olivia ong fades away...

I just wanna say hello to you
But you’re not lookin’ my way
Like you trying to act cool
I think I lost my mind
Back there and then
Oh how I let my feelings go

You see, I know it’s just a crush
And a crush won’t ever last long
No one’s forcing it, boy
So you I’ll put aside
Thought friends we would be
Oh, boy…

*Sadly you took my smile away
Every time you look my way
It fades away
I think it’s best it stays this way
Every time you look my way
Yeah, it fades away

You just wanna say hello to me
Now the table’s turned
I’m not lookin’ your way

Don’t get it wrong
Oh, it’s twisted up
Alright let’s make this story short

You see, I know it’s just a crush
And a crush won’t ever last long
No one’s forcing it, boy
So you I’ll put aside
Thought friends we would be
Oh, boy…
*Sadly you took my smile away
Every time you look my way
It fades away
I think it’s best it stays this way
Every time you look my way
Yeah, it fades away

Whao…
Why did it have to go down this way?
I’ll admit I feel you when you are near
Maybe baby we got it all wrong
*Sadly you took my smile away
Every time you look my way
It fades away
I think it’s best it stays this way
Every time you look my way
Yeah, it fades away

left 4 dead

played this game few months back...n like it...
decided to install since i got a hell lot of space on my hard disk...
and feel kinda ok fun game you see zombie n you kill it...and later try the online game
and feel like okok not bad....i think i gonna stick with this a game a while....
and around 1am i join singapore room since people say its better to go there than the outdated malaysia room...and fuck....I LOVE THIS GAME!!!!!!..i play from 1am to 6am the singaporean are great...gt girl also playin in that game...really pro gamers not like noobs from msia....
gonna play againXD...
update??later mayb...not really in the mood to blog but i couldnt keep this one haha..

where is she???

im back to the un happy state again...no mood to chat and stuff but i still in the mood to blog...maybe because i simply got no mood to do other stuff...actually i kinda sick of this...but then i still cant lift my mood up..you know something you just dont lose or gain it by forcing it...something like love u cant force someone to love you...and in my case i cant force myself to be happy..so some ask why my msn pm bye bye everyone...so i planning to stop online in march starting tomoro which is 2nd of march...until maybe im happy again??...why??i dont know..i think internet give us somewhat hope to get close wit fren,family and special one but then its not...just somewhat a false hope...and to me...no expectation no regret/disappointment...its not i wont online 100% still gonna check my mail still gonna dota online...still gonna cs...just less surf and super less msn in fact havent log in for few days...even if log in i put auto msg say im not in the mood to chat..i just simply dont know what gonna make me happy..now jogging alone since faris straighten his hair...watch movie with kay nyan is superb but then onli for a while then back to not so happy mood...work is fun but then that just not my place...somehow i feel i dont belong there..you know...the feel....you just feel it ...i need a fren to share my prob with??maybe...just that i not the type who tell everyone whats my prob....i still remember what i told abbie...try to be more positive....and she reply ..this is me i wont change who i am...then i say...if you change for the better isnt that only gonna bring you good?and she reply back..people already know me like this...and i was thinkin to myself...what is it so hard to change..isnt it all be easy if she change her lonesome attitude to more cheerful person and you cant expect people to come to you if you all quiet n stuff you must come to people to be part of it....but now im in that situation i think i understand that..its like no one to talk to..no right time...everyone seem busy with stuff..time seem not enough..and in the end gave up hoping on others and become depress like what i feel now...and people say technology is made to make us in contact easier...phone,cars,internet...well it doesnt seem to look that way eh..now everyone more busy than ever and even neighbour is stranger to some of us....i know im not the only one feeling this but then again...i feel so ......ALONE.....where are you?...



the 2nd song is same song but different female singer