spread my wings and fly....

i feel lke runnng away....where?i dont know...said quit his job...he say i should too...but i too dont really know what i wanna do...actually theres an unpublished post about uncertainty....

is uncertainty=fear?...its 2 am but i still gonna say it...

think of ghost...people scared of it...but why should we?...the answer is simple...because we just donnoe what izit or how to explain it...then we fear it...and some...not some a lot of idiot turn it into some HORROR thingy....which is kinda stupid...

exams...people fears of failing exams...why?..because if they fail their future become uncertain...the ideal plan is study scored nicely in exam get uni do the same thing n apply for jobs!CHECKMATE!...wait!!! u fail 1 test...shit now you uncertain about uni..wth....what about the plan?...whats next??what should i do??...gone lah my future.....

confession...people fears if they are rejected...malu!!no face lah...how to see him/her ever again...no face already...this is the most fear that i dun un...when we confess not like we give our balls/virginity to the opposite sex...unless you gay......its just we like that other fella...thats all...ok maybe its only me...sorry but i think im heartless...and worsening by days...

ok thats kinda the summary of the unpublished post...but its unpublishid cuz its not done yet...nor it will be completed any time soon..or later...let go and runaway...let see....

im letting go of my past...i wanna move on...i wanna runaway....everyday i look at people passing by...i see couples i see parents i see kids i wondering...what am i doing there...shouldnt i be doing something great?...something i love?..something that make me feel happy?...just everytime i try to move im being pull back..im tied to something..its called....responsibility......and it sux knowing you been hold back by your family...i can go now and travel all around the world...doing something stupid..but i am completely wrong...its not my family who holding me back...its myself...i just cant let go of the past...i wanna stay in smi for form 6...i wanna stay at home...i want to hold on to everything...instead...im losing everything.......i stay form 6..my result just average....not any better...i stay at home...get more pissed with my parent and they oso feel the same thing towards me.....wanna make money when working but im losing it cuz i got money i buy stuff laaa....tomorrow is june....i feel like doing something for a change...a real smething...i already got 1 plan.....throw away all my manga n magazine..i've been holding them for too long n it only bring harm to me...theres like 1000++manga+mag in my room..n i nvr touch them..but then i always scold my bro n sis for taking them n fight wit my parent cuz i wanna keep em....now it seems......for what?...im letting go...it really part of me...it is who i am back then...all my classmate know if they wan find manga look for me...but that was standard 6 that was form 2 that was form 4.....until when am i gonna hold on to it...i should let go of it in lower 6...2 years.....same with form 6....i guess.......thats all......i think........its time to change........let see what i come up with tomorrow...

lyric to the song below.....been hearing this for years now...but now only keep thinkin bout it....i love janice....XD....since ...dunno when haha....







Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that life's been showing you
Where are you going to?
Do you know?

Do you get what you're hoping for?
When you look behind you there's no open doors
What are you hoping for?
Do you know?

Once we were standing still in time
Chasing the fantasies
That filled our minds
You knew how I loved you
But my spirit was free
Laughing at the questions
That you once asked of me

Repeat 1

Now looking back at all we've planned
We let so many dreams
Just slip through our hands
Why must we wait so long?
Before we see
How sad the answers
To those questions can be

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i got a lot to write now...i wan share a lot...but......i just way too darn lazy to write long post...again...
so i just choose 1 topic.....listen to this 2 song...its janice wei lan n mariah carey singing do you know where your going to...but to non chinese i bet u dunno who the hell is janice wei lan...but do you think mariah is better?..Actually started off with me askin jeffrey 1 chinese song...then i thinkin...why people always have the thought malay wont listen to chinese song....well to me(at least) its about nice song...not language...i always listen to not so famous artist...n ppl wonder why...this 2 vid explain everything o...






next 1 ...angels n demons....freaking nice!!!!...got a lot to write bout this great movie...but not just this...night at museum 2 oso freakin nice...but hey ppl start to msg me on msn d..i lazy wan write here n chat there....proof?

pure stupidity

random fact bout things around me...

if you want to go inside my house you need to pass through 1 thing.......................the front gate...

i hate gays...i mean a normal guy love another guy....but you cant call that guy normal rite?....but since when gay is not normal?...
i love myself...........but.............does that mean i am gay?so...do i hate myself since im gay?

i love games...either sports or video games
i play for fun....not for win...
then my friend ask me...if u play not to win y u play?...i replied..for fun?i love the feeling when scoring goal....my fren then say...ok u love that rite?...try kik the ball to your own net...im sure u love it since u not playin to win....

my math teacher always says practice makes perfect...but i love word of wisdom...and there;s this one saying...nothing is perfect/no human is perfect and so on....so??why we practice then?

my physic teacher say this.....theres no ideal gas in this world...so...............dont try find the ideal girl.....

you play in 1 competition...
you get 1st place woot!you win!!good job!!!!
you get 3rd place GREAT!!at least u win something!all those hard work pay off finally!
you get 2nd place...............owh...too bad for you.......you ALMOST win...aww......


watch the vid...quite short...lamest way to die....for birds of course.

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another lame joke from me i guess.....actually waitin for download to finish....thats y blog...nothing better to do in 5 min....n its 2am in the mornin n no one to chat wit....i gonna ended up bored the other fella anyway...good nite sweet dreamz...

at its limit...

erm bout the title...later o....yesterday nite for the 1st time this year i chat with people haha..i go kacau ppl 1st...kinda rare actually for me to disturb ppl in msn...so disturb anna,jyn ling,faris,jonathan,elaine,another elaine,joe,n some other la...forget about this fun d....but then damn kelam also la...20 min oni kev call me dota...i was like oi later ah i busy...he say do what?..i reply.. chatting...n he like fuck u come dota...inside there i host n we argue la...other player like =.=!!swt...i say damn fuck ah u i wan chat wit leng lui a....he say fuck girls la..n i reply damn fuck la u damn hard all of em on9 together y u ask this time la...then he say..then y u come?....i was like LOL...hehe i choose dota over girls....gila kelam ah...haha

ok at its limit...its my power supply...my poor power supply at its limit d...playin dota today...suddenly the screen goes black..i was like wtf...n i check nothing also...n feel the casing darn hot...n i can oni say shit!...but then relieve cause i tot the motherboard gone d...see see power supply overheat oni...fuh...really scare the shit outta me.....new board gonna cost around 200...new power supply?...gaming around 100 normal around 20...quite ok la...but i darn kelam try take old pc power supply haha..see see not compatible cause the old 1 outdated d haha...some few fun pic...n yeah it look nice but i din enjoy doin that cause im fixin thing not playin...XD...n no work is fun...

zaman batu power supply

new cooler 1

from other angle

zaman batu processor

left new 1..right..zaman jahiliah punya pc

not so bad....

today play as usual...get dunno how many shit...holy shit...but discover new thing...i can download n host n open msn n open itunes n no one lag.....well streamyx not so bad after all...just not so good most of the time....try to be postive...look at the glass half ok...
if u a lee hyori fans u love this...but i guess u all just not....just watch if u have free time...my fave artist at the moment...





to do list....
medical checkup(LOL)been delayin it since 2 weeks ago
marley n me-done...nice movie..go watch or download it..
bride wars...hopefully i watch it...its in my hdd since last week...
toradora-episode 4...21 to go...nice anime...go watch it!
family outing-not recomended for non korean artist fans...
go out pasar malam wit joseph tonite!...any1 wanna join?

update

recent update??i just got ...but dun worry i not emo or anything...prove?i canHAHA with faris n ocean

in 10 year when i become a parent

best lose this year...

erm 1 of the draft is publish...just scroll down...y din publish?not finish?...just nid to convert tga image to jpeg but too darn lazy...but today play best lose this month...so convert this pic n that pic together....the post is 3 post below this post...i think...

lovely song

rather than putting video here i feel like image is more proper for some reason i have no idea what....very lovely song and lovely mv...love this songXD...

Do you hear me?
Talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets harder

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you, I promise you I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

best bowling pose ever

cant get enough or her...

ridiculously lazy

try to open gg..cant....damn stupid...then 10 min i thinkin what to do tonite since no gg...got internet but....dunno what to do..LOL....ended up lstening to olivia ong remake of quiet nite n quiet star by frank sinatra...try to sing the song...just realize wth the lyric oso...how say...the word arrangement of the song like shit haha...try youtube it la...promise joe kor that i blog today...i planning to break the promise cause i just too darn lazy to blog...now blog since i got nothing to do...manga oso no update....later plan to do facebook know me thingy..plan to do ling time d...just too darn lazy to do haha...ok my msn pm say a guy gonna shoot me with gun ..why?...well today see that guy...funny thing is...he seems like try to avoid me...i was wth...i scared sum1 see see that fella scared of me...ok full story...last week i ask ling wei go movie...but 1 hour late this guy name kevin ask her out 1st..i say nvm la can i join?then ling wei say dunno i ask him 1st....then ling wei come see me say sry he say dunwan...my feeling that time wtf is wrong with this guy..so fucking kelam...its not his gf or anything also...so basicly since last week to yesterday i really wanted to know who is this kevin la..so freaking kelam...a day after the movie i ask ling wei..how was ur 'date'....she say...booringg...the movie is booringgg he also booringgg....i was like HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA padan muka kelam guy name kevin!...of course i din say that la...and then this week i ask her again she say ok....watch movie with her...erm...oh ya paul blart mall cop..quite funny...but then again jusco...because walk together with her ppl assume she my gf...zzz rite?..shasi kelam lke shit...meet him...oh bawa gf makan sini la.....then benjamin....wah ur gf cute o...LOL...and yeah back to main story....COINCIDENCELY...kevin oso come jusco and saw us together....i go work...see oscar...then he like ooo semalam happy ah dengan leng lui...then i say...eh macam mana tau?...oscar say...adala orang bagi tau punya...i say...siapa?..oscar..you tak kenal punya..me say...ei cibai tell la....oscar...kevin la...then i lke...wtf he know hahaha....he sure curse me like shit 1....haha..sei lo..go disturb ppl crush pulak...so today oscar show me this kevin...he like 150+cm...damn small or shud i say...pendek?hahaha n me n oscar both 180 n 170+like budak oni he...ceh...but then he n ling wei could make a cute couple but too bad..i love see people miserable...what else ah..got 1 more story but too lazy to type la...nevermind la..put 1 coincidence story 1 more....play with faris gg last nite...guess who we play with??...fariss sis LOL....too bad i dun have replay of the game...but i do have few ss..click on it for larger view...quite fun game oso la...i kutuk faris like shit that game...wei ur sis noob la...wei i pawn ur sis ok ar?

1st pic starting
2nd pic..i kill adibah
3rd pic adibah pawn faris LOL never thought the day faris pawn by his sis is so soon...hope kam wah see this hahaha

3rd post for todayXD

Some people are meant to be best friends, some are not.

Some people will share with you their ups and downs; trust you enough as a brother/sister to tell you everything about themselves.

Some people keep things to themselves, while at times they may share with you, at other times they just don’t seem to want you to know anything about them at the moment.

Some people are just nice to talk to; you’ll feel the kind of warmth that’s very comfortable whenever u run into them, chatting for hours and yet still not be bored of them.

Some people can appear to be good friends with you, but deep down you’ll know that it doesn’t feel right, because they’re faking it.

Some people may not appear to be friendly, but if you make an effort to get to know them, they can turn out to be best friends you’ve ever made.

Some people are good jokers and can make the atmosphere great, some are too good of a joker that they’ll go overboard and hurt others without realizing it themselves.

Some people are strong, always encouraging themselves to move forward against the odds, the kind that will be a source of inspiration to the people around them.

Some people just like to make fun of others mistakes, yet when they need help, they’re quick at forgetting the damages that they’ve inflicted upon others and demand help from those that they’ve hurt.

Some people made mistakes and regret about it, hoping for forgiveness from those that they’ve hurt.

Some people are unhappy but couldn’t do anything about it because they’re afraid they might hurt others; hurting themselves instead would seemed to be a better choice.

Some people are smart; with little effort they can have great achievements.

Some people who are not-so-smart will just have to put in extra effort to achieve their goals.

Some people just couldn’t be bothered with things around them.

Some people appeared not to be bothered with things around them, but actually they do, just that they don’t spend much time babbling about it.

Some people are contented and happy with what they have.

Some people though are happy with what they have, will hardly feel satisfied because they believe they can be better.

Some people chose to be in an association for a genuine noble cause, no matter how naive others will think of them.

Some people see the personal benefit that they’ll get when they join an association, so they’ll do whatever it takes to be part of it.

Some people advise others things that others should do in a very convincing way, but they do not practice it themselves.

Some people become somebody else and not themselves because of peer pressure; some are just who they are.

Some people change.

something i want to shareXD

ok roaming around alll over the world of internet...playin dota wit sum fella in sarawak..enter some us site...listen to korean singer..something to share with u all..click on the image above...some sohai racist fella say stupid things...so i just join in by saying...INDIA POWER SINGH POWER!..then check this out...ridiculously cute!!!onion!!

http://www.onion-club.net/avatars.php

and this 1 also ridiculously cute younha!
check out on 0.57

fucked up beyond all recognition aka FUBAR

today play dota with kev n lich....play 3 game fucked in all 3 game...its like....wtf went wrong?...we 3 good player n we get fucked up really badly in all 3 game..the sad part is its not even a close game or anything...1 sided game n we on the losing side...really...FUBAR.....now chatting with jonathan..talkin bout the game...thats the main reason i blog now...so fuck this fella so noob but try to talk pro by using short form like HoT n ac...wtf...its like malay try to talk to me in english...really hate that...ok back to the game detail...1st game me pit lord lich enigma kev dk...that stupid kev wan kill kill but get killed in the end...i cant kill so fucked up just like that...lich bored d so use ulti for fun ni..2nd game i use faceless void which i know i gonna have trouble farm...n later yeah i got trouble farm n easily die...kev got moon gt a few good kill but then get aimed n die a lot...lich use puck...which he kept be killed by windrunner in mid lane...another bad game...3rd game we thought victory is finally for us but as usual lady luck wont smile at us even a bit...superb hero lineup...bara for kev omni for me n lich got lycan...what can go wrong rite?....pretty much everything i must say...i go charge n die cause kev wait lich go n lich expect kev to charge n we 2 support kev....so?naga get fat destroyer triple kill..fucked up...but before dota qute nice also la..watch wolverine....for 2nd time!!!!...plan go 11.20 get early bird rm6 ticket...but i wake up already 11.15 n call they 2 n they like HAH?u nvr call or anythin i tot cancel...but later 12.30 we go watch rm10~~T_T~~2 time d...that day tot super wednesday but then movie premier so no rm6...but the funny thing is 11.20 thy open 2 cinema for wolverie..12.30 n 1.40 oso they open 2 theatre for this 1 movie..really indicate no other better show to play...haha..after the show we wan go infi..all oso agreeed to walk there but then as usual..coincidence...right when we left jusco it started to rain!...we run like shit haha....n guess wat we nid go jusco back after play...same thing happen...right when we left infi rain started again!...then we like...woi who bad luck here ah!...then i keep quiet....HAHAHA...fucking coincidence....today make friend with 1 girl..her name is rozana...erm i think thats her name...not so sure...ask her for movie n then i think...hm..no other thing to do ar....everytime i meet ppl old fren or new ppl i sure ask go movie...its like...what other thing to do...what else can we do here in ipoh ah?....sad oso la...girls cant dota or hang out at mamak...if go mcd...sure like 1 hour max..if with guys 5 hour oso can hahaha...so in conclusion...dont fren with girl! LOL...if think carefully...i go out at 12..come home at 4.30 cuz got work at 5...n oni movie n dota...no eat or hang out walk around commenting on every single thing we see...if wit girl...after movie eat then...erm....do...erm....dunno...LOL...usually what girl do with their spare time??study??..haha i remember 1 lyric...girl oni good for 3 thing cooking cleaning and...erm..save it for later la...but then this rozana quite funny la..she gt 2 a for her spm..n its pendidikan islam n tasawurXD...i wass like..WOW...i gt C or D for my pendidkan islam...ask her she say never have boyfriend b4...then...listen to english song more than malayXD...NEVER go out with boys to hang out or movie or something...and im the 2nd or 3rd guy she talk a lot with over the last erm...her lifetime???LOL...it seem the typical malay guys dun like to disturb her kind haha...another weird finding for meXD,,,,but then quite stupid the 1st line i talk to her...wei kenapa diam?malu ke mak ayah tak bagi cakap dengan lelaki ke?memang jenis diam ke...takpun memang mengada ngada nak orang cakap dengan ko dulu?...XD....i guess thats all la...its qute fun to know new ppl everyday...but then quite stupid oso la...know some1 but after that forget them then come another 1....but then still stick with your old fren...but i think later....sure lost contact...i guess thats life...we meet people we say hi we leave them we say bye...and keep that cycle going n going n going...but then its hard to forget people once you know them...even after 3-4 years...weird rite?...best example is hanafis...last time always hang out with him....library,pirated vcd's,celebrity gossips,magazines,missed those old times...still remember he so addicted to lizzie mcguire so i say wei why la ur gf hillary duff like that...go advice her la dun dedah here n there...XD..then he kutuk michelle branch cause im into her that time...haha..but like i mention in my blog last month see him after 4 years..1st word i say...wei rambut ang macam gampang ...but then quite kelam la since i din recognize him at 1st after like 10 sec oni i know its him...oh ya yesterday meet erm...izrin..she adibah neighbor...i was walking n suddenly..HAFNI!...i turn around n look at her..i was like..who the hell is her...looks familiar....wait i know!!she from my ns camp!...n then she say..kawan adibah...then i like..LOL lucky i no say hajar... remember her but forget her name...take me 5 sec to remember her name...XD...i dont know why but i think she gotten fatter...or izit my eye oni?.shit if this goes on i may nt recognize my own wife if we din see each other for 1 month...doesnt it like...fuckingly ridicolously crazily stupid?