keep smiling >_<

problems~~
they never seems gonna end right?
its either
relationship,
studies,
test,
assignment,
or even friendship
and often all this leads to pressure
then start no mood and stuff
but
does sulking or sekutu-kutunya
really helps?
different people
react differently to things
but
dont you think
the world need 1 more happy person
and less 1 moody person?
then...
why dont just keep smiling?
>_<
even if a person die
dont you think that person
dont want to see you sad?
i not saying it works all the time
nothing is
sometimes
just sometimes
we just need time to be alone
other than that
just keep that smile ya!
>_<

Himitsu/Secret

today upload this song on youtube
never knew how nice it sounds
until today...
thats the bad thing about downloading a whole album
kinda overlook certain song
maybe because in a mood to hear slow song when 1st listen to the album
haha
its himitsu by bonnie pink
the video down here...uploaded by me haha



heres the translation
not by me...
but..can say 95% correct la haha

HI~~MIT~~SU~~~


Because one angel dies for every one sigh
You scooped up what you spilled with both hands and ate it
Condemned by the appearance of just about everything going smoothly,
in the space between society and your forehead, you were unable to smile

By spoiling me,
by taking it out only on me,
you can feel relieved like with salt ice cream

Though I’m a big girl, I want to cry
You’re crying while laughing
The you that you show to me is
a secret for me alone

Even though people were envious, jealous, and bullied me, because
strange ones, throughout the ages, are totally isolated, I lived on strong
Unable to get away from busybody bees going bzz, bzz,
amid a whirlpool of rumors, your heart had hung its head in shame

By kissing me,
by sobbing only to me,
you can get worked up like a diesel engine

Though I’m a loser, I’ll fight
Someday I’ll make the world go wow
The you that’s been stripped bare is
a secret for me alone

Though I’m a big girl, I want to cry
You’re crying while laughing
The you that you show to me is
a secret for me alone

Whatever you do, you’re beautiful
Because no one can make a nice face to everyone

Though I’m a big girl, I want to cry
You’re crying while laughing
The you that you show to me is
a secret for me alone

Though I’m a loser, I’ll fight
Someday I’ll make the world go wow
The you that’s been stripped bare is
a secret for me alone

whats important?

your story my song is updated...
who got permission can go read...
who wan permission can pm or email me
LOL like lecturer wan give note pulak haha
its
this the word from 2nd last line
sometime...feelings just fuckin weird fuck up thing....

watch a movie...
this a line form the movie
if you not the 1st,you are last
what do you think?
do you think its right?
i not saying grammatically or spelling
well to me its not right
but its not wrong either
to me...
nothing wrong in this world...
if you are a frequent reader of this blog then mayb u know this
and yea the update on other blog oso got touch this a bit
sorry cant put here...just too many personal info bout me n my fren
not in a sense like fb password or bank acc password
its like who you slept with and who stole karu's car
LOL
that 2 only example...
me n my friend never did the 2nd thing
...who knows some fella come here see that n report
die wor...
dah la last time me n my fren all not so good with him
dunwan make new case haha
shit accidently go off topic...
well accident happens...
a lot
btw did you all know 160 die d on this 8th day of ops sikap
and around 11k accident in 8 day
sad right?
so drive safely haha...
fuck b4 i drifted further better end this fast....
if you not the 1st,you are last
to me...
it doesnt need to be always about you
how about we?
1st is just a number...
some people just love to be the 1st
on top of the world...
for me
i hate the 1st
i hate the attention
i hate the expectation
i hate it
BUT
i love win
so how is that?
ok
imagine this
becoming 1st
how to do that?
to be better than anyone else=everyone
other way/word
beat everyone
simplest example
you get 4.0
your friend 3.0,2.4,3.9
you re 1st

win?
you get 4.0
your friend 4.0
which is better?
but hey
no one wanna share
they simply wanna be the best...
why cant people just united and do better
can you imagine how great if iran n us work together
develop something good for human in nuclear tech?

well i can answer that
its human nature
people wanna be the best
they envy others
they greedy for things
you got a bmw...
cool...
but surely you wan 2 million lambo after that...
n yeah...later you most prob wan a private jet
world is a beautiful and funny place
wish im here as spectator
too bad im a player
games anyone?

another crappy post by me
thx for reading

its trend hahaha

another fucked up post...actually its worst what you see is i already fix half ...read if you want
gonna fix later...if i want or feel like to

this is my 1st 1 week holiday since i enter uni....
somehow it seems
once i stop doing something
i most probably wont do it again...
why's that?

2 years ago...

i went to this thing called national service...
before i enter that thing
it was after spm...
so what i do?
sit home
watch tv
24-7
drama
anime
movie
news
talk show
in short
any shitty stuff they put in tv
after national service
i guess some know already
...
i rarely watch tv anymore....
erm should be around,,,
once a week?
haha
well that is after ns until enter uni
after enter uni...
never watch tv
>_<
ok so whats my point here?
its...
my favourite thing since..
erm...
standard 4?
its game...
its been4 days since im home
friday was tiring....
i sleep all day...
saturday...
home all day too..
2 post that day...
yeah i was in front of pc all day...
and...
not dotaing...
thats why can surf all day..
and write all those post...
sunday...
1st day of raya..
wake up at 10am..
alone..
eat n stuff..
then chat...
below post got the thing with jonathan
haha
then...
went to hamizi house...
funny his father say im getting smaller
LOL...
din go anyone house for raya just chat with him for like 3 hour...
go home...
sleep like a pig..
yet again...
today...
surfing again...
find a lot of stuff...
some of em the pic i posted..
and yeah updating this thing you read here
aika invite me to her house..
ask her
who else i know gonna be there
she say
her mother
i din reply after that
went jonathan house with saidy go eat choc something
quite fun hang out with em even for lunchh oni...
then went mcd
see carol...
found out not so nice thing
just the kind of stuff that leave you speechless
go home aika message again...
scolding me
haha
then wan merajuk pulak...
she say
orang jemput datang menolak
tak nak cakap dengan awak
nak merajuk
awak nak buat apa?
i reply
check email ....
and of course
you can expect her cursing me in the next message
then call her say sorry
since i can use up to rm100++ my father encourage me use
since he pay extra to tm
if i dont use mean no need pay phone bill
until use rm100++
really good indicator..
im the only one to blame
if somehow phone bill reach rm100
somehow my parent and siblings dont use phone that much
but then again
even i myself dont call people often...

eh
i totally forgot..
suppose to be about games
ok why?
notice something?
no games in my activities
and around 5 months ago..
at least
i play 2 dota games a day
but this 4 days..
no dota at all
and around 20+ hour of surfing
n this blog i think take 3-4 hours?
haha
but not only games
chatting also really lazy to chat d...
dunno why
oni disturb jonathan,joe kor n jyn ling...
that 1 oso like 30 min?
haha
but dont worry
if you disturb me i'll reply
>_<
but if my status away mayb im out..
like when elaine msg me...
feel bad..
she also rarely disturb me
when say hi din reply pulak
haha really miss our time in ns
>_<

since im infornt pc oni listen to songs...
and browsing the album cover
haha
notice d last time
but din really take time to appreciate it
here the 3 most recent rie fu singles and album cover's
nice eh?
not the most prettiest singer around
the most beautiful maybe
>_<
but i like her music much
>_<
hooray to that haha
XD

present single cover

urban romantic album cover

romantic single cover

my fave song of the album
is not romantic..
or the string version of romantic
or present
but
suki
and
she cant say no
>_<

scary....

it doesnt make any sense...
how can this....

turn to this??

scary to see what world can do....or should i say popularity?


..browsing some stuff...which 1 should i choose?
this 1?
9500gt

or this?
9600gt
cost around rm80++ more...but maybe end of year oni can buy haha

found this on my hdd when cleaning up stuffXD
really haha

..

..................................part 2

lets talk about fasting month
haha
start fasting im here in ipoh quite nice
>_<
... but then there ...
remember the story i always wake up late?
its actually happen frequently after ramadhan start...
ok normally i sleep around 3-4 and my roomate around 2-3
the problem is with sahur...
at 1st we buy early when buying for berbuka we also buy for sahur
good plan...except....
how to wake up at 5 when you sleep at 3?
... swt..
so basically we wasted our money for 4 days buying stuff we dont eat
and yeah 4 hungry days...
2nd problem....
ok so we decide to eat around 12am or 1am....
go down there...
swt...
they oni start cook at 1...
around 2.30 oni finish....
cant order oso since they cooking the normal dish....
3rd prob....
2.30 oni can eat...hm....ok
imagine this...
you freakin tired and sleepy since its almost 3 in the morning....
do you think any of us wanna go down buy?...1 or 2 day ok la...everyday? sorry~>.<

WTF...actually between here and below got 100+ line...
but gone...
thanks to the pic you gonna see below...


ok i gonna highlight the one not deleted with white so basically what you see now n below is rewrite until the white text...or highlight...see which 1 i wanna put...

berbuka...quite nice....3-4 car go mcd or kfc...then movie...>_<...but normally once a week on weekends la....if everyday kfc....swt...

futsal...quite nice...we play at nite since everyone tired durin the day...
normally play football in big field...but nite harder find people...normally can gather 20++ people
but nite can oni manage find 13-15 people
nite class,project,club...
but still...quite nice>_<

i love being alone..
for some reason i not sure why...
class all finish on thursday
so thursday can go home d
my roommate ask go home with em thursday evening..
i say..
dunwan.....
hahaha
so that thursday nite oni got 3 ppl in 3rd floor...1 in some corner of the block dunno who...and izzat my classmate...that nite study with him until 11....then at 12 go bath...so darn quiet haha..
not yet find any weird thing though...just another quiet nite....
sleep at 4 wake up at 11...wtf..i plan to go home around 7 or 8...n guess what...you know la after wake up feel lazy and stuff...i even thought wan go home on saturday haha
but conisdering i havent sahur and most prob no place to berbuka..go home la...
go home friday saturday my parent wan go aunty house raya there
guess what...
i dunwan go
hahahaa
...dont blame me for hating place with many ppl
haha
so yesterday nite till now
so nice...oni me...ALONE~~
>_<
... best thing is yesterday...
around 1 go call friend ask about assignment
haha...
come on im alone..
nearest neighbour is 4 house on the right and 7 or 8 house to the left...
dont feel like raya at all haha..
wake up oso feel nothing...
go open lemang,make something to drink...heat up rendang,eat,play fifa...online..till 2.20pm>_<...
but later go friend house...
people invite d...
not nice if people invite you dun go...

music~~
i really sick of the raya song...
i mean...
every nite hear the same song over n over again....
ok true some are nice but damn...
around 10 track repeat the whole nite for 2 weeks?
WTF?..
luckily i bought the sonic gear headphone...
but kelam la...
wanna avoid listen to that song kena listen to other song pulak...
talk bout music~~
here song i hear right now..
quite nice~~
kinda like taylor swift love story...
mayb because taylor swift sing haha.I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one

......................................

its raya eve in im at my house....alone.....again........
haha i love being alone>_<...

a lot of things in my mind right now...
wanna write all these stuff for long time
but been very busy
and if write now feel like...
not right at all
haha
>_<
but nvm i feel like writing right now i guess here it goes
>_<

erm last post..kena scold by fren...
erm what after that ah....forget it just start new 1

headache
i think i got told i got post in jpa in my uni...
well...i din go for this 1 time...and suddenly...
fiq(vice president) come to my room and say,,,
hafni.....
nanti kena pergi kem peringkat kebangsaan...
i was like...WTF??
marching pun tak betul nak pergi kem macam tu ke?
gila...

engineering drawing...i kinda piss off with the lecturer but cant hate him cause he quite ok
can you imagine this...everytime engineering drawing class he ask us go library find how
to draw ourself..if really cant then only he teach how...
in 1st class he say its better that way..we learn better...
rather than he giving note its best we do our own note....
he got a point until....NOW!..he give assignment n i have no clue where to start
wtf with that...the starting part is easy thats y i dont care much...
now getting into complex part and we still nid do own note?
the ok part is we can come late and he give time have breakfast haha
class start at 8 then 9 he give break until 9.30 go eat if we want
but quite stupid that day..he ask...hu wanna go breakfast?
and guess wat?....im the only 1 raise up my hand haha
after he give me permission go eat all then wan follow
damn funny

waltz with me

The clock stops moving
The awkward dinner goes on quietly
as if trying to reveal something.

Oh, won’t you please shut up already
I doubt there’s an answer anywhere as to whether we understand one another.
If that’s what you’re looking for,
why not just bring yourself over here.

I’m very afraid of kindness
so I end up crying, because you’re kind
Don’t dance on your own
because you’re afraid to hurt someone
Please waltz with me

By the time winter comes to an end
the frozen birds are afraid that they haven’t thawed, and will fall,
so they remain flightless.

How much longer can we go on
I’m sure you’d say
to the ends of earth
casting aside all the warmth as you did.

Why do you go on living so sadly,
even though you know eventually you’ll lose this
It’s not like you can believe in anything
with such sad expectations.



I’m very afraid of kindness
so I end up crying, because you’re kind
Don’t dance on your own
because you’re afraid to hurt someone

If you’re being burnt by a mysterious flame

cry out, and call my name
even just once, even if it’s the last time
Don’t dance on your own
because you’re afraid to hurt someone
Waltz with me.

Please waltz with me.

HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

never thought holiday would be fun...normally if school got 1 week break or something it doesnt realy feel anything spectacular...this time however...feel...how to say....feel like you are on top of the world and wanna jump from 3rd floor and run and shoot the ball and scream like some crazy ass fella...after pass up the last assignment few hours ago feels like there's light coming out from somewhere and the world suddenly becomes green again after long deep sleep in frozen ice age...ok im beginning to say stupid things here..wanna go bath now..if somehow i feel like wanna write what happen last few weeks i will tonight...most probably wont since i already ask my friend come teach me something....you dont need to know what...but not the stupid stuff or anything...just another work....and assignment...and homework....swt...

edit-WOW...its been 10 days since i last updated....im that busy eh?haha

4am

its 4 am n i finally figure out what i need the most right now...at 1st i thought how to explain the different between active and passive matrix addressing but then my friend suddenly comes in and scold me...instead of doing all this with heavy head and stuff why dont i just sleep and when woke up and bath sure feel refresh and can continue twice as fast.....sometimes what you need is someone to scold you nicely before you realize wwhat mistake you make....haha..11am class tomoro test...wish me luck!

>_<

seriously if people think the pic below is perverted or any guy get turn on by it....i seriously think that person just some sick pedophile....=.=!!...and it is quite sad actually to think that people can get turn on by that..i think if american sees that they just gonna laugh and joke about how pathetic that is...

*gulp*

as days goes by i got more and more issues to face...sigh.....im not actually busy but i made myself busy...presentation thursday but i forced my group mate to complete it by today..so in short...if lecturer give 1 assignment say...2 week...i finish it in 2-3 days..for now im busy with assignement which due after raya holiday...kinda .cuti sekolah homework...n i plan to complete it all by this week...so..im extremely busy now haha.....

today again stupid thing happen...missed math class....why?do assignment which is due next week until 5am...then..erm...play dota until 7....wake up at 1....missed 11am class....how stupid is that?...luckily this my 1st time...dont know what to say to my lecturer later...maybe just buat tak tau...*swt*..this 2nd time already i woke up late for class.....that day..erm IT...class at 11...woke up 11.30...nornally if late i simply skip the class but that day got test...so ...with superb guilt i went and reach class around 12....she ask...why late?...erm...baru bangun...saya ingat kelas batal...saya tidur awal semalam so saya tak tau kelas tak batal...then she ask...semalam tidur pukul berapa?then i answered...10.30...bangun?..she ask again....i answered....11.30...*swt*...she was like astafirullahhalazim...tak sembahyang la ni?......me-*smile unwillingly*+*swt*...really big headache..i think most of the class i got at least 1 absent..i think english i got 2... really fucked up...i damn scared english this thurday...2 thursday class i skip already...why?class start at 8am....u think i can wake up?..worst part is ...english no final exam...all depend on lecturer impression...and i pretty much sure its not good at all for now...wouldnt it be great?some kelantan guy who barely can speak english can possibly get higher mark in english if this continues?...2nd worst part is...if my attendance below something %( i think this applies to all uni)im surely nid to retake...how fucked up is that if it really happen?..roomate?we 3 different class...so we don't really know each other schedule

cute scan

i damn bored d....from wednesday till today is either report,presentation,test on monday, or assignment..one word...FUCK...but from 6pm yesterday till now oni play play play....yesterday was nice...break fast at mcd in erm...prai city i think...quite nice...compared to kinta city....sigh..sad o haha...but to be fair kinta city already 10 year++ i bet this prai city dont even reach 5 year.....then at nite...dota!!!!been 3 month since i played last...and from yesterday till now i think already played 4 games..haha 4 hour ++ wasted...screw it...its better i play dota than jump off building rite?other than that...browsing some pic on the internet...got few cute pic..so here you go...

my current desktop wallpaper

>_<

soulkeeper or terrorbalde both also scary name

drowXD

vengeful spirit cute versionXD

currently msn dp...drow again>_<

LOL..remind me of pocket fighter

so nice...

aw....hahaha