuckin nice job with fuckin nice pay with fuckin nice time n this job fits in perfectly......so if he gonna hate me after this i dun mind la....but do any of you know y i telling you all of this cause i notice all this story lead to nowhere...cause theres just too many stuff happen and i cant write 10 days of working experience in 30 min...mayb i will try to update later....erm maybe this 3 should be interesting....22 years old colleague married d,shout at own worker,my usual blurness+stupidy..erm mayb i should update more but i doubt i write all the above 3 story and kinda like 20 interesting story rather than 3 but just leave like that lo...nitez ya..thx for readingXD
A is the biggest fella there kinda like my boss..shes the 1 take me in...B is the problematic fella which gonna be fired..when i come to work this B guy thought me everythin i need to know bout my work la....but after work he get into an accident and didnt show up for work 2 days before CNY...which is later turn out to be seriously fucking hectic...and A is not so happy about it n decide to cut him out and ask me whether i wan cont till june..which kinda perfect cause i wan do part time can go out a lot and until june also where usually the college start....that time i was NOOB i dunnoe anything that was going on i just happy that i get offer to cont la....and then CNY monday...this guy showed up not very happy cause his leg still not heal but A tell him to work also and i still unaware the politic behind the scene...and then he was ask to arrange everythin in store as punishment and after a while i decide to help him since i got nothing better to do cause i dont really know other people there...in store B was whining bout A force him to come to work with his leg condition and bla bla bla leg bla bla bla leg...and he leave the store say he kenot stand the pain d n left me alone there....after finish work i go out and A come to me and ask me what B said to me...and later explain B is problematic here some bad stuff bout B that A told me
-always come late
-after punch card didnt show up at counter
-B got brag many stupid thing to A...like how easy to sleep while workin in supermarket cause no people supervise you,how smart he is to quit supermarket job before the supermarket get a rennovation cause theres just too much work if he stays
and a lot more which i lazy wan write...
ok la lets get to the endin i lazy wan type d...so basiclly i just kinda in the middle of these 2 cause im the neutral 1...jusco is having a rennovation!!!woot hahaha nthing much actually just change the cloth to 1st floor and the kitchen stuff and all in the ground floor...at least thats what i heard...and A scared B quit before the thing n left the other 2 girl who in charge of my place work like hell to move all the stuff from ground floor to 1st floor...and kinda make me feel bad cause he still enjoy himself cause he is the friendly type or you can say typical malay who disturb any1 friendly and many ppl like him surprisingly...including my mother...in the end i just feel that....
screw LAH......i just wan a fuckin nice job with fuckin nice pay with fuckin nice time n this job fits in perfectly......so if he gonna hate me after this i dun mind la....but do any of you know y i telling you all of this cause i notice all this story lead to nowhere...cause theres just too many stuff happen and i cant write 10 days of working experience in 30 min...mayb i will try to update later....erm maybe this 3 should be interesting....22 years old colleague married d,shout at own worker,my usual blurness+stupidy..erm mayb i should update more but i doubt i write all the above 3 story and kinda like 20 interesting story rather than 3 but just leave like that lo...nitez ya..thx for readingXD
Saturday, January 24, 2009
thoughts from thinking-words from hand-emotion by heart
i want to make a post..cause i dont wan this blog to miss january...think bout what to write..few hours ago i was thinkin bout what happen to me now so feel kinda emo...and i thought this gonna be an emo post..and thinkin bout it makes me wan laugh and all the emo feeling all gone..but i still wan make emo post and unfortunately after go few site i got tired n here i am..not happy or emo...just wan to finish this off asap and go zzzzzzzzzzz.......so i dunnoe whether this is serious or emo or happy or stupid crappy post....mayb shud name it a seriously happy idiot crappy post lol in malay seorang bodoh yang betul2 happy mengarut/merepek(ridiculous) punya post...in the end of the day i still try to make some lame joke so i can smile a bit....ya ive been thinkin on my way home today...eh wait...shud i start with wth ive been doin since the last post 1st????..dun think have time la...i think just skip my 1st time golf thingy all...ok think on way home...ive been workin for 2 days now n suddenly got offer mayb i can extend till june which is perfect..but meaning i have no time to hang out with my fren....anymore...last time after spm i not working also..so i ask other fren go out often and when they say they work i sure like..
.fuck u la..this mayb last time hang out together n you dunwan go go die at your work place la....bring all your money to the grave and buy yourself out of death and work till the world end..that time we all die d so no need see us........
yeah i do know how make other people feel guilty and miserable...but just recently i go to someone house and say to my friend...here the conversation
me-they all so close i bet they all prioratize family 1st
someone(i forget her name)-ya la kan kita semua macam tu?
me-eh for me i think career 1st family 2nd..you wont make a happy family if you dont have money to support your family
someone-HAHAHA kerja pun tak ada career 1st pulak
me-LOL bukan sekarang la i mean after college and stuff
someone-but money isnt everythng
me-true but it is something and better than nothing...and if no career means you got nothing
someone-tak tahu la tapi kita memang macam tu..mungkin perempuan je
me-dunnoe la maybe saya la...sebab sekarang macam kalau family ada wedding ke apa mesti saya 1st yang lari blababla
and so on.....
after thinkin this i guessing what will become of me....work work work??but i really really wan to spend time with my 2 friend which i surely gonna die for.......but i just wont quit the job...not like i desperate for money or something but i just wont quit..and now got offer to extend until june...i cant say no straight....i just dont know....why...........when i was told this i was like...............at that moment i only think of 2 person....adibah and hamizi....i badly wanted to go out with them but against superb job and superb pay and superb colleague ...simply make me completely feel empty....ok what you think of this...hamizi go out from ship in port klang after almost a year in oversea and straight called his family and me to tell he gonna come back in febuary...adibah also special to me...the fact that she gonna go australia for 4 year since the 1st time i know her just like...its feel something inside you that you feel lost....that isnt complete...lol like wan confess love haha...i dunnoe whether she or her friend gonna read this or my fucking friend gonna tell this to her bro but i feel kinda safe cause people dont really read this blog...and the person really bored or care bout me will read this cause it is a hell of a long post and nthing interesting also...so if yo u still reading thanks a lot...she always tell me what goin on with her life...sms me...as a matter of fact most of the time i reload my phone just beacause of her....and you all can prove me wrong when did any of you send the 5th last phone message to me?if you dont un...ur last msg t me,2nd last msg,3rd,4th and 5th..when is it??this year???propably not...and did you even send 5 to me??jonathan?????fuck u ........oni know call girl...sohai fella....spend rm40++call girl 1 night can sms me ask what i do 10 cent kenot...fucking backtabber...fuck its getting late....30 min d..mayb continue this la.....what i write all that i consider that iportant...sometime people take what they got for granted...for me i think i must acknowledge all my fren how i feel bout them and stuff cause i really care bout u all....seriously..i being gay here n i hate gays...im sorry if i become an ass to any of you cause i never meant to...ok its geting weird i better stop here...thanks for reading...
.fuck u la..this mayb last time hang out together n you dunwan go go die at your work place la....bring all your money to the grave and buy yourself out of death and work till the world end..that time we all die d so no need see us........
yeah i do know how make other people feel guilty and miserable...but just recently i go to someone house and say to my friend...here the conversation
me-they all so close i bet they all prioratize family 1st
someone(i forget her name)-ya la kan kita semua macam tu?
me-eh for me i think career 1st family 2nd..you wont make a happy family if you dont have money to support your family
someone-HAHAHA kerja pun tak ada career 1st pulak
me-LOL bukan sekarang la i mean after college and stuff
someone-but money isnt everythng
me-true but it is something and better than nothing...and if no career means you got nothing
someone-tak tahu la tapi kita memang macam tu..mungkin perempuan je
me-dunnoe la maybe saya la...sebab sekarang macam kalau family ada wedding ke apa mesti saya 1st yang lari blababla
and so on.....
after thinkin this i guessing what will become of me....work work work??but i really really wan to spend time with my 2 friend which i surely gonna die for.......but i just wont quit the job...not like i desperate for money or something but i just wont quit..and now got offer to extend until june...i cant say no straight....i just dont know....why...........when i was told this i was like...............at that moment i only think of 2 person....adibah and hamizi....i badly wanted to go out with them but against superb job and superb pay and superb colleague ...simply make me completely feel empty....ok what you think of this...hamizi go out from ship in port klang after almost a year in oversea and straight called his family and me to tell he gonna come back in febuary...adibah also special to me...the fact that she gonna go australia for 4 year since the 1st time i know her just like...its feel something inside you that you feel lost....that isnt complete...lol like wan confess love haha...i dunnoe whether she or her friend gonna read this or my fucking friend gonna tell this to her bro but i feel kinda safe cause people dont really read this blog...and the person really bored or care bout me will read this cause it is a hell of a long post and nthing interesting also...so if yo u still reading thanks a lot...she always tell me what goin on with her life...sms me...as a matter of fact most of the time i reload my phone just beacause of her....and you all can prove me wrong when did any of you send the 5th last phone message to me?if you dont un...ur last msg t me,2nd last msg,3rd,4th and 5th..when is it??this year???propably not...and did you even send 5 to me??jonathan?????fuck u ........oni know call girl...sohai fella....spend rm40++call girl 1 night can sms me ask what i do 10 cent kenot...fucking backtabber...fuck its getting late....30 min d..mayb continue this la.....what i write all that i consider that iportant...sometime people take what they got for granted...for me i think i must acknowledge all my fren how i feel bout them and stuff cause i really care bout u all....seriously..i being gay here n i hate gays...im sorry if i become an ass to any of you cause i never meant to...ok its geting weird i better stop here...thanks for reading...
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