can you hear it???the silence.......

been thinking...and i realize...i shouldnt think at all...yup another 1 am post..


random stories of me this past week....



FEAR
2 days ago had a nightmare....been into an accident..cant remember the detail much...but i still remember the colour...white...so basically maybe im gonna crash into some sort of building or white grayish car...so i thought..just another nightmare which i'll later forget....but then..yesterday...something really weird happen...4 stranger smile at me for no reason....as usual i look at passer by at work..somehow few ppl turn their face n smile at me...can you imagine that...you sitting in a bench in a park...st there do nothing...and the passer by just look at you and smile...thats just chill me out..is my time is near?..maybe....who knows.......shouldnt make jokes about death anymore..or stop thinking too much


IGNORANT
some say ignorant is bliss or something...buy a new shoe since the old one cant be use...i was thinkin...sigh gonna be a longgg day looking for cheap nice shoe...lets face t rm250 for a shoe??erm can buy hell lot of nice shirt n pant...rm150 is already ridicolously expensive to me...call me cheap but no shoe worth that much unless they wont wear out in your entire life...so i go to the 1st shop...spot a nice 1...look at the price tag and size...5sec and decided...ok i take this 1...LOL..wtf eh..the salesgirl there like darn happy when i say that...can see from her expression owh so fast buy^^...and the best thing about all that is...my father compliment me say i good in find item..hehe..my mother think i spend all day looking for shoe but the truth i go play left for dead with kah nyan and faris haha


TRUST
he lie me...i very sad....thats what jimmy say to me when she see me today...and then she continued...i want scold him but he scold me back....what you think i should say to her?....break up??she the 1 gonna be hurt...chill/relax?her dear just lie to her...how the fuck to chill?..woman..why they soo serious in relationship??...sometime i wonder...why do guys lie too much...i know is to please the girl but then again...if the grl found out...isnt it gonna so unplease the girl zilion time more than it please the girl??...last tuesday ah yoong bf just fly to taiwan to cont his study...she was crying and me n ah ming help her feel more miserable by saying her bf gonna find taiwan girl...LOL...i think in a relationship is learn to trust each other and be a bt considerate bout your partner...say for example a guy wan go drink with his friend but the wife dont like...so the guy say he got overtime...so basically...the small stuff beccome serious shit by a small white lie...theres absolutely nothing wrong with go drink with friends..and can be understand that maybe the wife want the guy to be at home more often but then if both also dont want to back off and betray the trust...isnt that just...if it was me...just listen to your wife or say..if you wan tag along come o....XDtheres nothing wrong with that rite?,,,,just sometime guys just too stupid to think of that and thinks the girl are slave at home and girls too stupid thinkin the guys are their 24-7 bodyguard...i not sayin this happen to many people or i am very experience in this just that i observe things and notice this and yeah the root of all problem...think too much...


PROBABILITY
thinking too much....after i think back...i shouldnt think too much...to those of you may notice this i dont talk much in real life and talk a lot of stuff online...thats just because im the type think first then act...or talk or whatever im doing..1 good example is today when jimmy say her bf lie to her...in 10 sec i already think a lot of stuff pros and cons if i talk this topic or that topic...shud i tell her to break up or sumthin...in the end i just say....so whats next?what you gonna do...nice reply eh?...kinda buy times n learn more of what happen..but then when think too much...say stuff like after spm...if i go there what can i do??if i choose this uni what the better thing than that college..in the end i din apply for anything^^...same thing now...result still havent out i already think what to do if get nice result or bad...plan this and that....but then what the point?the result still havent out...stupid as it may sound but most of my plan go down the drain when 1 tiny unexpected thing happen...such as....national service after spm...3 days after i get result i go to ns camp so i din apply much back then..like now im thinking another 10000 line for this post but do i want to cont???damn lazy....


REMINISCENCE
alex got segari camp lumut...which kinda make me remember all my fading memories there...how does it feel to have someone pretty much more or less the same ablity or personality with you?....i felt it there...our difference is our environment...he is my assistant as i was the company leader...we are born in the same day same year...kinda same way treat a girl,same clumsyness,same ego,same ability,same leadership,same thinking,same thoughness,both mentally strong,physically strong,both hated by many people,both got reliable great friend even though make many enemy,both look stupid when try to show off,both tiu others when other ppl make mistake and affacted others,both know there is a line that cant be crossed,both very competitive,both forgive ppl easily,both very direct..
its gonna be a long 1........

ok i hate him he hate me...i was the leader i ask him to be my assistant..guess what he say to me....he say i dunwan to be under you you not capable of being leader...and guess what i say?..yea and you say to your leader like this and do you think i want to be under you?..and he just say if i wan make him leader he gonna find other asistant so i hold my post n force him to be my asistant by askin the jurulatih...i oso knw how to be slick de....but then not like i feel treaten by him or what i want the best for company n to be honest even though hes an ass i still think he is good in term of leadership...so can say im very professional la...hahaand my judgement was right..we never talk about anything but our job during my 2 month+ stay there...he also not talk much n very observant cuz i work alongside him..very reliable...but then again until this very second he still think im a ass and i still think hes an asshole..so work with him like...i trust his judgment n he trust my judgment even though tiu me like shit he nvr blame me for anythin and yea i did the exact thing he did...can say an asshole i wont forget..memories is nice eh..

i guess thats all for now....too long eh...maybe pic post tomoro maybe next week that mean next month...1 month gt 4 week so mayb next 5 week...hehe thanks for reading!