destiny....

i watch one chinese movie just now...1 part of the story the guy find the girl and...

guy-we were destined to be together
girl-because you love me
guy-no its because we are destined to be together
girl-why is it so hard for you to admit that you love me?
guy-if we not destined together we wouldnt meet,i wouldnt take 4 hour train ride n 3 hour car ride just to see you
girl-so you saying just because we destined we should be together?
guy-.....
girl-well then i give you until midnight to make me fall in love with you and lets see if this destiny thing really works.

i dont know what happen in the end i just watch a part of it cause sammi cheng acted in it but about destiny do you believe it?....in malay its called takdir. so do you belive in this thing?take my life for example...i always think what am i destined for??glory??or solitary??if u were to choose...both is pretty good choice.. i never dream of living in nyc or kl or any big city but then again i never dream of living a dull life of middle class people..so do we work for our destiny or just let things decide for itself??...sometime i wonder why is some working so hard to be the best?why is some just throw their life away as if it is nothing..do these people ever think of this?or is it just me thinkin bout stuff i shouldnt???..i always try to procrastinating things so that i can look at things better...1 of the things is entering form 6....i never apply for college or anything..beacause i couldnt see myself of what gonna happen to me if i do this or that...some time i think too much...some time things that seems important doesnt need time to think...if somehow i fail to get to college after the result is out...do i have any regret?mayb i do..or do i?...people say that being indecisive is the worst thing to have and i afraid to say....that is my biggest and worst weakness...do i have regret?i enjoy every second as prefect,i enjoy every second in drama practice,i enjoy every second of cock talking with kevin,if i enter college....i definitely wont meet one of my dearest dear now..definitely wont be as positive as today...definitely wont be in dilemma for my future...destiny?maybe am i destined to enter form 6?and am i destined to be a happy person in form 6 but a nobody in real world?..sad to say ...i just wish if this 1 things work out....all these will end....theres no more destiny for me to wonder...there will be a straight wide long road ahead of me...just 1 chance....to make everything right.....and hopefully ........it will end....i guess.......only time will tell....